He's 2!!!

My son is 2! Honestly I wondered if he'd make it to 2! I was never one to like kids and thought I'd probably turn out to be one of those women who accidentally shook their child out of frustration and cause it's death, but I didn't (Thank God!) I know that makes me sound awful but honestly there's only so much a person can take and that becomes way more obvious once you have a kid. If you haven't been there yet, just wait you'll see what I mean. Baby crying, your exhausted, can't calm the baby, can't even figure out what's wrong, ... It's a blast. 

Anyways he's 2, we made it! And before I know it he'll be in school :/ that just doesn't seem right!  But first let's get past potty training! 

Focus, Focus

I like many have a hard time staying focused. Doesn't matter what it is. Exercise, church, dieting, prayer, schoolwork,  etc. Even with friends. 

I want to diet. Why? because I want to lose weight. But I, like everyone else, get so focused on the what I want now... For me the Hunan Chicken & Pork Fried Rice or maybe that Big Mac w/ a LG fry. So what happens? Open mouth insert.. Food, bad food. 

I want to go to church. Why? To draw closer to God. But I, like everyone else, have 50 billion things that are non church related running through my head. Sometimes it's "I'm hungry. What to eat" or maybe it's "Wow, I'm in a room full of people, but I feel so alone" So what happens? I spend the service thinking about the 50 billion things and not getting what I came for. 

Exercise, prayer, schoolwork (when I had it), friendships, etc. it all works the same way. So I lose focus of the goal, of the plan, of the reason and I end up stuck right where I am, like so many others. We are alone, fat, sad, depressed, in a bad place, longing for more, or whatever the thing may be.

 Why must it be so hard to keep focus? How can we keep focus? Esp those of us a bit more... Shall we be honest? Lazy people.

 I'm not into waiting, planning things out, see how it goes, see what happens type of person. 

Did I post this to get answers? No. Did I post it to give answers? No. Did I post it for sympathy? Haha no, no, no! I simply posted it to say you aren't alone. 

Weary Breaders You're Not Alone

So like me I'm sure plenty of people are behind on their bread (bible reading) 

Currently I'm on May 19th. I've taken every spare minute that I get, well the ones I could read and know I'm not going to fall asleep lol, and I've read my bread. I'd say on average I read 2 days bread every day. Obviously some days are better than others. 

This is the second year that I've really tried reading the bible all the way through. Last year I gave up in sometime probably around May when I was still reading for back in February or March. This year I've decided I'm going to read it all the way through. I may not have it done at the end of the year like everyone else but I will officially read my bible all the way through this time. 

I have to admit it isn't my favorite read. I'd take a good mystery book or some teen romance novel (like twilight) personally. The Bible is kind of hard to focus on; weird words, words with meanings different than today's meanings, 50 billion names you can't pronounce, keeping up with which of those 50 billion names is affiliated with the others, places you can't pronounce, the weird bloody sacrifices, the "riddles", etc. In my book reading the Bible is definitely a sacrifice. I know people say it has mystery, romance, and all other book forms in it, but it's just hard to see that through all the, well don't take this wrong but, stuff. It's important stuff, but it's stuff. 

Anyways point being if you're behind, never read you Bible all the way through, have a hard time reading your Bible, etc. you aren't alone. 

Read it when you can, for as long as you can, eventually we'll have read it at least once all the way through before our lives end! I'm sure like most things it gets more interesting the more times you read it, you catch things you didn't see before, or understand something better than you did before,.... We'll get there! Lol