How I'm Doing (After Loss)

Yesterday was a very hard day for me. It was the first time waking up and it hitting me that Safari was gone. I cried a lot. If someone would have seen me they probably would have thought that I'd lost a best friend or a family member. Safari though she was a cat was most definitely a family member. She wasn't a family member for a very long time due to her short lived life, but she was a very loved family member. It was very hard losing her. She was the perfect cat, no joke.

Today I woke up, I remembered that she wouldn't be here when I got downstairs, I haven't cried, and I have tried to not think to much about it and when I think of something sad I try to think of something happy such as her playing around the house. Okay well this is making me just about cry so I need a new topic. Maybe one day I'll be able to talk about it and not cry.

I'll start a new post, that should help.

Safari (Born ?/?/2011 Died 1/1/2012)

 This is Safari and some pictures of her very, very short life.

We found Safari, she was a stray that came up to our house for food, since we feed the strays.

A little bit about her:
Name: Safari
Age: Around 18 weeks
Breed: Unknown
Color/Marking: Light gray with blackish-gray stripe and circle markings
Favorite toy: A purple fuzzy string thing
Favorite place(s) to lay: Boxes, papers, plastic bags
Favorite place to sleep: Cuddled up next to myself or my husband

 She loved to be pet and to be held. And she would purr. Oh my, would she purr. You would barely touch her and she would purr.

 She did this cute thing. Well, she did lots of cute things. But she did this one particular thing where she would be sleeping and she'd meow. Her own meowing would wake her up and then she'd be all upset that she got woke up. Eventually she'd fall back asleep and then she'd do it again.

 She loved to play. It didn't matter if she was playing with my husband or I, one of our cats, or by herself. She just loved to play. Actually she was playing just 30 min. before she passed. She played then laid down in a normal spot of hers in front of the coffee table. We heard a cough (Miles said he heard 2 within 10-15 min of each other, but I didn't), we checked on her to make sure she was okay, but she wasn't, she was gone. We tried to see if she was maybe choking on something, but we couldn't see anything in her mouth. I tried a type of CPR where I pushed her chest to try to pump her heart (which wasn't beating) and tried moving her arm like I'd seen done on Discovery Channel. We tried praying. Nothing worked.

 I had a dream last night in the very short amount of time that I actually slept. In my dream she was dead, but we had prayed over her, put her in the box, put her and the box in the garage (everything like last night) and then I went to sleep, but when I woke up I went to see if maybe, just maybe God provided us with a miracle and in the dream when I opened the door there she was walking around just waiting on me to come get her.

 So this morning I woke up, threw on some appropriate outside clothing and a coat, I unlocked the garage and looked around, but she wasn't waiting on me. She was in her box, just laying there.
I kept looking as I was walking to the garage door hoping I'd see her paw trying to reach under the door or that I'd hear her meow, but there was nothing, just a cold, dark garage and her lifeless body.

 It's hard to imagine that I'll never see her alive again. I'll never see her beautiful eyes so full of life. I'll never see her play, hear her purr, or get to cuddle on the sectional with her.
The happiest thing I can say is that she died in a nice warm house, in a comfy spot, near the people that loved her and not outside in the cold where we first found her.

 Here's to you Safari, the greatest cat I've ever known...

Pinterest..

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So I had NO clue what Pinterest was and I couldn't really look at the site without joining... So I joined.

Okay, more like I requested to join, which in all honesty I think is stupid, but that's the way they work it. Once I was offered a membership I got on and at first I thought it was kind of stupid. But it works for them and I'm assuming they have a good reason for doing this. After all wouldn't you like to make sure that the right kind of people (non trouble makers) are on your site. It would stink to get a site up and then have a bunch of heathens ruin it.

So I mentioned I thought it was stupid, here's the reason. I mean really you just sit there and find pictures that you like or love and Pin (or Re-pin) them, add a comment about the picture, and select which board (category) of yours that you want it posted in.

BUT
The more I looked around the more cool things I found! You can find DIY crafts, sewing, crocheting, knitting, recipes, clothes, etc! You can post pictures of 'My Favorite Things' (or whatever you would call it), 'My Dream House', 'My Style' (Fashion, Clothes, etc.), etc. You can create a new board and call it anything you would like. And there's no nudity allowed so you don't have to worry about running into anything you shouldn't see.

It will find your friends from Facebook (or whatever) and automatically connect you to them and it will also connect you with people that have common interests once you select a few things that you are into.

Once you get to your Main Screen you look at it, if you're like me, and say, "Huh?!" But it's simple. The Main Screen shows all of your friends Pins, which is all the things that they like and it shows you where they got it from (or who they 'stole' it from), their comment on it, and what Board of theirs that they Pinned it to. If you see something they've (your friends or any random person on the site) posted you like you can 'Like' it or you can 'Re-pin' it. Now you can also go to Blogs or other websites and if you see something that you like or love you can hit the 'Pin It' Button that the site had you install, select the picture that you want to Pin and a little box will come up where you select which Board, add a comment, and then officially Pin it. Oh, on this page you can also choose to post it to Facebook (or wherever you originally signed in from)

You can look around the rest of Pinterest by using the tabs. The tabs are Everything (Where you choose from the different categories what you would like to look at), Videos, Popular, and Gifts (Which you can select a price range and it will show Pins from people who've Pinned good gift items that are within that price range)

The ADD + Button if you click it will bring up a box of options, which are Add a Pin (Add a Picture from another website), Upload a Pin (Add a picture from your computer), and Create a Board (Add a new category for different kinds of Pins)

And there's more, but I'm sure you can figure that out on your own. And if you can't then feel free to comment on here and I'll be more than happy to help you.

I might add that unfortunately Pinterest cannot take pictures from certain websites, which can be a bummer, but I'm sure if you want it on there bad enough you'll find a way to get it on there. Even if you have to save the picture to your computer and then load it onto Pinterest. Lol. Just a thought...

Happy Pinning!