I've tried to blog several times, but it always ended up negative. I'm trying to stay away from being negative, but lets face it it's hard not to be negative with the way things go in life. News of people dying of diseases, people killing people, terrorist, people going missing, theft, rape, you name it. Not to mention all the things you personally have going on in your own life be it fighting with a spouse/kids/siblings/parents, issues at work, issues with friends/having no friends, housework that needs done, and so on.
Negative times are the times you're supposed to think about the positive things and how blessed you are, but that's also the hardest time to focus on being positive and on blessings.
I was at work during a time I was feeling negative and I was forcing myself to sing "You've got to count your blessings, you'll find one if you try. Count on the Lord and watch that blessing multiply. All those might have, could have, and should have beens are nothing but distressing. When you're down and out, it's time to count your blessings." (Count Your Blessings by The Martins) I sang it over and over and over again and I reminded myself that I'm blessed.
No, not everything in life is great. No, not everything has gone my way. No, I didn't want to go to work. Yes, I'm often around some people I'd rather not even know. But I'm blessed. I have a job which provides me with money so I can have a home, food, clothes, and all my NEEDS and a few wants. I'm healthy. I have an awesome little boy who's healthy. I have some people at work that I really enjoy being around. A few people (not including relatives) that I know care about me and would be there for me if I asked. Family that loves me. And many more blessings.
Reminding myself that I'm blessed wasn't easy and it's something I, as someone who suffers from depression, will have to do a lot. It's going to get annoyingly repetitive and it's something I may fail at reminding myself, but I'm going to try.
