Almost 3 weeks on antidepressants!

      Hi there, readers! I know I said before that I was going to try to write every day about my journey with antidepressants and I had fully planned on it, but then I realized that you really don’t see much change every single day. The change is seen more weekly than daily so I won’t blog about it every day, but I will hopefully find the time to blog about it every week.

       I can definitely say that having these antidepressants have helped me so much. I have less anger, I’m more willing to get up and do things, I clean more, I’m happier more, and a GREAT thing is my skin is clearing up! Who knew?! Hey clearer skin is always a plus!

     I used to get way more upset and angry about things that really, in the long run, aren’t that important. Examples: Seth spilled something or he’s not listening to me about not doing something, etc. Now I’m not as angry I just deal with it and go on. Now don’t get me wrong if he’s being disobedient all day and a terror then yes, I get very upset, but I’m still able to control it more than I used to.

     Each day, except maybe the weekends; I get up do some laundry, dishes, pick up the stuff on the floor, etc. Whereas before I just wanted to sit in my recliner and watch movies and that was all I really did. Shame on me yes, I know. Thankfully I have a husband that likes to have a clean house enough that even after working hard came home and cleaned too. Depression hasn’t really made me the best wife, but I’m working on that now.

     I know a lot of people are probably wondering why I’m posting about my depression and being on antidepressants; to a lot of people dealing with depression is like a sin that you hide from the world. Well I’m here to tell you that there’s nothing wrong about it. Some people will never deal with depression; if that’s you you’re lucky. But there are many people who do deal with depression. Maybe they’ve had a traumatic event in their life that caused it or maybe they’ve had the perfect life and still got depressed. Depression can be passed down through the family. How? Who knows! But it happens. To many people are being quiet about their depression, people who have a worse case than mine because people have made them feel like there was something wrong about it and guess what a lot of them kill themselves. What a waste of a life. If the whole world would stop acting like it’s some disease and start helping these people fight it and get help there’d be a lot less deaths. I was lucky to be a mild case of depression. I can’t imagine dealing every day with the thought of wanting to kill myself. Your body/brain is supposed to have this survival instinct, but this would be like your body turning on itself. I can imagine that most of them kill themselves just so they can stop thinking about killing themselves every day, it’d be maddening. They didn’t ask for this. No one with any level of depression asked for this. Everyone wants to be happy and successful.   

SO HELP THE DEPRESSED! 

Stop the madness! 

1 Week & 4 Days on antidepressants

I feel better! 

      Physically I'm not nauseous anymore! *clapping* YAY!! I still have some issues with dizziness, blah! But I'll take that any day over the nausea. Now the dry mouth is very annoying, but I'd rather be mentally well with a dry mouth than mentally ill and my mouth be normal.  

      Mentally I feel better too :) I feel happier. I'm looking at myself in a better way and getting up and doing more. I've even exercised some lol. 

     I know that I will still have bad days, who doesn't? But at least I'll have more better days than before. "If there's no ups and downs in your life you're dead." I'm not sure who said that or if I even quoted it right, but it's true either way. You have good days and bad days and the only time it's going to stop is when you're dead. Today is almost over and I don't know if tomorrow will be a high or a low, I'm just praying that God and my antidepressant gets me through it. I hope to one day not just get through the days but march through them triumphantly knowing that at the end of each day I did my best and that I did what I love and believe in. 

  

      I hope you all have a goodnight. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog! :) 

1 Week On Antidepressants

     I didn't post for a couple of days, sorry about that. I was busy spending time with my family and being nauseous and dizzy with a side of headache. 

     In case you're wondering if I ever got those foods I was craving I'm happy to tell you that I did get most of them! Miles was kind enough to get me Chinese and pickles on Saturday :) They both tasted great to me. 

     I still continue to deal with nausea, but I'm happy to report that it's getting better! I'm starting to not feel sick as much. 

     I'm also glad to report that I took the last of my other medicine this morning!!! Yay!!!!!! 

    I continue to get headaches, but they don't seem to be migraines like they were at first. 

    Sunday was by far my dizziest day. I was dizzy standing up and sitting down. I went to church Sunday morning and seriously thought I might pass out a few time during the service. I stayed seated the whole service and even then Miles said that I was flush the whole service. By the time we went to leave my mom said my face was red... One extreme to the other. I felt awful. 

      Today I have a headache and I can't tell if I'm dizzy or if the headache is just messing with me. Luckily no nausea at this moment or at least not enough to stop me from doing something I want to do. Given that it doesn't require anything being on my stomach. 

      I forgot to tell you all that Seth did get a fever and he was sick, but he's all better now besides what I think is just sinuses or a cold: sneezing, runny nose, and some coughing. He's happily playing and running around like his normal self though. 

       I took a full pill last night (of my antidepressant) and I didn't get sick or feel terrible so my body must just be used to it now. 

       Once I get passed the headaches and dizziness I'll try to start informing you how my actual thinking and attitude have changed. The headaches cause pain with to much thinking so I try to avoid it lol. 

     Hope you're all safe and having a good day after the terrible storm we had yesterday.