If you don't know already....

I AM A HOMEBODY! I love to hang out with people, but I'd prefer to be in my own home. I'm comfortable here, I'm not an outgoing person so it's better for me to be comfortable than for the outgoing person to be because they can go places and be just fine most of the time, that's just not me. And don't get me wrong I love to go to restaurants too, but only the ones I know and love. New places I only like to experience with family. Bowling is ok, but I'm horrible at it. I'm just not good at the whole making friends and being outgoing. So if I don't seem friendly that's why.

Holidays

Now before I get started I would like to say I love the holidays, even though what I'm about to say may make it sound like I don't. The Holidays are great, but since I'm not longer a kid I just can't wait until they get over. All the people in the way doing their last minute shopping, all the extra work that you have to do if you work somewhere like a bread store, walmart, toy stores,... yada yada. Not that the extra money isn't great, but getting out with all the snow and the people and everything is just a bit annoying. I'm not bad with people, but there's a limit and after that limit I just want to run people over with my cart and beat them up lol. I guess that tells you just how much of a homebody I really am though. The holidays just aren't as great once you grow up, the magic is gone. I wish that the magic was still there.

Rambunctious

We moved into our house in May of this year and after a few months I noticed this black cat was always hanging around the house next door that was for sale. Well just a month or so ago a couple bought the house next door and the cat was still hanging around. Well I guess some time between when they tore the back porch off of the house and when they built the wall up the cat got in the house. Well one day when Miles and I had just gotten home we noticed a meowing so we checked to see where it was coming from and it was coming from in the house in the basement. The couple were still doing work to the house after all they're going to make it a barber shop, unsure if they're going to actually live there or not. So I kept waiting to see if I could find someone to talk to and after 3 days with no luck I remembered that the couple happened to be related to someone my family knows. So I call my step-dad and he calls this man and he gives us the go ahead to go into the house and try to capture the cat (after all the couple didn't actually buy the house, this man did) So we go in and we find the cat but it's in this whole in the basement wall that gets quite small so we couldn't get it. So we found a trap and set food in it to capture this stray cat. Unfortunately the cat was so smart that it just wasn't going to fall for it so they put on gloves and caught it the next day and I went over that morning to see if it had gotten caught. They told me the story and then told me that my step-dad had told them to ask me what to do, which of course I gladly took it off their hands. The poor thing was dirty and very light weight. After I got it home I brushed it, held it, got it some food,.. the normal needed things. After doing all this I took the time to really focus on it. So now I get to describe it. One it is a she, just so I can stop saying it! But she is a black Persian with beautiful green eyes and she barely weighs anything. She's very kind, but not a people cat. When trying to get her out of the cage she hissed, which scared me, but then I noticed that she was just hissing she wasn't trying to bite or claw at me, but just hissed. She didn't fight me when I tried to hold her, but just laid there on her back looking up at me. Her fur is soft and long and she's a very beautiful cat. Miles, my husband, of course informed me that could not keep her :( I didn't want to take her to the Humane Society or try to give her away until I had properly brushed and bathed her. So needless to say I've had her for a few days, which is a small amount of time, but just enough time for me to fall in love with her. I realized I would probably have her for a few days or weeks and wanted to give her a name for the time, no matter how short, that she would be in my life. Her being a black cat reminded me of my love of cats that I got from my grandma on my dad's side, which reminded me of a black cat she had years ago. So through all of this I came to the name Rambunctious, which was her black cats name. I am sad to say that I still haven't talked Miles into letting me keep her and tonight she will be going home with my father-in-law and will be put in their barn area with another cat and a couple of harmless (to cats) dogs, the area is almost always heated and the pets are always fed so I know she'll be taken good care of and with her not being a people cat she'll probably be quite satisfied. She'll be able to hide and won't have any people bugging her, but I will miss her and I will cry. I won't be able to watch her leave with my father-in-law. I'm not made to say goodbye :'( Maybe just maybe I can talk him into keeping her, but I doubt it and that is heart crushing (as Bones would say) My heart is heavy and so are my tears :(

December 7,2010

So currently I'm stretched out on my loveseat listening to Katy Perry's Thinking Of You and trying to find something to do. I'm incredibly bored. I don't want to watch tv, play video games, or be online, which are all the things that I love to do. I can't sit outside on the porch or take a walk due to stupid winter. I hate winter! I wish I could hang out with someone, but 1. I don't want to go out in the cold, 2. Most of the people that would be available live 30 min away, 3. There's really nothing do unless you have money, which leads me to 4. I have no "just to spend" money,... So yeah I'm bored. I've done the dishes so can't do that, but I don't really want to clean either, which isn't a big deal because the house isn't really all that dirty. Sure it's not as clean as most of my friends when I go over to theirs, but sorry cleaning isn't really my thing. If I clean I won't be able to find anything. Anyways I've bathed, my hair's done, I'm dressed, cats are fed and bathed (baths happened yesterday for them),... ... ... ...
What do you know I don't even have anything to say! This is just annoying!

Letdown

On second thought, I won't mention what changed. It was to much of a letdown to want to bring it up :(

Surprises

*For all the people who actually get on here and read these: Wow, it's been a while since I've been on here. Sorry for my being away I know how boring it can be waiting for someone to update lol.*

I've recently...well, I guess the word changed could be used here. I've lived most of my life thinking and feeling certain ways about certain things and even though others told me I'd change my mind, but I just assumed that I wouldn't. I don't feel at liberty to say just what things have changed, but I hopefully soon will be able to say what they are. The point is I'm finding myself completely amazed at how things can change in an instant and how each stage or chapter of your life brings you something new. Some of the things you may have wanted and some you may have not, but all it takes is just an instant and suddenly you find yourself in a place you've never known before, a place where you want things you never wanted before or don't want things that you thought you did. A time however short it may be that you for once feel in control of what happens. I don't mean to say that God isn't in control of everything, but for once it isn't in the hands of grandparents, parents, other family members, friends,.. so on. You have your own plans and you can choose to tell others or to not tell them and it's completely up to you (and your spouse, if you have one)
*and here I start going slightly off subject, but hey it's my blog lol ---> It seems that to often in life other people rather they be family, friends, acquaintances, or people you don't even know can somehow take control of your life and they make it seem like you aren't in control. They are always saying do this or that and giving their opinion and pushing you through a door that you more than likely didn't want to go to. Some people can get by without others doing this to them, but some of us can't. Don't get me wrong I'm grateful for help, but there are some things that just shouldn't be up for discussion with the people outside of your home be it family, friends, acquaintances, someone you don't know, or an enemy.
Yes, I know you may be thinking, "Wait, so you're telling me you aren't where you want to be in life? You don't like your home? Or anything else?" No, that's not what I'm saying. I love my home, this is the house that I chose and I love my husband I chose him too. lol. As for where I am in life I'm not satisfied... that has nothing to do with my family or friends. I would like to have a job, but not just ANY job. I want to do something I love! Interior design, fashion, psychology,.. something better than the "everyday" jobs. They all require schooling, I don't understand why. I mean sure psychology I could understand. But interior design or fashion, anyone with a brain and some fashion sense can do that. And I know not everyone acquired fashion sense or good taste. I happen to be related to a lot of people who should really find their inner diva. It's a nightmare it really is!

Well, anyways. Mind and thoughts changed. I'm feeling pretty bored here recently. Blah so anyways That's what I've got to say for now.

Anybody Wanna Testify?...

Once in a Youth Service I was required to get up in front of everyone there and lead testimony service, but I couldn't just lead it I had to make a "speech" before it and it had to at least be a minute. As you probably all know I was scared out of my mind! I hated to be up there and to be honest they were lucky I showed up. Anyways while I was up there I talked about the importance of testifying and letting people know what God has done for you, but now as I think about testimonies they aren't just so others know what God has done for you, but it's also a way for you to really realize what He's done. Sometimes we go through life and have so many things to be thankful for, but we don't even realize it until we speak it. I know that if you're anything like me that won't be easy, but I'm not even saying that you have to stand up in front of your whole church, but tell your friends, your family, or post it on Facebook. Don't think of it as being boastful because you aren't being boastful, you're just sharing what the Lord has done for you. The Lord wants you to share your testimonies with others, so that they can have faith and hope, then one day when they are in that same place they can look back and remember that He did it for you. Think about it have you ever been in a place in life where you had no faith or hope then you remember that someone else was there and you think if God can bring them through it then he can bring you through it? I have and it gives me the faith and the hope that I need. So share you're testimony. Who wants to testify?!
If you have a testimony that you would like to share please leave it in a comment I would love to know what the Lord has done for you. I don't care if it happened recently or years ago, I want to know.

Oh no, it's coming...

Winter is coming soon and that's not a good thing! I hate winter, it's a very depressing time of the year. It's cold, everything is white, and gloomy. What's going to make this really hard is the fact that when I'm cold I won't leave my blankets to do anything because well, my body reacts weird to cold, it's almost as if I'm allergic to the cold :( I get these weird bumps (not goosebumps, I'm not that dumb lol) They look like bug bites and they itch like bug bites, it's really weird.
Hopefully I'll be able to paint during the winter to bring some color to the walls of the house then it won't seem so bad. I like big, bold colors so that should take away from all the gloominess. My living room is painted, well, not completely it has one coat of paint, I've been to busy/lazy to finish it. What I really want to do is paint our dining room, it's this beautiful red and I can't wait to see how it looks on the walls. we spend most of our time downstairs so if I can paint the whole downstairs and our bedroom and upstairs bathroom I should be good. Go BOLD or go home!
Happy Winter to those who love it, those who like it, and those who hate it.

V-log

Sooooooo... I was going to to a Video Blog on here today, but even being alone in my own home I felt SO stupid that I just couldn't do it. lol. I was starting to think I would have felt more comfortable knowing I wasn't alone and I should have wrote out something to say. I'm not really good at the "freelance" speaking, even when I'm just recording a message for my phone I write it out. lol. So we'll see if I can write something out for sometime this week.

Halloween is almost here. Kids grab up your buckets and adults fill the bowls with candy because here they come. Also parents/guardians keep a good eye on your kids there are some freaky people out there!


Happy Trick or Treating!

The Bad, The Good... Me

Have you ever had a hard time finding yourself? I have and even now being in my Self Finding Process I find it hard to know who I am. There are so many thing about me and who I am that I don't like, but I've been this way so long that it's hard not to be, well, me. I'm tired all the time, I'm lazy, I'm fatter than I've ever been (which I'm still not huge or anything but I don't like the extra weight), I hate to clean, I especially hate putting away clothes, I love to sit around and play video games and watch movies for the whole day without ever leaving my recliner besides to go to the bathroom or to get food, I never spend time with friends, I read into things, I'm to shy, I love to be creative but can't break out of my "shell" enough to be noticed, I'm a slob yet a perfectionist,... you may ask how one can be a slob and a perfectionist. Well, it's quite simple really you look at a room and say it'll never be perfect so what's the point. Yeah, I'm a lot of negative. I'm sure there are some good parts in there, I just don't know where to look for them or how to bring them out after hiding them for SO long.
So you've heard the bad now I'll try to find some of the good things about me, keep in mind these things may not be much to you, but they do mean something to me. I'm a decent cook, when I do clean I try to make it look fabulous, I'm creative. I love to design things that could be interior design, house plans, clothes, furniture,... so on. I seem to have a knack for writing, I always try to be friendly, I love to listen and help people with their problems. I've always said that my blessing comes from seeing others blessed.
Idk when I actually put some of the good down it just doesn't seem like much. Some people are so great at, well, everything and then there's me, just trying to find a way to fit in, somehow. I know that no one ever completely fits in, everyone at some point in time feels like a loner, but I tend to feel that way a lot, but that is in my personality traits to be a loner. I'm not big on crowds. I don't want to be the leader and I don't want to follow, so where does that leave me?
Anyways that's just some more of my thoughts. It's late and I'm tired!

Happy sleeping, Readers!

The Sims 3 (for Xbox 360)

If you love the Sims you’ll love The Sims 3 for Xbox 360!  I’ve literally spent most of the 2 days that I’ve had it just playing the game. I’m still figuring some things out on it, but I’m having a great time. I must admit I miss knowing cheats to get some quick money, but you can write books and paint pictures to get some quick money, and the more you draw and/or write the better you get so the more money you get. Not as quick as I want, but it works. You can also buy a guitar and put it in you inventory and play it around town and people will pay you! Awesome right? There are more and better features than before. More hair possibilities both style and color options, more and realer looking clothing, more jobs, you can make 2nd stories on your console (before that was only for the computer versions of the game),…. Yeah, there’s a lot and it’s great and fun! So buy it, play it, love it! Happy Gaming!

Out of Ideas

    So I find myself in a tough position. I have this strong need/want to write, but I don’t have any ideas that I’m passionate enough about to write.  Plus with being sick I’ve found it VERY hard to focus on one thing for much time at all.

    I guess the reason I find myself wanting to write is because my husband bought me the Sims 3 for Xbox 360, which I love by the way, but my Sims love art and so do I. I find them wanting to write books and such, which I also have wanted to do most of my life, but I’m just not that good of a writer. Even if I was a good writer look at all the books out! How would they ever notice me?

    There are SO many books out now of the same subjects that I myself would like to write about, even though my opinion may be very different than all the other I could see people not buying a book about a subject they’ve already read about a thousand times especially from a writer they’ve never heard of.

     Maybe if I took classes I would be able to write a book in my spare time, but I’m sure classes would be expensive, long, and hard for me. I’ve never liked school and even if it’s something I want to do I find that I tell myself no matter how bad I want it that I’ll never accomplish the schooling due to it being difficult in other words I’m telling myself I’d fail so why try.  Yeah, I don’t have much faith in myself, but that’s because I let me and others down so much that I can’t see myself actually accomplishing anything big. There are many things that I would LOVE to do, but due to my lack of faith in myself, I’ve never tried any of them. Such as I love drawing, interior design, photography, writing (as stated before), fashion,…. See I have a lot and I think I could be good at all of them if I wasn’t required to go to schooling to “follow the dream”

     So now I ask does anyone have any ideas, encouragement, input, skills in writing that may want to help me, tips on writing that would help,…? I’d love to hear the reader’s inputs. Yes, I know there are only a few people that read, but I don’t care about numbers I just want your opinions.

Thank you!

Who You Are Determines Who You Will Be

I find myself amazed after looking back over my life and thinking of all the decisions I’ve made, the people I’ve met, the places I’ve went, my friends, my family, even my ex-boyfriends… all these things and so many more have determined where I am today. Really once a “chapter” of your life is gone and you look back over it, it can be awesome or it could be really bad. I mean I’ve made some really horrible decisions and I’ve dated or liked some really stupid guys, but had I changed just one thing I could have been somewhere else. So even with my bad decisions and stupid ex’s I find that I’m in a town that I love, I own a wonderful home, I’m still in church, and I have a wonderful husband to share all of it with.  Sure there are better houses and probably better towns, but there are far worse places that I could be in. I could be a druggy, an alcoholic, a prostitute,…  or any other horrible thing that you could think of including death, but I’m not, I’m here and I love it! Are there hardships, yes. But who doesn’t have hardships in life? I mean really you may look at someone and think that their life is perfect, but if you pay attention long enough you’ll realize it’s not. Point is make the right decision, so you can be the right kind of person. Because believe it or not who you are today will determine who and where you’ll be in the future.

Sore Throat

1.) Sore throats are no fun!!
2.) This is the first sore throat I've had that cough drops made worse
3.) Gargle Salt Water it helps :)
4.) Hot Tea (sweetened or unsweetened) with honey (and lemon juice if you have it)<-- Unfortunately I don't have any lemon juice :( It helps to soothe your throat
5.) Lots of relaxation, but don't lose your job over it, it isn't that bad!
6.) A good amount of sleep. Make sure you sleep or it'll get worse
7.) Well, Idk a 7th one, but I don't want to leave it on 6 lol For those who don't know 7 is God's number :D <3

Twitter

So I at one time said that I would never like Twitter I signed up just to look at it and all I saw was some stupid boring page to me it was a more boring version of Facebook. But I decided to give it a chance and it's not like Facebook, it's a different more simple way of communicating with friends. @________ (the person's twitter name) tags them #________ (feeling or the main point) makes it stand out. P.S. I learned this through my friend Britt. Thank you btw! Sure like any website it has it's down falls and things you won't like, but hey that's just the way it works. So if @you don't have it #GETIT! lol

Lack Of Communication

Be careful that you always communicate well. Lack of communication can ruin a marriage, friendship, churches,... and SO much more. Don't ruin something great over not being willing to talk. Talk it out, so that there's no chance of misunderstanding anything. I hate to see good things end over some stupid misunderstandings. Happy talking!

A Good Way To Get Things Done And Feel Good About It

I hate to do things around the house, to be honest I'm lazy and I want to do what I want to do. I say that it's not going anywhere, so it can wait. Are you anything like me? If so I may have a way for you to "enjoy" doing things that need to be done and it's simple and I'm not charging for it, unlike everyone nowadays who has a good idea. It's a checklist. Yes, you may have tried a checklist before, but it's possible that you weren't doing it right. A checklist shouldn't only be the things that need to be done, but you have to include something that you want to do! I'll show you an example of a checklist I would make.

1.) Wake up @ 8:30a
2.) Take a shower or bath
3.) Watch a movie/eat <---FUN
4.) Do dishes
5.) Feed/water cats
6.) Clean litter box
7.) Sweep kitchen and office floor
8.) Watch a movie <-----FUN
9.) Clean up living room
10.) Pick up clothes in the bedroom
11.) Wash laundry
12.) Dry Laundry
13.) Go to work
14.) Cook
15.) Eat and enjoy movie with hubby <---FUN
16.) Put away leftovers
17.) Do dishes

You can add whatever you want to it and mark it off just as if it was something that needed to be done! Video games, movies, Facebook, Blogger, Play with the dog or cat, Take a walk,... you can add anything! But you have to do the things that need to be done! You can treat yourself a few time in the day, but make the main part of it work. Let's say your room is a wreck in my case it'd be you have clothes all over the place and it seems like way to much and you start to panic. In this case I'll change #10 to look like this.

Example: 10.)Pick up clothes in bedroom (Clothes of the dresser)

And the next day I'll do #__Pick up clothes in bedroom (Put away clean clothes) and I'll get to the ones on the floor the day after, that way I'm not just loaded down with this big room, but I just do a little bit each day until it's done. And you can do a little bit in a few rooms until they're done then do another few rooms until they're done. I also like to add little pick me ups on my list in case I start to not want to do things.

Examples: (I've gained weight so I'll put something like..) Yes, this will be hard, but getting up and doing this will help you to be active and lose weight! You can do it! (or the whole I have no faith in myself, but.. and it'll look like this) Everyone has faith in you and they know you can do this, so do it for them!

Anything that will inspire you to keep going and do what needs to be done.

I hope this helps. Just remember it's not supposed to be easy, but it has to be done. And don't forget to treat yourself to something YOU want to do or you'll go insane and it'll seem like way to much to handle. So happy cleaning!

So this is Lil' Bit. She was the runt of the bunch. We're babysitting her for my mother-in-law, but possibly keeping her, not sure yet. She was born in September 2010, not sure what date, but she's just the cutest little thing. Her and Scooter get along just great, they often sleep curled up next to each other, it's adorable!

Recipes

So I don't really like to cook, but then again I do... yeah, complicated I know. I want to be a good cook and I was hoping that any readers that have a good recipe, that they don't mind sharing, would do so. So if you have a good recipe that you would like to share please post it in a comment or if you know me then you know how to get it to me. Thanks!
And of course if I have any that aren't secret family recipes I'll post them :D

Enjoy Life

Psalm 118:24
This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.
:)
Romans 8:28 (King James Version)

28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
:)
Numbers 23:19 (King James Version)

19God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?
:)
Enjoy life no matter what! Things won't always go your way! Your friends may stab you in the back, the weather may be horrible, you may argue with you spouse (fiancé,boy/girlfriend), you may look horrible, feel fat,feel lonely, have to work, be broke, be sick,... the list goes on and on, but you know what, it IS the day the Lord made (Psalm 118:24) and He made you, and He made you exactly how He wanted you, so no one is really prettier than you because God made you that way and that's beautiful! No, I'm not saying to not take care of yourself because He also put you in charge of taking care of your body, but don't feel bad about the way you are. EVERYTHING happens for a reason and it will all work out for good Romans 8:28 says it and I believe it because God had it put in there and God doesn't lie! He has no need to lie! (Numbers 23:19) So don't try to tell me that you're better than me or anyone else because God made you and God made me and he made everyone else just as beautiful in His own eyes! So if you would like to call God a liar, feel free to say you're prettier or better than everyone else :) And on a final note Yes, Jesus love ME, THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO! :)

Friends Definition

The definition of the word friend according to www.dictionary.com :

friend (frɛnd)

— n
1. a person known well to another and regarded with liking, affection, and loyalty; an intimate
2. an acquaintance or associate
3. an ally in a fight or cause; supporter
4. a fellow member of a party, society, etc
5. a patron or supporter: a friend of the opera
6. be friends to be friendly (with)
7. make friends to become friendly (with)

Now, I know that having friends, making friends, and being someone's friend isn't always easy. But so many "friends" now days can't even compare to the definition.(#1 a person known well to another) We have all these people we call friends, but how much do we really know about them.(#3 an ally in a fight or cause, supporter) I've never seen a true ally lie to the person they're supporting (#6 be friends to be friendly (with)) To be friends or to be friendly isn't to go behind there back and say bad things about them, but tell them something nice when you're talking to them. I'm not saying I'm perfect or that I've never done any of that because guess what I have, but as we say in church "I'm preaching to the choir" I have a lot of people to say sorry too, but it may be just to hard to say it, but one day you'll all know. So if I've been a bad friend then I'm sorry and one day I'll tell you myself. Maybe on facebook, maybe in person, an e-mail, a letter,... whatever method I use. And some of you may not even be worth apologizing to, but I'll do it because I need to, because I have to forgive you and you have to forgive me, that is if you want forgiveness from God.
Luke 6:37 (King James Version)

37Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:

People

Unless you can read minds you'll never know what a person is truly like. You may see things that aren't there or you may see what you want to see. Not that I'm saying there is no way of knowing certain things, there are ways of knowing some of them, but not all. It is clear when someone is a holier-than-thou, an optimist, negative,... Easy things you can see or hear. But let's be honest you can't always tell if someone is lying, cheating, full of the devil, full of God,... Unless you're them and sometimes we think more highly of ourselves than we should, you know we see what we want to see, hear what we want to hear, so on.
I'm imperfect. I'm negative, lazy, self-centered, hard headed, needy,... Well, you get the point it's not good stuff. I'm not proud, but I'm not blind I see my faults. I won't tell you that I'm better than what I am. I can sing, but I'm only an average singer. I can cook, but only a few dishes and I'm still not the best at that. I'm a Christian, but I'm not the best Christian, I'm often to busy with normal life to listen to what's around me, it's better if things are shown to me in a dream. I've seen people in my dream that I'd never met before and I've dreamed out a whole day before it happened, but I can't tell you the future. I'll give you my advice, but it may not be the best. I can touch God through my prayer, but I'm sure others have had more powerful experiences than me. Does any of this make anyone better than me? No! And am I better than them? No! You may be better at things than I am and I may be better at things than you, but neither is a better person. I may study things besides the bible, but that doesn't mean that they're demonic or that I am, people are curious about the unknown that's normal human nature. How does mind control work or what would have happened if things would have worked out differently. Not to say that we'll try to use mind control on others or that we want things to change to the other way, just that it's unknown and we're curious. Sometimes things look like one thing and aren't that way, maybe you know someone who studies mind control and so you happen to read something about mind control and that has happened, so you think that they used it, it could be a coincidence. Point is stop reading into things. God knows their heart and He will take care of it. Don't say you know something that you have no clue about. Let God deal with it. It will all work out for good.

Thoughts

My thoughts, that's what this is all about right? Let's be honest I didn't exactly create this for people to read it though it would be nice if people did. So my thoughts currently are overlapping each other and rudely butting into other thoughts, which is keeping me from sleeping. So to try to get them off my chest I'll type them here in my trusty blog. (Blog is such a weird word) <-- Note I may be objecting weird things in like this a lot. And the rant begins:
Why do people say they want one thing, then freak out when they get what they want? You're just getting what you asked for!
And how come when you offend a friend they can't just calmly say "you said _______ and that offended me" where I would then reply with a "I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend you" (unless I did mean to then I'd just blow it off, sorry just being honest)
And why when you've possibly said something that could be offensive do people suddenly not text you back even after you've said "Did I say something wrong" and "I'm sorry if I said something wrong".. Could you at least give us the peace of mind of knowing that you are or aren't mad!
Why do people always second guess everything? You want something for so long then when you get it you wonder if something else would have been better. Guess what God's in control and if the other way is better God will make a way for you to get back to that place!
Why is I'm sorry so hard to say? Well, I know the answer to that technically, it's a humbling of ones self to another, which we don't like to do, but trust me you'll feel better after you say it!
Why couldn't I have blue eyes? It's my favorite color of eyes and I couldn't stinking have it? Why?! Yes, I know that no ones can really answer that besides God, but it still bugs me!
I feel pretty one day, fat another, ugly, skinny, happy, sad, hyper, no energy, .... what's up with that. I mean I realize people say I'm a pretty woman, but there's so many things that I see that keep me from thinking that. I don't know, maybe God had to give me zits and a big nose and other things because I would some stuck up person without them... but I still want the problems to go away. Yes, yes, beautiful in the Creators eyes, made you just the way He wants you to be.
Why on earth do people not want to hire me, I'm a good worker. Yes, like everyone else I would rather not work. I'll admit it, I'm lazy, I don't deny it. What would be the point in that?! But serious I fill out an app at a company I've worked for before and they know that I worked well, got along with others, did as I was asked, asked questions if I didn't understand,... yada, yada! So what's the problem? I had a break down and couldn't handle the work from in a different store with different people, more people, more customers, in a new town,working bad hours, just got married,... what.. do you you people think I'm Super Woman?! No, I am not and guess what I'm pretty unhappy with myself so I don't need you to look badly at me too! I'm a good worker and I loved my job, now I just want it back...
Why do people tend to enjoy the middle of the bed more than any other spot on the bed? or they like to sleep angled on the bed? Someone needs to create an angled bed.. not sure how that would work, but hop to!
Healthy foods are way to expensive. I know it takes a lot to create healthy food, but everyone says they want us to be more healthy! LOWER THE COST BUDDY I'M NOT TRUMP!
It's so easy to gain weight, but WAY to hard to lose it! Need an intervention!
Why is it so hard to find friends? Why do people want to be friends with the people that you have to be up there butt for them to pay attention to you, but someone like me who just wants a real friend gets dumped for people who think they're better than everyone else. NEWS FALASH!! (yes, I purposely spelled it that way) you're no better than me! And I'm no better than you! Get over yourselves!
Which brings me to another problem. How come people think they're better than other people? I've seen people that are average looking people, that think they're so much better than someone way more beautiful than their whole clan put together. And people who have an average voice that you could find in any church thinking that they're better than people from IBC! So they just sit down on God because it's not them and theirs singing! WHO CARES it's NOT ABOUT YOU! It's about GOD! Shoot that high horse you rode in on and join those of us who see things for what they are.
While I'm on my rant. For anyone who thinks I'm stuck up I'm not! I'm just tired of people who have done me wrong! (not saying that I'm perfect because I'M NOT!) And yes, I'm shy, that makes having friends hard. I'm not creative about things to do and places to go or gifts to give, but you know what I'm not stuck up, I don't lie to you, I'll be there when you need someone to talk to, or a shoulder to cry on, and you don't have to be up my rear to be my friend. If you don't talk to me for a week, month, year,... whatever that's fine, but don't talk behind my back, think you're better than me, ditch me, dump me, and then when all you're other friends leave you come crawling back nuh uh no way, not happening. I've spent to many days and nights crying! To many miserable months! I don't want to go back to that place. So don't try it!
Stupid decisions, choices I should have waited to make, chances I'll never get back,... yeah, it's all in the past, but it'll haunt you for the rest of your life!
I've ranted, and yes, I feel much, much better! But I'm still not feeling tired enough to sleep. Guess I'll just lay down and see what happens

Wisdom Teeth

Have you been through the stages of wisdom teeth yet? If you haven't trust me you don't want to! It's painful. I currently have an infected wisdom tooth with swollen gums (which is normal with wisdom teeth, no matter how much/how well you brush)You'll go through a lot of discomfort. So far I have not got the tooth pulled, but I will update when I do. Can't wait to update!
Update #1: My appointment is scheduled to get 2 teeth pulled (one wisdom, one not) on Monday at 2:30pm! Wish me luck!

UPDATE!: So I got only one tooth taken out (they think they can save the other) So the wisdom tooth is out. And it didn't hurt when they took it out (the tooth looks cool lol) and I'm still not hurting (and no I haven't taken any pain medicine) It's a little awkward and you don't want to open your mouth very wide, but other than that no pain. And I'm getting the stitches taken out on the 7th :D The bleeding and the gauze that you have to put in you mouth is annoying and made me gag a lot, but since that's been over I've been great! So yes, you'll be nervous. Yes, you'll feel a little bit of movement that they call a pinch (didn't hurt though) Yes, you'll be numb for a while, which feels weird. Yes, you can't open your mouth very wide. Yes, you HAVE to relax for the first couple of days. Yes, you have to watch what you eat. But no, it's not unbearable. No, you don't have to starve (just sip soup or applesauce.. something soft) And most importantly yes, you'll be fine. They don't expect you to be brave my own dentist told me that lol It will take a while for it to look normal and you'll have to rinse with this salt mixture (I like it, but that's because I love salt lol) It's 1/2 tsp salt with a warm cup of water, this mixture helps it to heal, but it doesn't burn it. So happy teeth pulling!

not sure what to call this, just read it.

There are many things I'll never be able to say, do, show,... or even feel. Some people I will never be able to say sorry too. My Uncle Rick died on my birthday. The Sunday before it I felt this great need to just hug him and tell him I loved him, but I left church that day and never got the chance to tell and show how I felt and I will always regret that. So many time I could have been there for my friends or family and I chose to be somewhere else. So many wrongs that I can never make right. So for the times that I abandoned any of you or ignored you or whatever I may have done I am truly sorry.
But currently I'm regretting most of the incredible opportunities I've had that I let slip past me. The opportunities to live life to it's fullest. Yes, I am Apostolic Pentecostal, but that doesn't mean that life has to be boring! You just have to know your limits.
Live, Laugh, Love! It's SO true. LIVE life to it's fullest, LAUGH at any opportunity given, LOVE with all your heart. Sure if you love with all your heart you'll get hurt, but if you don't love with everything in you you'll regret it later. Is it easy, no, but don't look back when you're older and regret life. You can only live life once!
Make sure you have the things you needm but din't forget to (every once in a while) get things you want.
Don't just walk through life, but look around see life's beauty, enjoy every scent (that's worth enjoying), feel the breeze and let it take you somewhere far away to more happiness (even if you're already happy, you can be happier) Don't take for granted all the wonderful things around you, let them become a God-given drug.
Which brings me to a very big point. Don't leave God out! He alone makes life worth living. Think about it, what makes you happy? What are the thing that you would say make life worth living? Your spouse (fiance or boy/girlfriend), family, friends, pets, food,... even the weather? God made that! He created it, He knew we would need comfort in a physical form from others. Yes, we are created to worship Him and lead people to Him, but I also believe we were created for each other to give comfort, love, happiness, courage,... and to all together worship the creator of all things. Don't forget Him, He's important!

Christmas Tip

Ok, so here it is. Shop early, start shopping in like July. You'll have a lot less stress on time and money.

Also, you can do something crafty example: a jar of sweets with a cute ribbon and a name tag

Worry

Did you know you can worry yourself to death? Yeah, it's true. And just think about how many people you worry about! It's not just you. It's your spouse, kids, parents, grandparents, guardians, siblings, friends, neighbors,... the list goes on and on. Then there's all the different kinds of worry! sickness, money trouble, bills, salvation, cleaning, working,... it really never ends. And guess what! There're all kinds of people out there putting more and more worry on you! Bigger taxes, higher costs, less insurance, more bills,.... Then you have all the people you don't even know that you worry about and that you hope the things that have happened to them never happen to you! Rape, murder, theft, cancer, diseases, marriage issues.... It's insane! People say they're trying to help and all they do is make it worse. I know you care and I know you worry, but in all honesty let me worry about me and you worry about you. People always try to butt in on people with marriage problems, you're NOT helping! Or they butt in on money problems, once again NOT helping. Every single person is different, we all deal with things our own way, don't try to make someone like you it won't work that person will be miserable because you are the only you and no one else can be exactly like you. They even say that with the family genes that if the parent felt strongly about something and it was passed down to the kid, the kid won't care as much as the parent. It's the same with skin (tanning)and even unfortunately religion. I'm not saying that the kid can't care as much, but normally they don't, they have to find what makes them care more for it on their own. Being pushy won't help, so stop worrying yourselves to death over someone else. Sure if the person lives in your house worry about them, but not to much, once they're out it's not your responsibility anymore, unless you're asked for help. Humans are humans, we will fall, but eventually we'll get back up. And we'll make mistakes, tons of them, but we'll keep going, while continually making more mistakes. Just think of God, he NEVER forces Himself on His people, but waits patiently. Just wait patiently, please.

Money

Why, oh why, must we pay for things? Why can't it all be free? We can do like on Couples Retreat and pay in smiles! :D That bought the groceries :D That paid the house bill :D Car bill taken care of :D What electric bill?... the list goes on and on. I would gladly use real money for the stuff that is just a want, but the needs.. you should have to be so stressed and worried about them. It shouldn't be this hard to pay a bill!

Forte

Each person has something they are better at than any of the people around them. It may be singing, dancing, architecture, house building, decorating,.. anything. And just because you aren't the best doesn't mean that you can't do whatever it is, but if you're not good at it at all then you should probably leave it for someone who is good at it. Don't torture everyone around you with your incapability, it may just cause everything to have to be redone by someone more experienced...

Old Friends

Can I just say, "It is WONDERFUL to be able to get in touch with an old friend!!!!!!"

Be the Example..

How I wish I could live my families lives for them.. just so I could show them how good God is and how much their lives could change, but I can't I can only pray for them and be the example.

It's a hard place to be, to just sit there and hope and pray that they notice the difference between your life and theirs and that they'll want what you have. They don't realize the amount of tears that you've cried for them and how important the "God thing" really is. And lets be honest being the example is tiring. We're human, right? We want what we want and we want it now. I know God's timing is perfect and maybe it doesn't make sense, it may not ever make sense why it can't be when we first ask, but I know that if I keep praying and I keep being the example that my sister and my brother and their clans and the rest of my family will be saved. That's better than any Christmas present, Birthday present, or anything that they could ever give me. I just want them saved... Help me be the example that my family and this world need to see!

Pictures

I would like to make known that many of the pictures I use are not my own and that I find them on Google. So thank you to whoever has posted many of the photos I use. I appreciate it and you should know that I used you picture because I liked it and thought it would fit best :D (Just in case anyone ever notices)

Do Pets Have Feelings?

I would first like to state that the idea of this topic and a few others were given to me by my friend, Spencer. Now on to the subject.

Yes, I have 3 pets and I can tell you by experience that they do in fact have feelings.
Have you ever heard/seen a pet cry? They cry when they are sad It could be that they feel left out, they want attention, they've been abandoned by their owner, they're mistreated,....
If they are well taken care of they will show love
But if you treat them wrong they'll hate their owner :( That just shouldn't be by the way.. treat your animals right!
Another example would be if you've ever had a party or just a few friends over and at some point you look around and notice hey "pets name" hasn't been around in a while, so you go to look for them and they're hiding under the bed.. guess what they're probably scared of all the noise and the people.
One of my absolute favorites, which is kinda mean and I understand that, but I'm trying to show my love. Have you ever held your pet when they just absolutely didn't want to be held? They got mad at you didn't they? They'll also get mad if you leave them alone for to long.
I hope pet owners already knew this, but if not I hope it was an eye opener. And keep in mind these are only a few examples. I'm sure all of you pet owners have a lot more examples. Feel free to comment :D

Baby Dedication

Baby Dedications are very important. No, we don't baptize the baby, but we are giving that baby back to God. We are stating that we will teach that baby the way to go and when God calls them that we will allow them to do God's will and support and encourage them. And lets be honest yes, they can be boring, but they are important to that child and the family.

Difference between actors/actresses and characters

I was amazed when earlier today I watched Cast Q&A on NBC.com for The Office. I saw how different most of the actors/actresses where from their characters. Angela is definitely the most different from her character, which she is also named Angela in The Office. Her character is very quiet, christian, old time and to see her she is just like the total opposite. Now in the Cast Q&A they couldn't decide who was the most like their character so they chose 2 people that they thought were pretty equally like their character and that was B.J. who plays as Ryan and Mindy who plays as Kelly. Now I don't see much of these characters so I can't really have my own opinion about that. Watch The Office :D <3

The Office

I <3 The Office! At first, I was very weirded out by it, how they're staring at the camera and they go to the conference room and talk to the camera, answer questions, or just say how they feel about thing. It's slightly awkward for a show. It's definitely different than any other show I've ever seen. After you see the humor in it you become addicted to The Office though. It's rareness makes it very interesting. It's characters are very different from each other.
CHARACTERS:
Michael who is the Boss and is always trying to make a joke he is definitely unlike any other boss ever he always tries hard to make people like him and to make people get along.
Jim is a Sales Rep., he loves to play pranks, and he has the same thing to eat for lunch every day.
Pam is the Receptionist she loves to play pranks, she wears sweaters and non-revealing clothing and is very interesting when drunk.
Dwight is the best Salesman of the company, he's very serious worker who people are always playing pranks on, but he has a not so secret relationship going on with someone in the office.
Angela well what can you say about Angela, she's Head of Accounting, she is definitely a perfectionist and is set in more of old time ways, she's not the most friendly person and she loves cats, she's also the leader of the Party Planning Committee.
Kevin is in Accounting and has the cuddly bear thing going on, he says nice a lot, and he loves bowling, and golfing.
Oscar is in Accounting and is the only gay guy in the office, he is very smart, and he hates Angela's baby posters.
Stanley is a Sales Rep. and is the only black person in the office and he is a very serious person, he loves Pretzel Day and Crossword Puzzles.
Phyllis is a Sales Rep. and is married to Bob Vance, Vance Refridgeration, she wears purfume that everyone hates, and she is part of the Party Planning Committee.
Andy is a Sales Rep. and has anger issues, he loves to sing, he plays the bango, and he went to Cornell.
Creed is over Quality Assurance and has 4 toes on one foot, was in a band in the 70's, and has the attention span of 90 seconds.
Ryan is a Temp and has been in and out of the company and he doesn't really like anybody in the office.
Kelly is in Customer Service and loves to talk, do online shopping, and fashion.
Toby is an HR Rep. and is known as the downer of all the fun that goes on, but he sits back in his office and plays games with Kelly.
Darryl is the Warehouse Supervisor, he's got some great ideas for the office, and he's a funny guy.
Meredith is the Supplier Relations Representative and the alcoholic, she will also sleep with anyone and makes deals to sleep with them.
And there are more people from in the warehouse and people that have come and gone in the office. As you can see they all are very different, but all together they make a very interesting work family that is fun and loving. And if you give them a try I know you'll learn to love them. You will laugh when they laugh, cry when they cry, hurt when they hurt,.. well you get it. GO OFFICE!!!!!!!!!!!

Wrong Address!

Okay so I LOVE getting things in the mail that are for me (except for bills) But since we moved into our house we keep getting mail from Cigna for some guy who used to live here.. we've been here since May and we've received like... i don't know 5 or 6 things in the mail from Cigna for this guy. You'd think after this many letters and the guy not getting back to you you'd say forget it nope not them. And they don't have a place where you can just send an e-mail oh no, you have to call. Now I haven't called yet, but I'm not looking forward to it. I know how these places go you stinking call and talk to like 5 different people and your on hold for like 30 min to an hour and the people are really hard to understand because they are (no I'm not racist) Chinese or Indian or the occasional black, which I love black people (and all the other races. I'm as racist to my race as every other race, we all have our good and bad), but anyways they talk fast and it's like what?! lol. Of course you also have the people who talk SUPER slow so the conversation takes forever and all you need is just one little thing that should take like 2 min and it ends up being 5 min and don't forget the time it took to go through those other 4 people and the being on hold.. yeah, you're on the phone for a while. Don't get me wrong I know their job is no walk in the park you have to talk to all sorts of people been there done that and I feel sorry for them, but really hire more people or something! lol

Soldiers Surprising their kids

Military

First off I'll start by saying the military has done many great things and I appreciate that, but the real point is there is NO way I could ever be with someone who was in the military. They go through a lot and they put their families through a lot. I just watched a very touching video on facebook of people from the military coming back and surprising their family. They cried and I cried, I can't say I know exactly how they feel because I'm sure I can't even fully imagine it though I've had friends and even a past boyfriend go, but I know I can't imagine it all, but I can imagine enough for me to be in tears and even feel heartbroken at just the thought. So thank you for what you do, but don't try to take any more of my loved ones!

I have something to say...

My God is good! And even if He doesn't do another thing for me, He's still good. He's done so much already that I could NEVER repay Him

Souls

What is one soul worth? Is there really a cost that's to much? So many times in life we fail at soul winning. We say that it's to much money to give them a ride to church, or to pay the groceries for the person who can't afford them, give clothes to the people in need,... or whatever excuse we might have for what ever situation presents itself to us.

Matthew 25:42For I was an hungred, and ye gave me no meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me no drink: 43I was a stranger, and ye took me not in: naked, and ye clothed me not: sick, and in prison, and ye visited me not. 44Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee? 45Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.

We are to treat every human being as if it was Jesus. Jesus knocks on the door "come on in" or He needs a ride "hop on in", clothes "no problem", food "take as much as you need",... The scripture clearly states that not helping others is like not helping Jesus when He's in need.

I know I'm not perfect and I've failed as well, but just imagine the excitement in heaven if we all joined together to help those in need. It would be just, WOW.

George Of The Jungle

♫♪George, George, George of the jungle strong as he can be..♫♪ So I happen to like George of the Jungle it's a very funny, weirdly romantic, comedy. I used to watch it all the time with a friend who's last name just so happens to be George. (Which, we never talk anymore.. that's besides the point) Anyways it's very funny. And I'm pretty sure I've never liked Brendan Fraser in any other movie as much as I do in George of the Jungle (Though Inkheart and The Mummy Series are pretty good too)

Truth

Truth it's a powerful thing. So why if you know the truth would you run from it? Those who know the truth should be very afraid for their souls, they can be judged. You can't be judged on what you don't know. So if you know the truth, please, please I beg you, do NOT run! Be strong in the Lord! He'll never leave you, only you do the leaving. If you're with someone who doesn't believe don't let that stop you because guess what they don't have to understand at first, but don't risk your own soul. Stay strong pray for your spouse they'll eventually come. Just remember God knows what He's doing and he has the perfect timing!

Marriage is a wonderful thing that so many people take for granted. Yes, marriage isn't easy, it's a lot of hard work, but if you really love the person you're with you'll stick it out. If you put enough hard work and dedication into your marriage you can make it through anything. Will you always agree no, but understand that you are different than your spouse and that it's ok to be different. You won't always like the same food, games, friends,... but that's not what brought you together it was the love you shared. In the hard times just think back to what it was that made you fall in love in the first place and I promise between remembering that, being understanding, and putting some hard work into it you'll make it through!

Sims

I LOVE to play the Sims! I play it on the PS2, Wii, and soon on the Xbox 360, I have played it on the computer, but it's not my favorite way to play. Anyways, have you ever wondered why the Sims game (any of them) is so addicting?? I occasionally think about it. I means yes, it gets you away from your boring life and you can run someone else's life. You can make your Sims life as good or as bad as you want, but can't you kinda do the same thing with your own life if you try hard enough? So what is it? I mean I totally love playing any of the Sims games, but I have no clue why. Any thoughts from those of you who love Sims??

Friends

(Just a thought) Isn't it so weird how friends come and go? At the time when you're friends you think you'll be friends forever. But for whatever reason, whatever circumstances you become distant and then you just don't talk all together. I know there are different kinds of friends A.) the ones that really aren't your friend B.) the ones that are there for a season in your life and C.)the ones that are meant to stay there forever. Question is how do you know which kind of friend they are supposed to be? And how do you deal with the loss of those friends? I've had many friends that I know were just there to get me through a part of my life, but I can't help but feel sad knowing that there was a strong connection that is now gone. It's good to know that no matter how many friends stay or go that Jesus will always be the best friend, who sticks closer than a brother.

Halo 3 Xbox 360

Playing Halo 3 with my husband and our friend Steven(Stevo), who had to be like right in front of the tv so we rearranged our furniture so he could do that. lol. Having a blast and for all you guys, yes, I do play Halo 3 I love video games and not just the girly ones :D Thank you, thank you!!! I know I'm awesome haha j/k

This is my husband's dog, Penny,which we've had for a year. She's a miniature pincher, which were made for chasing rats. She's totally spoiled by Miles and she's a HUGE pain in the butt.She's very smart, but personally I'd get rid of her if I could, for now I'll just have to deal with her. She thinks that just because she knows how to do something that she can do it and there'll be no consequence.I say a smart dog does what it's told. She clearly in that sense is not a smart dog. Example: We put her in a kennel at the apt when we left and she would undo the top lock and squeeze out. Therefore free to roam the apt and go to the bathroom on the floor, which she did often, even though she was walked and went to the bathroom outside. This is why I love cats, I'm definitely not a dog person!

This is Garfield, he's the oldest of our pets. I've had him for a while, around 7 years I think. He's a great cat, very loving,but you don't want him to be around other pets when he's in a bad mood. He has no claws, but he is a totally inside cat.

New Addition to the Family

This is my new kitty. His name is Scooter. Scooter was born on May 21, 2010 (so I'm told) We got him from a house that had a free kittens sign. A woman had taken him the night before, supposedly saw flees on him bathed him (which he's to young for) and then eventually after whatever else she tried brought him back... shaved, not bald, but shaved. She shaved everything on the poor little guy except his head and feet, but he's still very loving and I'm very happy that she brought him back so I could show him the proper love and care he needed <3

Deleted Posts

You'll notice I may have deleted some post so there's a weird white gap, but that's just because I've learned something aren't meant to be posted online, or I just felt totoally stupid for having it up so that explains those. :D

Home Owners

We recently bought a home on May 14,2010, which is very, very exciting especially compared to the apt we had in Lafayette. Now call me crazy, but I didn't like living in Lafayette, it can never compare to the small town of Frankfort, which so happens to be my home town. Sure the people are crazy and I'm related to most of them some how, but it's my town. And I think that even Miles is learning to have some appreciation for it. Close to my mom, step-dad, my dad, step-mom, my brothers (step-brothers), sister (step-sisters),... and we're only 15 min away from his sister (and her family) and 30 min from his parents. So it works out quite well.