2013

You're finally here. Please be kind to me and my family

The End of 2012

It's the end of 2012! This year went by pretty quick don't you think?

This year has had trials, new adventures, and a lot of learning experiences. There have been things that could make or break a relationship happen, learning experiences in my marriage, learning about myself, being pregnant, becoming a mommy, etc.

2012 was not my favorite year of my life, except for the fact that we had Seth. There have been many things about this year that I wish I wouldn't have had to go through, but each thing was a learning experience so no matter what heartache I went through I guess it was worth it for whatever I was able to take out of it.

Today my family will be spending the day with my Mom and Mike. We'll play games like Phase 10 (or only Phase 10), eat, talk, maybe watch something on TV, and just be together. I'm so glad that my Mom and Mike aren't just my parents, but they're my best friends as well. A lot of parents just can't accomplish that.

Anyways, I'm looking forward to 2013 and all that it has to bring. I pray that our family, church, and relationships will be blessed. That 2013 will be a happy year with many things to look forward to. That my family will become stronger spiritually, physically, and emotionally. That my family will be healthy and happy. I pray we can take each day one at a time and no matter what comes our way stay strong and pray through it.

Have a great day and a Happy New Year! Celebrate safely and watch out for all the idiots who refuse to celebrate safely.

I love my son and I'm glad we have him.
But when he wakes up at "unscheduled" hours  for a bottle and I haven't had enough sleep I must admit it tests every fiber of my patience and takes away some sanity.
I'm not a very nice person when I'm tired and so I get pretty mad when this happens. I know he's hungry and it's not his fault and that's what I have to keep reminding myself until I can once again curl back into a ball under my warm blankets and go back to sleep.
He rarely wakes up more than once during the night luckily. God sure knew what he was doing when he made Seth for this family!

Cheesy Tots

Burgerking for a limited time only at participating locations had their Cheesy tots back!

I'm so excited and hopeful th that they'll keep them around this time...or should I say again?

I was so mad when they got rid of them. Every single time we went there we got them. We stopped going to burger king for a year or two because of it. We even sent in comments saying they needed to get them back...and now they have!

Burger king,
Be wise and keep the cheesy tots!

It's amazing how being a parent changes your life.
Example:
I used to pretty much live on Facebook rather on my phone or laptop. Now I'm hardly ever on Facebook, I don't even have a desire to be on there and when I do get on it's on my phone and all I do is scroll through my news feed. I don't check my notifications or messages hardly ever. Even now I'm blogging from my phone. 

I don't really have a reason to be on Facebook anymore... I'm actually tempted to just get rid of my facebook. Take all my pictures make sure they're on my laptop, delete everything off facebook, then cancel it. I'll continue to think about it, discuss it with my husband, and then decide what to do.

As for right now I believe I'm done blogging. Hope you have a great day!

Peek-a-boo Baby

I found out on Christmas day that Seth likes Peek-A-Boo!
I was playing it with him while he was in his bassinet and he was just laughing, it was so sweet.
I can't wait to see what other things he likes :)

Rollin' Baby

Seth has finally decided to roll to one side! He rolled to his left side today all by himself! Now if he'll continue to do it and work on the other side as well :P

A Broken Relationship...

   What do you think of when you hear about a broken relationship? I'd guess like me you think of a relationship in your life that is broken; be it a boyfriend, spouse, parent, or a friend. It's sad. The very thought of a broken relationship can bring tears to your eyes if you truly care about this person. 

  Broken relationships are unfortunately a part of life. We all must have a relationship that gets broken for whatever reason. It hurts, some more than others. It's hard when the people that are supposed to love you the most don't love you as much as they should or just don't love you at all. 

 Why am I blogging about a broken relationship? Good question! The answer: Because I have a broken relationship in my life. A relationship that should be strong. No, I'm not talking about the relationship with my husband; he and I are fine. But there's another important relationship in my life (ok more than one, but one that bothers me more than the rest), a relationship that is broken in far to many homes in the world.

  I'm semi-sorry to say that I will not be telling you what relationship I am talking about. I will tell you it has to do with family (most of my broken relationships have to do with family)  and that it's not my mom; we also are doing fine. Lol. 

  I don't blame this family member (or the others) in full for the way things are. I know I've played my part. Although since all these family members were born before me it was their responsibility to build a strong bond between us from the very beginning, which they all failed to do; that didn't help us at all. 
  
  I don't think any of these certain people will read my blog, but that's not why I'm blogging about this. I'm blogging about this for me. 

  I need it to be know that these broken relationships hurt. They hurt me in more ways than I care to admit. They hurt all other relationships, how I feel about people, how I bond with others, etc. 

  I also need it to be known that I don't contact these people because every time I feel like things are getting better I end up getting hurt. 

  I will not put effort into a relationship that is going to continually hurt me. I will not live like that. I will not be tossed aside, disrespected, and forgotten until it is convenient for you. 

  I know that these people love me, but they love me in their own selfish way. Maybe that's the only way they know how to love.. after all I learned it from them. I can be very selfish I may love someone, but cannot or do not know how to show it because that was how I saw love from these people. Now I constantly have to remind myself not to be like them. 

  I don't know what else to say about it; I am hurt. 


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I love poems. I couldn't find one that quite fit what I was trying to say. But I came across this poem and thought maybe it would help someone.

Cure For a Broken Heart 
by Wilma Watson

Does it feel like your heart is ripped in two
And your days seem O so blue?

Have you given all your heart
Only to see it torn apart?

Do you feel he or she does not care
As if you were never there?

Do you feel you can’t trust again
And left in continual pain?

Do you feel you must face tomorrow
All alone, with so much sorrow?

There is hope my friend for you today
Stop and listen, don’t walk away

There’s someone who loves you very much
It’s not a lie, you’ll see as such

About things you can’t change in any way
You can talk to God night or day

You can trust him for he really cares
He said, I’ll never leave you there

I came to heal your broken heart
And help you find a brand new start

Certainty of death, small chance of success...what are we waiting for?!

Sorry I love The Lord Of The Rings. Especially when Gimli, Master Dwarf says that haha!

That is all!

Easy Cheap Decor

I'd seen these on, I believe Pinterest and decided to make some of my own.

All you need is glue (I use a hot glue stick), the cardboard from a toilet paper roll or from paper towels,  and scissors.

Cut the cardboard in whatever size you want and try to make them all the same size. Glue them together.

Mine are maybe 1/2 an inch thick. I glued 5 of them together to form the middle and worked out from there.

It's super simple and cute. You can paint them or just leave them as they are.
Mine are being left as they are.

I haven't gotten super creative with this yet, but I'm sure you could come up with some really cool, cheap designs for in your home (outside of the one I'm showing you)

Again Seriously?!

Ok I love my son. And I'm actually happy I had a boy, but there's one downfall....

Almost every time I go to change his diaper he pees!
Now luckily he doesn't pee on me, but he does pee all over himself, which isn't good either.

Sometimes he gives me a fair warning that I need to hurry...
But then there's the other times with no warning and suddenly there's a stream flowing free! And this kid pees heavy and hard! Lol.

I'm sure it's a funny site when I'm trying to find something to cover him up with...

Oh well, I love him, messes and all!

Christmas Decor

I don't know about you, but I don't like to take down all of my normal all year decor. So instead I decided to use some of what I have out already. So I'm obviously talking about the middle, what I'll call a vase. 

I had some Christmas looking floral decor so I decided to put it in the vase, but seeming as the vase is clear you could see the stems. 

I couldn't seem to think of this oh-so-simple solution to cover the stems. Then my mom came over and said, "Why don't you put some tulle in it?" 

Duh! Why didn't I think of this?! 

So I added the tulle and viola it looks great and it was so simple! It added just an extra touch of Christmas to our living room/dining room ledges and I didn't have to buy anything because I already had it all here. That's my favorite!

I hope this can help give you some simple decorating inspiration for your home. 

Have a great day and a Merry Christmas! 

Tummy Time

Every time I give my son Tummy Time he falls asleep. He'll be awake and will just lay there staring at something until he falls asleep. No pushing himself up or kicking his legs, just lay there.

Tummy time is important. It's good for spinal development, it helps them build strength in there arms, neck, and legs.

How is my son supposed to get any of the strengthening benefits if all he does is fall asleep?! Lol.

I'm sure as he gets older he'll stay awake more and then move around more during Tummy Time. I just wish he would start doing it now. Oh well, I know he's smart and a great baby, that's what matters.

Cookies From Scratch

I made my first homemade, from scratch cookies! I found a recipe online. It sounded good, so I tried it.

I wanted a simple and fast recipe and this was it. Sure maybe there are more simple recipes, but this is the one I found and I like this one.

It was a recipe for Chocolate Chips Cookies. I'd been wanting to make some cookies from scratch and figured I'd start with in my opinion the most loved cookies ever. I didn't have just regular Chocolate Chip Morsels so I used a bag of Peanut Butter and Milk Chocolate Morsels.

I think they turned out pretty good, but I did make a mistake when reading the recipe and put a little more of the Baking Soda and Salt, but it still turned out good. Next time I'll just have to pay a little more attention.

Even my husband said they were good! And trust me he won't lie about food to save your feelings. If you ask his opinion he'll give it.

Okay so here's the recipe, which I originally didn't intend on giving out just so I would have a recipe "of my own" when it comes to family members and friends, but since most of them don't read this I'll go ahead and post it.

Needed:
You'll need two mixing bowls according to the recipe I got, but you could use one. But since I'm giving you the recipe the way I got it, two bowls. Cookie/Baking Sheet(s), Blender, etc.

Flour
Salt
Baking Soda
Butter
Brown Sugar
White Sugar
Vanilla Extract
Eggs
Chocolate Morsels

Preheat your oven to 325

In one bowl sift 2 cups flour, 1/2 tsp salt, and 1/2 tsp baking soda. Put this bowl aside.

In the second bowl mix 3/4 cup unsalted butter (I used Original Country Crock butter), 1 cup brown sugar, and 1/2 cup fine white sugar (I used regular sugar). Beat on high speed until creamy texture.

To the same bowl add 1tbsp Vanilla Extract, 1 egg, and 1 egg yolk (I just used 2 eggs). Mix until finely mixed.

Mix in 2 cups of Chocolate Chip Morsels

Mix the two bowls together until it looks like cookie dough (Duh)

Take a tbsp of the mixture and place it on the Baking sheet being sure to leave room for the cookies to expand (They get a pretty good size)

Bake in oven for 15 minutes or until the edges are lightly brown/golden

Let cool.

Finally A Theme

So as you've probably read, Seth's nursery has not had a theme. Well, I believe we've finally decided on a theme. I won't show pictures of the nursery until I have it "more finished".( I won't say finished because I don't believe a room is ever finished, you may have it a certain way, unchanging for a little while, but eventually you will change it. Anyways...)  Are you ready to hear what the theme is?!

Monkeys! Well, it's going to have more than just monkeys, but monkeys will be the main animal. It seems to be fitting for Seth. He has a ton of clothing with monkeys on them and monkeys are kind of the in thing it seem. Now I'm not big on doing the in thing. I like to be unique! But it should be easy to find things for his room. And to make it unique to us there's another "main" animal.

See! A monkey! Lol. 

Ready to hear this one?!


The other main animal will be elephants. Why elephants? Good question. The first stuffed animal that I let Seth sleep with and "carry around" was/is an elephant. He loves his elephant. So it's only fitting that it should be in his room.

Seth's Stuffed Elephant :)

2 Month Shots

On December 4th Seth got his 2 month old shots. 3 shots in the leg and an oral medicine. He wasn't to happy with either of them. They started with the oral medicine, he started crying, and he didn't stop crying until I was allowed to pick him up which was after all the shots.

He has to get the exact same shots at his 4 month appointment. I'm sure he'll still cry, but hopefully they won't cause him to be as fussy as he was after the first ones.

He was fussy the day of the shots and the next day, luckily on that 3rd day he woke up a happy baby! Those 2 days felt like a week! The fussing was driving me nuts! I understood why he was unhappy, but you can only take so much crying.

At least I know he won't remember any of this when he's older...

One Year Later

It's December! This year has flown by! My tree is up and decorated all pretty :) My cats have been playing with the tree and the ornaments... Wouldn't be Christmas time if they didn't.

Ok, now to what I really want to say.

Around this time last year my husband and I decided to try to have a baby. And about a week from now is when I supposedly became pregnant. I'm still not sure how the whole mathematics of pregnancy goes, I just got pregnant and had the baby, the Doc got to do the math.

Now I look and there's no trying to get pregnant, no big pregnant belly, just a precious baby boy that God blessed my husband and I with.

I learned a lot this year. About myself, about my husband, about being a pregnant woman, about feeling sick all the time!, how it feels to not be able to do something for myself, and about how to be a mommy. I still have a lot to learn in each of these, but I'm glad that I can say that I actually learned a lot this year. It wasn't a year wasted.

Not A Post For The Guys... (After Pregnancy)

I never figured there'd be anything about being pregnant that I'd miss, but then I remembered, "Oh yeah, being pregnant I had around 10 months or so without a Monthly Visitor..." No cramping, no nausea (at least not from being on my period), etc.

Now don't get me wrong I don't want to go back through everything I dealt with while being pregnant and giving birth anytime in the near future.  But I sure will miss not dealing with that particular problem.

If you're pregnant enjoy that blessing for as long as you can!

Trying Something From Before

Today my husband and I are going to play a video game together like we always used to do, but haven't been able to do since Seth was born. Hopefully Seth will be content or fall asleep so Hubby and I can spend some time "together"

Here goes... Wish us luck!

Today Is...

Seth's first Thanksgiving!!!


That is all.

Thanksgiving Day

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone! Thank you for taking the time to stop by and read my blog it means a lot to me!

I figured today being Thanksgiving and all that I would name a few of the things I'm thankful for and why I'm thankful for them. Feel free to leave a comment so that I can know some things that you're thankful for.

I'll start with my husband. I'm very thankful to have him in my life! Why? He's a wonderful, loving man who takes great care of our son and me. He's hard working both at work and when he comes home from work. No matter how hard times have gotten he's never given up on us. Sure he may drive me crazy at times with his sports and his strange obsession with popping my zits (Which I have unfortunately had a ton of since giving birth to our son *rolls eyes*, so I'm constantly "fighting" to keep his hands away from my face), but in the end there's no guy I'd rather be married to.

Second is my precious son, Seth. Why? He's been such a blessing in my life. He makes me want to be a better person, daughter, wife, mom, housekeeper, cook, etc. He's truly a joy to have around! His adorable smile and cute coos make my day! Even when he's been fussy and crying and put me to the point where I'm about to pull my hair out he'll give me a smile or he'll "talk" to me and it makes everything okay. *Heart melts*

And the last one I'll mention, but most certainly not the least is God. Why? Because no matter what I've done He loves me and forgives me. Every day His mercies are new to me. He's always provided my every need and many of my wants. Through every trial He's been there guiding my feet and holding my hand. When I'm scared or sad He is my Peace. When I'm in danger He is my Protector. When I need someone and no one is there for me He is my Friend. He is always everything that I need!

Diapers!

Diaper, diapers, diapers. I can see why people are trying so desperately to get mothers to use cloth diapers. A newborn goes through 8-10 diapers a day, so lets say 70 diapers a week, ... etc; I'll let you do the math for the rest of it. That's a lot of trash going into our dumps!

Now I'm not saying I'm going to start using cloth diapers because guess what they have a few downfalls. 1. you have to spray the poop out of them 2. you have to wash them 3. because you have to wash them your utility bills will go up (water and heat) Disposable diapers are just much easier. I can't say which one would really be cheaper since 1. I'm not going to try it and 2. even if I did I wouldn't be figuring out the math from my utility bills.

I applaud those of you who have the stomach and the patience to use cloth diapers. Thank you for trying to make a difference and make a better world for our children. But the most I'll use cloth diapers for is as a burp rag. If it wasn't for the poop I'd probably use cloth diapers.. but I just couldn't deal with that.

Happy Diapering!

Kick & Play

I love that Seth is learning to enjoy more things, like his Kick & Play :) He doesn't always enjoy it, but when he does I love watching how he reacts to it. He watches the lights, listens to the music, looks at the mirror and rattles that are hanging down. Earlier he was just "chatting" away at it, it was SOOO cute!  

6 Week Postpartum Appointment

Today I go see my Dr. (title explains why) I love my Dr. she's a wonderful lady, but I'm not looking forward to this appointment.
First off my stomach hurts and I've been well, I'll just say sick since last night.
Two I'll have to be in a car for 30 minutes with my stomach being upset, I get car sick enough without already feeling ill.  
Three the Dr. will probably do the normal 1 year exam, which I cannot stand. It hurts :/
And there are some other reasons, but still.

My mom is going with me so she can take care of Seth. You know, just in case he starts throwing a fit or something. At least I won't have to drive there while feeling this way since mom is taking me.

Hopefully this appointment won't be to uncomfortable. You think after having a baby none of this would hurt or even phase you, but it still does. Bummer. Lol.

Well, not to much longer and my ride will be here. I'll give an update later on how things go, what the Dr. says about how I'm healing, what she does while I'm there, etc.

Hope you all have a great day!

Changed

My life has changed.

I wake up when Seth wants to wake up. Which is once or twice during the night for a bottle then we wake up for the day anywhere from 6 a.m. to 8 a.m.

I have to feed, bathe, burp, and change diapers. Not really a big fan of all that (I actually occasionally enjoy some of these things), but it isn't that bad and I know he'll be feeding himself before I know it so I may as well enjoy it while it lasts. I'm sure one day I'll be crying wishing for the days when I could hold and feed my baby boy.

I'm now Mommy. Sure he can't say it yet, but I'm still a mommy... wow! I still can't believe I had a baby!
 

America... Fail

The elections did not go as I'd hoped!

Let me start off by saying, yes, I know that God is still God and that He knows the beginning from the ending and that He allows people to be placed in positions for a reason and that in the back of the Book we win. Got it!

But Obama being president again scares me. I'm human. And even though I know that God is in control since I'm human I get scared. I'm scared for myself, for my friends, family, for this country, but most of all I'm scared for my son's future and what kind of world he will live in. God knows how He created us, He knows we get scared, it doesn't mean we don't trust Him. He says not to worry, so I'm trying to not worry about it. But once again, I'm human.

Mitt (Romney),
   It would have been nice getting America back to the real America with you, but unfortunately people just don't care about the same things anymore. Our schools, families, friends, and even some churches have failed us. Our schools took away God, prayer, and making sure that we are all well educated. Our families no longer go to church, pray, support their children, raise them in the way that they should go, etc. Our friends are no longer people we can look up to, but are bad influences. Some of our churches rather than teaching and preaching the truth and the Bible they tell us what we want to hear so they can have a big congregation and lots of tithes and offerings due to their greed. They no longer want to step on our feet and ensure that our souls are saved because they don't want to offend anyone so instead they tell them what they want to hear. Personally I want to hear the truth! Hurt my feelings if you must, but make sure I know what I need to know for my soul to be saved! This is truly a sad world that we live in!

America,
    I'm so disappointed in you...

Busy Little Boy

My son isn't even 6 weeks old yet and he's already done so much! Today we went to Vote, Friday we went to a Wedding, 2 Saturdays ago (I believe it was 2?) we went to a Viewing, He's been to a Soup Supper Fundraiser (w/ Auction). He's been to food places: O'Charley's, Applebee's (twice), McDonald's (quite a few times), Everything OK (a few times), and Main Street Grill.

He's been to basically every major event in life before even turning 6 weeks! Can't wait to see what all he's done before 2 months! Lol.

Really, We Couldn't Afford It!

I cannot for the life of me understand why my husband doesn't get that I can't have a full-time job now that we have Seth. I know he's upset that before the pregnancy and for around 2 years I haven't had a full-time job. I know he doesn't like going to work and working 40 or more hours a week, I mean really who does? But he gets upset at me because I have all this free time. And I think it upsets him even more now that we have Seth because I get to spend all this time with Seth and he doesn't. But you think he'd be happy that one of us can be with Seth basically all day long.

Also he must not understand how much a good babysitter costs because he thinks that my job would pay enough to help out with bills and cover a babysitter. That's just not the case. My job would barely cover a babysitter, it may not even cover a babysitter depending on what babysitters are asking for now. My mom estimates a babysitter to be around $75-$100 or more a week. I'm pretty sure all the babysitters I've heard of cost more than that. So yeah, going by what I made at Walmart when I worked full-time it wouldn't be worth it. I'd make the same amount of money that I'm making with the two jobs I have now. So might as well just keep doing what I'm doing.

Doing what I'm doing will help Seth out in the long run. I'll be able to teach him things! There's no reason that I won't be able to teach him things early that he would be learning in preschool and kindergarten so that when it's time to go to school he'll already know these things and will be able to make some really good grades. I want him to like school and learning and be good in school, I wasn't and I don't want him to be like me. I want him to be successful in everything he does (as long as it is legal and godly)

Anyways, I just had to get this off my chest. Hopefully one day my dear hubby will understand. I love him so much, but sometimes he thinks he's right and to him he's right and there's no changing his mind, which isn't really a good quality. But he has many fine qualities and we all have some flaw. Oh well.

Off I go. Have a good day!

My Baby

My 10 lb. 14 oz. perfect baby boy!

He's wonderful!

One Downfall

As I've said many times I love my son and I love being a mommy, BUT ever since I've had him, due to hormones, my face has been one big zit! I hate it! I wash my face, use rubbing alcohol to dry it out, pop them, etc. Nothing seems to make them go away!
So if you would ask one downfall of being pregnant zits would be my answer. I know not every woman gets them, but for those of us that do OMW! I don't think my face was this bad even when I was a teenager, and that's saying something because my face was bad back then.
Well, here's hoping my face clears up soon. If you feel like praying for my face I sure would appreciate it. If you're pregnant I hope this doesn't happen to you!
Have a great day!

Wanna Catch-Up?

I know it's been a while since I've really been on here to blog. So let me catch you up. Yes, I still LOVE being a mommy to my perfect little boy. And yes, I still occasionally during the week find time to blog.
He's "talking" more and more.
 I'm becoming more and more attached to him. I absolutely cannot stand when he's away from me. Today I went to a Baby Shower and he went with his daddy to go see my in-laws. Of course all the ladies at the Shower were shocked to not see him with me and even a little disappointed since it's not like we get out and all spend a lot of time together so this would have been one of the only times that they could have really seen or held him.
He's still sleeping well at night. Thank God! 2 bottle feedings during sleep time is nothing compared to some of the horror stories I've heard. Sometimes he only needs one feeding during the night and then of course one immediately when he wakes up.
He loves swinging in his swing, talking to people, being held, eating, sucking on his pacifier, smiling, eating, looking around and just taking everything in, did I mention eating?, etc.

I know he's going to be such a smart, talented person! Period. No room for questioning it.

He's slowly eating more and more and slowly sleeping less and less during the day.
He's such a well behaved baby. He's been to a Viewing (for a funeral), and a Wedding, Church, and goes to work with me on Fridays and he does so well! He's either sleeping or just lays there looking around. As long as he isn't hungry or fighting sleep he's very calm.

He doesn't like "bright" lights, burping, diaper changes, getting dressed or undressed, when people don't pay attention to him, etc.

He is iffy on: Baths and getting lotioned.

I can't seem to upload photos on here anymore without putting them on my computer first.. not the easy way of doing it. I'll see what I can do. So there may or may not be a picture on here. If there isn't I'm sorry blame my phone or blogger (whichever one is acting up)

Sleeping Tip

So you have a baby that won't fall asleep without you holding it? Well I have a tip for you. While he/she is still young it's ok to hold them so go on pick them up and rock, bounce, sing, or whatever it is that you do to get them to sleep. Then when they are actually asleep, fully asleep not this half awake half asleep thing keep holding them for another 10-15 minutes then lay them down in their crib or bassinet. They should stay asleep. I've done it, it works!

You're welcome :)

C.L.'s Baby Shower

Obviously for privacy reasons I won't post people's names, but there was another Baby Shower to go to today! So many Baby Showers so little time!

It was held at our Pastor & his family's home.

It was decorated in Sock Monkeys (So cute!)

They had lots of good "finger food" (Sandwiches: Ham, Chicken Salad, and ... was it turkey? Idk I had the Chicken Salad Sandwich/Triangle Spinach Things (They were yummy)/Circle little things that had sauce, meat, spices, and such (Also yummy)/Pop, Some sort of lemon/lime water, and tea. I had the tea! It was so sweet and wonderful!/Cupcakes. Never did get myself one of those./Pies. Never got any of that either. I have had weirdness going on with my appetite since having Seth) Anyways, plenty of good food and drinks.

It was a nice comfortable environment since it was held in a home.. wish we would have been able to hold mine in either my house or my mom's I think I would have been so much more comfortable.

They had some good games. One had some questions and you had to either fill in the blank or pick from multiples. It had questions like CL's favorite part of being pregnant, name of the baby, due date, etc. The they did a game where you had so many minutes to think of as many songs (baby, christian, worldly, whatever) that had Baby in the title. I could only think of 3, though I know that there are a ton of them.

CL opened her gifts and had lots of nice gifts. Crib, clothes, diapers, wipes, lotion, baby wash, baskets, blankets, etc.

While she was opening the gifts one of the ladies who actually hosted, I guess would be the word, the party took down some of the words that she used commenting on the gifts. After CL was done opening the gifts this Sis. stood up and said, "It's been said that the words you use to comment on your gifts are the things that were said during conception." (Not her exact wording, but close enough) So she read some of the comments which were, "Seriously", "That's cute" "Thank you" "It's a giraffe", It's so pretty", etc. Which of course had us all cracking up and turning red! I did not expect that at all, but it sure was funny!

After the gifts were opened and we all had a good laugh we all sat around and talked. Unfortunately I, my mom, and my s-sister were some of the firsts to leave. I'm sure there were plenty more laughs to be had and I hated missing out on them, but I really enjoyed the time that I had while I was there and that's what matters.

So to those who hosted, you did a fabulous job with everything and thank you for inviting me!

Can I Get A Minute?

Love, love, love... Ok now.. I hate when I have something that was fun, funny, cute, a highlight of my day, etc. and I go to tell my husband about it and he doesn't take the time to listen. I could understand if he was doing something that was actually important, but if it's video games, sports, or a movie then why not just pause it and pay attention for 5-10 minutes?
By the way, I love my husband. He's a great husband and father, but as with every marriage there are just some things that he does that bugs me. Just like I do some things that bug him.
I just needed to get this off my chest. Whew! Thanks for listening!

Finding His Voice

Seth is finding his voice. Before we know it he'll be laughing and talking :) I can't wait! I can't wait to hear what his laugh sounds like! I also can't wait until he can tell me what's wrong, what he wants, etc.

I want to teach him the way to properly say words and to talk with intelligence. I don't want him sounding country, hick, or like some punk.

That's all the new news I have for now....

One Month!

It's hard to believe that my little boy is one month old! Ok so maybe it isn't to hard to believe since it feels like he's always been here, but I'm so glad he's in my life.
I'm so glad I'm not pregnant anymore. And I love this new and improved person being a mommy has made me.
So you may ask,"what does a one month old do?" Well, not much more than a newborn! He eats more, sleeps better through the night, sleeps less during the day, and has a much fuller diaper when he goes but other than that he's just like a newborn...ok ok so there are other things, some cool things like he smiles more and tries to talk to us. He doesn't laugh yet but I'm sure he will soon and I can't wait!
He's still just the sweetest thing and the cutest one too!

I Miss My Son

My son has been "stolen" away from me... Don't freak out it was by my husband. He took Seth to go out to eat with my in-laws. I would have went, but my stomach has been in all sorts of knots.
I hate that Seth isn't here with me. I don't like that he's away. The only comfort I have is knowing that he's with my husband so he's around someone that he's used to be around all the time.
I'm all for Seth seeing his grandparents sometimes, but I'm not up for him going off without Miles or I with him, we had him and he's our responsibility, that's just how I feel. I don't understand people that ship their kids off to grandparents, unless they have to because of work that can't be helped. By the way, I'm not calling the occasional staying the night at a grandparents house being shipped off. If you need a break every once in a while then I understand.
Anyways, back to the point. I miss my son! And I hope my husband brings him home soon!

Waiting On The Mail...

I absolutely hate waiting on the mail, don't you? Especially when you've ordered something and you know it should be coming any day now! I've ordered a few things and luckily one of the things finally got here today!! (1 day late) I have, I think, 4 other things that I'm waiting for, some pictures and the rest are surprises for my hubby :)
Speaking of my Hubby, he's been absolutely wonderful! He's a great dad and helps out with Seth, I don't feel like I'm parenting alone. If I'm having problems with Seth such as getting him to burp, then he'll come and take Seth from me and burp (or at least try to burp) him. He takes good care of me, not letting me do things that I shouldn't be doing and being very understanding with my limitations. He deserves a few good surprises for how awesome he's been.
Now if only it would all hurry up and get here!


-Impatiently Waiting

3 Weeks

3 weeks old! It's funny to look back at his first pictures and see how much he's changed already. He's still so sweet and such a good baby.
He's still a good sleeper, he wakes up a couple times during the night, which isn't bad. Every once in a while he'll wake up more during the night, but it's typically just because he wants his pacifier.
He's waking up more and more during the day, which is nice. I love seeing his beautiful eyes and watch him as he looks around at everything.
I absolutely love cuddling with him! He's so sweet and warm :) I love knowing that he's more comfortable when he's near me, that bond :)
I love being a mommy to my precious baby boy!

You've Never Known Love Until...

I know a lot of people say that once you have a child you really know love, but sorry I have to disagree. Yes, I love my son and I put his needs above mine (no matter how hard that may be at times), but I don't love him more than my husband, it's just a different kind of love.

Sure there are things that I would do for my son that I wouldn't do for my husband. I think being a mommy means a lot of sacrifice for your child and their needs, but marriage involves some sacrifice too, just once again a different kind.

Being a mommy you feed your child before yourself no matter how hungry you are, you sacrifice time that you would spend with your husband, friends, and family, you sacrifice sleep and sanity (at times), etc.

Being a wife you put your husband above your family and friends, you may sacrifice getting something you want to get something he wants (same as with a child), it's no longer what you want to do or where you want to go, it's no longer I it's we, etc.

I don't think that the people that feel more love for their children are wrong for feeling that way, but I know I'm not wrong either. I just think it's a difference in personalities. Either way I love being a mommy just like all of you and honestly that's what matters :)

First Day Without Daddy

Today is the first day at home alone with Seth, Daddy had to go back to work. We've had a very good first day. Seth has slept for quite a few hours of it, he's woken up a couple times for a bottle, and even had an hour or two of content awake time :)

We, of course, miss Daddy being home with us, but work is a must. Unfortunately we can't live on love. And all to soon I'll have to go back to work myself, but unlike Daddy I'll only be away from Seth for around 30 minutes to possibly an hour, not 10 or more hours. And Seth even gets to come with me to one of my jobs! I'm excited about that. I know I'll still have to do my work, but I won't have to worry about him being with someone else and if he's okay or if they're taking proper care of him or not.

Well, I've been doing housework and I need to get back to that. I love being a mommy!

First Stroller Ride

   Today the weather has been so great that we decided to take our first stroller ride. Mommy and Daddy needed the exercise and we all need some fresh air. We walked for maybe 15 minutes, which I thought was pretty good since I'm still healing. Seth slept the whole time.. Well, he may have been awake for 1 minute, but you might as well say he was asleep the whole time. Lol.

Seth seems to love the outside, but he's just at that age still where sleeping is all he wants to do. Besides eating and going "potty" (Have I ever mentioned how much I hate the word "potty"? Or "tinkle"? Or "Ucky"? Lol. Sorry in my book you "go to the bathroom", "poop", and "pee" You may as well just call it what it is...)

I still love being a mommy! <3 p="p">

First Night In Crib

Tonight is Seth's first night sleeping in his crib.
He seems to really love his crib and all the room that he has to spread out in it. We had noticed he sleeps better if he's on a very open space like a couch or bed so we decided to see how he'd sleep in his crib.
He fell asleep without a pacifier. And has been sleeping very well so far.
One problem... Me being mommy I don't like that he's down the hall. For the first 2 weeks of his life he slept right next to my side of the bed in his bassinet. And for 9 months I carried him everywhere (like either of us had a choice lol) So I'm sad that he's already growing up on me. And I'm worried that if I fall asleep he'll wake up and I won't be there and he'll be scared.
.... Point is baby may sleep well, but mommy is going to have a hard night :(

The Dr.'s Request

At Seth's first Dr.'s appointment he weighed 8 lbs. 9.5 oz. and the Dr. wanted him to meet his birth weight. Well at our 2 week appointment Seth weighed 9 lbs. 5 oz.! He most definitely exceeded the Dr.'s request. Lol.

All To Soon

Yesterday had 3 sponge baths (for Seth of course), spit up all down my back, not very much sleep, a Dr.'s appt., tons of dirty diapers, a scare or 2, and a lot of pain/irritation from my stitches. But even with all of that I wouldn't want to go back to the way things used to be. I love being a mommy spit up, dirty diapers, and all!

Sad part is I know he'll grow up all to fast. I looked at what he'll be wearing by Christmas time and nearly cried because he'll be so big and at only 3 months! Before I know it he'll be married! I never thought I'd get emotional over this, but it's really bugging me. Guess I'll be more like my Mom on this than I thought. 

For now I'll enjoy him sleeping in my arms knowing one day all to soon I'll no longer be able to hold him because he'll be to big. So I'm soaking up every moment I can!

The Ugly Is Gone!

You are probably thinking, "This can't have anything to do with your baby." But you'd be wrong. Yes, that's right there was something I found ugly about my baby. *Gasp!* Relax people. I'm talking about his Umbilical Cord Stump. It finally fell off today! *Choir of Angels singing* *Clapping* *Shouts of joy*

I love babies, especially mine, but the Umbilical Cord Stumps are just SOOOOO gross! So I'm super excited that it's gone and I no longer have to worry about it!

I know some people keep the stump, but in my opinion that's just nasty. (Sorry if that offends any of you, but that's just my opinion.) I don't want to look back and remember the stump, just the cute, amazing, sweet, perfect little one that I gave birth too.

So celebrate with me the falling off of the ugly!

What's His Name?

You get pregnant or you're dreaming of your future children, you spend hours and hours looking up names to find the perfect one. You talk to your belly calling your child their name and then they get here and suddenly you can't remember their name. ... Yep, that's right, all that time spent finding the name and using it while baby is in the womb and now they're out and you can't remember it. And guess what, that's normal! 

I felt SO bad because here we spent all this time picking out Seth's name, we called him Seth while he was still in the womb, and suddenly he got here and all I could seem to call him was Buddy. I don't even like when people call their sons Buddy, yet here I was doing just that. So I asked my mom if she ever had problems calling her kids their names and she said yes! That it was perfectly normal! I couldn't believe it. Parents always seem to call out their kid's names with ease and now I hear that it's normal to forget/have problems calling them by their name! 

Well, at least it made me feel better. Here I thought I was some horrible person unable to remember my own son's name. So if you have problems remembering/calling your child by their name, you aren't alone! Don't feel bad! Eventually we'll be able to call out their name with no issues just like the rest of the parents. Lol.   

First Church Service

Today Seth had his first church service. It was a Sunday Morning service and he did really well. He slept basically the whole time, he was only awake for a few seconds when people were clapping, he didn't like that. He didn't cry or fuss, but he did give a few unhappy looks when the clapping would begin.
We would have went tonight as well, but I am still sore from giving birth. I can only seem to handle being out and sitting up for a couple hours a day then I'm sore until I wake up the next morning. Soon we'll be back to both services.
Hopefully Seth will take those services just as well as he did the service today.

A Better Me

Having Seth around has been such a great thing for me! Example: I actually want to clean up the house. And not just a messy, cluttered clean. I mean clean, get rid of the things you don't need/use, put away things after you use them, etc. CLEAN. Lol. And anyone that knows me and knows how I am can tell you that's a miracle! LOL!

I love that he's making me want to be a better me! Having him was such a good idea and such a blessing! I'd be enjoying my blessing right now, but the in-laws are enjoying him at the moment. Yes, I'm sharing him :P  Big shocker I know!

For This I Am Thankful...

I woke up this morning and I was still sore, but I felt better than yesterday.
I noticed I was able to move around with a bit more ease.
My amazing husband
My precious son
We're all healthy and happy.
We have a wonderful house.
2 good, running vehicles.
We both have jobs.
3 adorable cats.
Food on the table.
Money in the bank.
Family that loves us.
.....................................................................................................................................................

I could go on and on about the things I'm thankful for, but there's a few. I am so blessed and often times I forget just how truly blessed I am. Having my son has made me realize just how blessed I am and how often I forget that I'm blessed.
I know I'm not the only one who forgets. We all do. It's so much easier to see all the bad things that are happening in life and dwell on those. But think about it, that makes for a pretty miserable life, doesn't it?
So take a moment think of at least 10 things that you're thankful for. And don't forget to thank God for these things because without him it wouldn't be possible.

Baby Posts

I always said I wouldn't be one of those people who's every Facebook, Twitter, and wherever else post was about their child, but now I see why they do that.
Because the highlight of everyday is that child.
Because the love you feel for that child is so great.
Because of all the cute things they do.
Because the life that you had before and thought you'd miss is gone and you honestly don't care that it is...

I love my little boy and I couldn't imagine life without him in it. It seems so strange to me that he wasn't around before last week. It feels like he's always been around, guess that's because he's a part of me.

I will cherish every day that I am given with him. I am truly blessed!

Pregnancy Is Over!

1 week ago today I had my perfect little man!
Name: Seth Paul
Date of birth: 9/27/12
Time of birth: 9:37 p.m.
Weight: 8 lbs. 12 oz.
Height: 20 3/4 in.

9/27 my Dr. had scheduled me to get induced since I would be 41 weeks. So Miles and I went to the hospital at 7 a.m.

They checked my cervix and I was 1 1/2 cm. dilated so they inserted a pill to help me dilate. After about 2 hours they checked again and I was, I believe, 3 or 3 1/2 cm. dilated.

My Dr. asked if I would like my water broken or my epidural first. Knowing that after my water would break the contractions would only get worse I chose to get the epidural first so it would kick in before she broke my water.

So I got the epidural and really it was no more painful than getting the iv's in. The epidural is wonderful btw! The contractions were very painful at only 3 or 3 1/2 cm. so I'm so glad that the epidural exists and that it actually worked for me.  Yes, you can feel pressure, but really no pain.

The Dr. had to be in surgery for a couple of hours and said she would break my water when she got out. So I waited. During my waiting one of the nurses checked my cervix and my water sack was bulging and it broke during the check.

Eventually I was dilated enough to start pushing and that's when the fun began. I was already exhausted and I kept falling asleep for a minute or two (or at least it felt like a minute or two). I pushed for 3 hours with the help of my husband and my mom coaching me and giving me support. Mom helped hold my left leg and Miles my right. The method of pushing was 3 10 second pushes per contraction (a few times there were 4) I could feel pressure, but no real pain besides my heartburn and upper back pain. Yeah, it was real fun to push with heartburn and upper back pain. I'm sure I would have had lower back pain too, but I couldn't feel it. Lol.

Seth's head wasn't positioned right, it was angled just a little bit off so they used the suction to help him out.

As said above at 9:37 p.m. my perfect, precious, gift from God was finally here.

They placed him on me and cleaned him off. Took him over to get checked, weighed, measured, etc.

While the nurses did that the Dr. and another nurse stitched me up. Since he was such a big baby I had a 3rd degree tear and it took them a little while to get me stitched up. Luckily I was still numb from the epidural so I could feel that they were doing something and I knew what they were doing, but it didn't hurt.

I was in and out during the whole day so I'm sorry that I can't really give you times and whole lot of detail, but I'm giving you what I know. I'm sure my husband and my mother could tell the story better, but I'm the blogger so it's my version of the story that you get.

So it's a week later and I'm still sore, but it gets better and better each day. I know soon I'll be back to normal and that the stitches will dissolve soon. I can't wait!

I'm having a hard time believing that a week has passed already and that I'm a mommy! I'm sure it will eventually fully hit me that I'm a mommy, but I'm not sure when that's going to happen.

Seth is a great baby! I could not have asked for a better baby. He sleeps almost the whole night, he doesn't fuss unless he's hungry or gassy, he burps pretty easily (most of the time), smiles and makes faces a lot, etc. I absolutely love him!

I love being a mommy! And my husband loves being a daddy! He's on FMLA for 2 weeks, which he only has 1 week left now :( I've so enjoyed having him at home! I'm glad he was able to take off 2 weeks, but since it isn't paid I'll feel a bit better (financially) when he goes back to work. I will miss having him here!

It will be different taking care of Seth with absolutely no help.. like for someone to watch him when I need to go to the bathroom and such things. I'm sure we'll be fine though. I'll get used to that just like I've gotten used to (as much as possible) getting up to take care of Seth in the middle of the night.

Btw as much as I may hurt from my 3rd degree tear I'd still do it again, it was worth it!

40 Weeks

That's right 40 weeks! This baby that I, and a few others, thought I would have already had is STILL not coming out. My due date was yesterday, the 18th, which came and went without a single sign of impending labor. So today I am officially overdue, BOO! :(

My pregnancy has been a very good pregnancy compared to many of the horror stories I've heard. And I am VERY thankful for that. I, of course, am becoming irritated at the fact that I am still pregnant and at all the pregnancy questions.. "When are you due?" (Now answering you mean how many days past due am I), "How much longer?" (Only God knows), "You're still pregnant?" (Do you see a baby in my arms? No, well yes, then I am obviously still pregnant), "How do you feel" (How do you think I feel I'm huge, overdue, and have no signs of labor. Lol No actually though those things are true I'm doing quite well.), etc. I know these are normal questions and they're a way of showing the mom-to-be that you care, but lets be honest it gets annoying. And I know after I have him they'll stop, but unfortunately I'll have a new set of questions to answer. Example: "How old is he?" Will the questions ever end?! LOL

So I used to give updates on my symptoms so I guess I'll do that now.
Occasional heartburn
Swelling, which has gone down since the weather has changed to slightly cooler temperatures
Backaches
Hip aches
Carpel Tunnel, which I already had a slight case of before pregnancy
Neck pain
Tired
Irritated
Etc.

At my last Dr. appt., which was almost 1 week ago, I went ahead and had the Nurse Practitioner check my cervix and it hadn't changed since the Dr. had checked it the week before so I was still 1 cm. dilated BOO! (again) My next Dr. appt. is tomorrow and I'm hoping that I'll have Seth before then, but if not the Dr. and I will be setting up a date for me to be induced. At least if I don't have him before then I'll then know the absolute latest that he'll be in there.  

Baby Pics

In the picture above is a baby picture of me on the left and a baby picture of my hubby on the right. 

I'm so curious what our LO will look like! A mixture of us, more like his daddy... 

The wait is driving dear Husband and I crazy! We can't wait to meet him, see what he looks like, hold him, bring him home, etc. 

I know that God's timing is perfect, but I really want to have him already! Miles and I have been begging Seth to come out and have been praying to God that it will be his will for our LO to be here like now! 

I've been having weird discomforts/pains so I think it will be soon, but God only knows who's soon that will be. To dear Husband (DH) and I soon would be anywhere from minimum = now to maximum = a couple of hours. And, of course, soon to God could be anywhere from now - a couple of weeks :/ I'm not really willing to wait a couple of weeks, of course, I don't really have a choice do I? 

I'll be sure to post the above pic and a pic of our LO to show the resemblance (or not) once he's born.. and I find the time. 

If you pray, please help DH and I pray that our LO will be here soon, soon as in anywhere from now to a day or two. Thanks and have a great day!

Crib

So in these pics it kind of looks like 2 different cribs, but it's not, just the lighting was different so the color looks different.
Btw, ignore the dresser that's practically sitting on top of the crib, it won't be there later and it won't be that color. We are going to buy some paint that hopefully will be a very close color to the color of the crib to paint the dresser and I'll be buying some spray paint to take care of the old and, in my opinion, ugly knobs.
You can also see the nice gray walls in these pics. I'd say that it looks more like the color from the first pic.
I'll try to get more pics of the nursery soon, but things just seem to be going slow when it comes to the nursery, which is fine since we won't be using it immediately.

Pregnant Forever! (Vent)

I'm starting to feel as if I'll be pregnant forever! I've ate hot (spicy) food (not necessarily to try to go into labor, but because it sounded good) and nothing happened.. not even a few contractions. I've taken a long walk, nada. I've done some squats, still nothing.
I keep waking up every morning more sore than the previous morning, but still no baby! My pelvic bones have been sore, popping, and just moving around. My stomach feels different. I've had signs of labor coming soon, but no still no baby!
All I want to do is have my baby so I can meet him, start getting back to me again, and learn what my new routine will be like! Is this really to much to ask for?
And yes, I know my Dr. said that if I'm still pregnant by my 40 week Dr.'s visit than we'll set up a day to induce, but 41 weeks is way to long to carry a baby, in my opinion. Personally if it was me I'd say, "If you're still pregnant at your 39 week Dr.'s visit then we'll set up a date."
I know she's the Dr., she's done all the schooling, deals with multiple pregnant women daily, and has delivered many babies so she knows WAY more than me, but I'm just so ready to not be me+1 anymore. I want to be just me, me carrying a baby, in my arms and not my stomach!
We've tried talking to Seth hoping that maybe our pleas would make him want to come out and meet us, but he's decided to be stubborn and stay put. I've been praying and praying that God would make him come out already and so far the answer has been no, obviously since there's still no baby.
I know people say, "Oh, the baby will come when it's ready" But lets face it people I'm ready!, I'm sure by now he's "baked", and if he doesn't come out soon I'm going to start falling apart, mentally and physically.

My body is so sore at points in the day that I just want to cry! I've never had such bad neck and back pains in my life + the pelvic pain, OMW! I can't bend over without feeling like I'm about to break, as if bending over wasn't hard enough as is with this huge stomach! And Seth has decided that it'd be fun to take basically all of mommy's calcium! My wrists hurt so bad! One of them is so bad that if I don't sleep with a brace on it I'll wake up feeling like there's a bone out of place. Talk about uncomfortable! I've been getting headaches, swelling again, heartburn (not as bad as the horror stories I've heard though), and these weird discomfort spots on my stomach.
It's only 12:39p.m. and I feel like I need to go take a nap. I've only been up since 8:30a.m. I should not need a nap already. And yes, I know, pregnancy is exhausting, you're growing another person, etc.
Oh, and the thing I hear the most and that I'm the most sick of hearing, "Get plenty of sleep (rest), you're going to need it!" As if I didn't know this already. 1.) I'm going to be popping a baby out of me, that's pretty hard work epidural or no epidural. 2.) After popping out this baby I'm going to be dealing with a ton of people coming to see me.. ok, so they'll really be there for the baby, but that's kind of depressing so I'll say they're there to see us both. Dealing with a lot of people, coming in and out is tiring. 3.) Even when I finally get to come home I'll then be taking care of a newborn. 4.) Breastfeeding at all hours of the day and night 5.) Diaper changing at all hours 6.) Trying to get baby back to sleep.   Yeah, this list could go on forever, so I'll just stop there.
I'm SOOOOO glad that my hubby is going to be taking off 2 weeks from work to help me out. I'm very thankful that God has provided him with a job where he can do that and that He's provided us with enough financial security that we'll be able to go without him getting paid for the 2 weeks. It'll be a tight squeeze financially especially since I'm not getting paid either, but I know that God will provide.
Well, away I go.. off to do some more squats, drink more water, and pray that a.) my water breaks or b.) I start getting some heavy contractions (or hidden answer C.) all the above) And if the answer to my prayer is still no, then I'll probably be taking a nap.
Have a great day! Sorry for the venting!

Nursery and Can't Waits!

The crib is put together, the mattress is bought and in the crib, the sheet is on the mattress, and there are 2 cute little stuffed animals in the crib :) (Yes, I know to take them out when Seth is in the crib)  It looks so cute! I'm so excited! Things are finally coming together! The rocker/recliner is even in there... just needs a cover now. 

There was a little mess up with the paint so there are 2 walls that aren't completely complete... stupid Walmart just has to give us problems *rolls eyes* We gave them the lid that had the exact mixture of paint on the lid and when it was on the wall and dried it dried up a darker, slightly more brown gray. So now we either try again to get the right mixture or we go over the whole room with this new color. I think we're going to try again. We can always use this new color somewhere else in the house.. or/and in the huge closet that's in the nursery. Sounds good to me. Now just to let my mom know what the new plan is. Lol. 

I've sat in the rocker just rocking and enjoying the nursery. I can't wait to enjoy it with my Little One! To watch him while he sleeps in his crib (bought by my MIL, SIL, and dear husband's Aunt Debbi), to change him on the changer (provided by my brother, Dave and his wife, Lynette), to rock him in the rocker (that was dear husband's Grandma's), etc. 

All kinds of things have been given/bought for Seth from wonderful family members and I'm glad to be able to surround him with things from family, the living ones and the ones that have passed on. We may not get together with family very often, but that doesn't mean that we don't care, it just means we're all busy with our own lives and families. I'll be sure to teach Seth the importance of family and being there for his family when they're in need. 

I can't wait to meet Seth and take pictures of him! I have some cute ideas for newborn pics that I'll be taking from home! And even be doing family photo's from home! I'm so excited! I'm so curious what he'll look like! Color of his hair (or if he'll have any when he comes out), color of his eyes, shape of face, who's nose he'll have, etc. I'm sure he'll be a cutie! 

I can't wait to bring him home... 

 

Oh, That Look..

Let me start off by saying that I love my husband. Period.

But women lets be honest, we all want the man that will stare at us, especially when we have absolutely no clue that he is. And that when he looks at you he has that look that just says, "you're my everything", "there's no one, but you for me", "everything you do is perfect in my eyes", etc.

If you have no clue what that look looks like you should go to www.youtube.com and watch Halo by Beyonce. Here I'll even give you the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnVUHWCynig.

By the way, I'm not saying that your husband, fiance, or boyfriend doesn't love you if he doesn't look at you like that, but seriously if you watched the video don't you just wish that someone would look at you like that and make you all weak in the knees? I know I do! I love the way he looks at her... it's like she's the only other person on the planet, like he doesn't need to look at any other woman for the rest of his life because he's found exactly who he wants.

Contractions

Contractions.. yep, I'm having them. They aren't super painful or anything just annoying and a little scary, I guess. I'm trying to time them with this App on my phone, but since I've never dealt with contractions before I'm having some concerns about my timing (when to stop the timer and when to start it)
I'm really, really hoping that God will allow me to be one of the women who's water breaks so I'll know for sure that it's time to go to the hospital. I'm a little freaked out since we chose a hospital that is 30 min away and since my hubby is at work I would have to call my mom or just drive over to their house and have her take me to the hospital. I'm afraid that if my water doesn't break that I'll miscalculate my contractions and not make it to the hospital in time. Guess this is where I just have to trust God.. He knows what He's doing...

No Sleep Tonight... Or any night

I can basically no longer sleep at night. I have to try to sleep, keep forcing myself back to sleep, then around 2 or 3 I can't do it anymore so I stay up for a few hours and when my hubby goes to work I go downstairs and fall asleep on our sectional until around 10 or 10:30.
Tossing and turning hurts, but staying on my right side hurts my hip.
I'm so tired of not being able to sleep somewhat normally that I could cry.
I just sit here and watch my husband sleep. I'm glad he seems to be sleeping well even when I'm not because he has work and needs the sleep, but I so wish I could join him in dreamland.
I can't really cuddle hubby because my belly gets on the way and it hurts when pressure is applied, mainly because I accidentally bruised my stomach when I went to sit down in front of a table and hit the table. And I'm not comfy in one sleeping position for very long anyways so I'd probably just mess up his good sleep. This child really needs to make his way here already because I'm about to lose it....

Doctors Appointment (37 weeks)

Well, last week I found out that I'm dilated 1cm and I got checked for GBS. This doctors appointment I was seen by the Nurse Practitioner and she informed me that the test for GBS came back negative so I won't need any antibiotics in an iv for that during delivery. I also had a position check, which is basically a 2 min U/S to see how baby is positioned and you'll be glad to know that Seth is head down! Can't wait to find out more at my 38 week appointment.

Doctor Tomorrow

So I'm on weekly doctor's visits now and my next appointment is tomorrow. I'll be seeing the Nurse Practitioner and she'll be, of course, doing all the normal stuff and then letting me know if I have G.B.S. or not. And therefore if I will have the antibiotics in an IV during birth or not. If I do no big deal.
I'll let you know when I know. Also I will officially know tomorrow if I have to have a c-section or not, due to him being breech. So I'll let you know about that as well.
As for right now I'm off to work and to buy some milk :) Hopefully my dizziness will hold off.. yes, the dizziness has gotten worse and if I don't have this baby soon I'm going to ask my doctor to put me on maternity leave. My swelling has also gotten much worse. Bring on the baby!

Sunday Night Youth Service.. WOW

Sunday night the church held a Youth Service, which of course, the whole church was invited to attend. Let me tell you if you missed it you sure missed out. I wish they would have done a Live Stream of the service so I could give you a link to check it out, but they didn't *sad face*

Our preacher for the evening was Gentry, one of our youth and the Pastor's son. He did a fabulous job and I'm so proud of him for letting God use him! And amazingly he said he only found out he was preaching right after Sunday morning service. Talk about some fast preparing! I would have guessed that he'd spent much more time preparing.

Some of the youth did a drama, a very powerful drama. If I knew the name of it I would tell you to look it up on Youtube (lots of people have done this drama) It wasn't a sign language drama or a skit it was one of those dramas with a song and they kind of act it out. Well, it had me in tears.. and I'd seen it done before. Lol.

The youth joined our normal choir for the singing. They had a Praise Team. Etc. Once again wonderful.

I was so very blessed to have the opportunity to be in that service. I hope the service blessed others as much (or more even) than it blessed me. Hopefully we all took parts from it that we will use throughout the rest of our lives.

One of my favorite things of the service, of the preaching at least, was when Gentry talked about Moses and how he told Pharaoh to let his people go and he said God doesn't have to say let my people go God says, "Satan, they're already free!" That was just so powerful. He actually said many things that I'd heard before, but the way he said it just was so much more powerful than what I'd heard before. I was definitely taking notes. I would share some of those, but I'm sitting in the dark and my notes are in my purse, which is across the room. Lazy, yes, I know. (But that's a perk of being pregnant LOL)

I hope that our youth will continue to reach out to the lost souls in their schools, towns, and families even when the adults aren't being the best of role models. Not that I'm giving us adults a right to not be good role models, but I want the youth to know that even when we aren't doing our part that they should. Just remember you're not only the role models for the people your age, but you're going to be the role models of my child and of all the other children. Please be a good role model for my child and your peers. People may make fun of you, but let me tell you a secret.... Deep down inside they respect you and possibly even envy you. Unfortunately it's not until you fall that they tell you how much your standing up for your beliefs really meant to them.

I can't wait to see what God has in store for my family and CLC. I expect great things, after all we serve a great God.

Vet Visit AKA Garfield Update

Well, the vet said that nothing is wrong with Garfield's heart that he can hear. So his little "episode", which he thinks was him just passing out wasn't from his heart. So that's good news.
He was able to get his shots so he's now all up to date. And Garfield has been acting fine so he thinks this could be just a one time thing.
I hope it's just a one time thing! I was so scared! I never want to have to deal with that again. But unfortunately in order to love someone you have to be willing to deal with the pain of losing them. Why must there be a negative to every positive?

Morning Scare (Not Baby Related!)

So yesterday I woke up to a major scare! Want to hear the story? Of course you do! So here goes:

I since I'm pregnant find it easier and more comfortable to sleep on the sectional downstairs. So I was asleep and I woke up to hearing a cat hacking. Which it sounded like a normal cat trying to get rid of a hairball, but after what happened to our beautiful Safari *sad face* I always check to make sure that a hairball is all it is. Well I look around and I see Tootsie and Scooter so I knew it was Garfield and then I finally found him behind the sectional standing over his vomit. I as usual said something like, "Hey buddy. Are you ok?" And he just sat there. Next thing I knew he just slumped over from a sitting position to a laying position. I of course leaning over the sectional with my huge belly was trying to keep my balance with my left hand and I was trying to lean down far enough to pick him up with my right hand, but I couldn't reach down that far. I was able to get a hold of him, but he was completely limp so I couldn't bring him up to me. At some point before, after, or during, I don't remember, I tried massaging from his tail up to his shoulders in case there was something lodged that needed to come up, but that did nothing. So I continued to try to pick him up, while shaking out of fear and praying, "Dear God, not again!" After what seemed like forever, but was probably only about a minute or less he came to. Now I had/have no clue if he passed out or if he was dying. I couldn't really check for a heartbeat all I knew was he was limp. Well anyways, he comes to and just sits there for a second and then he gets up and walks out from behind the sectional and goes to his comfy spot in front of our front door. I, of course, got up and was saying, "Garfield. Garfield. Garfield, are you ok?" and it didn't even seem to register that I was saying anything to him. So I went over and picked him up and normally he would start purring right away, but there was no purring he just laid his head on my shoulder. Well, he completely terrified me so I really needed to go to the bathroom so I carried him into the bathroom with me and when I turned on the light he started purring, which made me feel better. So I sat him down so I could go to the bathroom and he sat on the rug for a minute then he started rubbing against my legs as he normally would, which calmed me down even more. And even though he was acting more normal again I took him upstairs with me into the bathroom so I could take a bath and keep an eye on him.

So there's the story. Yes, he's doing fine. There hasn't been anything unusual about him since. But we have an appointment with the Vet. today to get him checked out and get him some shots. Hopefully he's healthy and maybe he just passed out from heaving. I'd hate for it to be something more than that.

I'll let you know what they say...

Sodom And Gomorrah

Genesis 19: 1-25 And there came two angels to Sodom at even; and Lot sat in the gate of Sodom: and Lot seeing them rose up to meet them; and he bowed himself with his face toward the ground;

² And he said, Behold now, my lords, turn in, I pray you, into your servant's house, and tarry all night, and wash your feet, and ye shall rise up early, and go on your ways. And they said, Nay; but we will abide in the street all night.

³ And he pressed upon them greatly; and they turned in unto him, and entered into his house; and he made them a feast, and did bake unleavened bread, and they did eat.

⁴ But before they lay down, the men of the city, even the men of Sodom, compassed the house round, both old and young, all the people from every quarter:

⁵ And they called unto Lot, and said unto him, Where are the men which came in to thee this night? bring them out unto us, that we may know them.

⁶ And Lot went out at the door unto them, and shut the door after him,

⁷ And said, I pray you, brethren, do not so wickedly.

⁸ Behold now, I have two daughters which have not known man; let me, I pray you, bring them out unto you, and do ye to them as is good in your eyes: only unto these men do nothing; for therefore came they under the shadow of my roof.

⁹ And they said, Stand back. And they said again, This one fellow came in to sojourn, and he will needs be a judge: now will we deal worse with thee, than with them. And they pressed sore upon the man, even Lot, and came near to break the door.

¹⁰ But the men put forth their hand, and pulled Lot into the house to them, and shut to the door.

¹¹ And they smote the men that were at the door of the house with blindness, both small and great: so that they wearied themselves to find the door.

¹² And the men said unto Lot, Hast thou here any besides? son in law, and thy sons, and thy daughters, and whatsoever thou hast in the city, bring them out of this place:

¹³ For we will destroy this place, because the cry of them is waxen great before the face of the Lord; and the Lord hath sent us to destroy it.

¹⁴ And Lot went out, and spake unto his sons in law, which married his daughters, and said, Up, get you out of this place; for the Lord will destroy this city. But he seemed as one that mocked unto his sons in law.

¹⁵ And when the morning arose, then the angels hastened Lot, saying, Arise, take thy wife, and thy two daughters, which are here; lest thou be consumed in the iniquity of the city.

¹⁶ And while he lingered, the men laid hold upon his hand, and upon the hand of his wife, and upon the hand of his two daughters; the Lord being merciful unto him: and they brought him forth, and set him without the city.

¹⁷ And it came to pass, when they had brought them forth abroad, that he said, Escape for thy life; look not behind thee, neither stay thou in all the plain; escape to the mountain, lest thou be consumed.

¹⁸ And Lot said unto them, Oh, not so, my Lord:

¹⁹ Behold now, thy servant hath found grace in thy sight, and thou hast magnified thy mercy, which thou hast shewed unto me in saving my life; and I cannot escape to the mountain, lest some evil take me, and I die:

²⁰ Behold now, this city is near to flee unto, and it is a little one: Oh, let me escape thither, (is it not a little one?) and my soul shall live.

²¹ And he said unto him, See, I have accepted thee concerning this thing also, that I will not overthrow this city, for the which thou hast spoken.

²² Haste thee, escape thither; for I cannot do anything till thou be come thither. Therefore the name of the city was called Zoar.

²³ The sun was risen upon the earth when Lot entered into Zoar.

²⁴ Then the Lord rained upon Sodom and upon Gomorrah brimstone and fire from the Lord out of heaven;

²⁵ And he overthrew those cities, and all the plain, and all the inhabitants of the cities, and that which grew upon the ground.

So in the easiest terms I know here's me explaining this: 

God sent 2 angels to Sodom. Lot took in the men (angels) in for the night so they could get cleaned up, eat, and rest and then leave early in the morning. Before they could go to bed the men of the city came to Lot's house and told Lot to send out the men (angels) "so they might know them" (or in the blunt way, have sex with them) Lot went outside and closed the door behind him and basically begged them to "know" his virgin daughters and leave the men alone. The men of the city wanted nothing to do with his daughters they only wanted the men (angels) and they tried to force their way into the house to get to them and the threatened Lot. The men (angels) pulled Lot into the house and shut the door then they made the men of the city blind so they wouldn't be able to find the door and would wear themselves out trying. Then they told Lot to gather his family and leave because God sent them to destroy the city because of it's wickedness. Once Lot and his family left and were at a safe place God made it rain brimstone and destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah. 

Let me break down one certain word here. Sodom. Sodom= was a place. A Sodomite= was someone who dwelled in Sodom OR a person who engages in Sodomy. Sodomy= anal or oral sexual intercourse with a member of (in this case) the same sex (can also be towards a member of the opposite sex). 

With me so far? Okay, so Sodom was wicked in God's eyes I'm sure for many reasons, but the one that is pointed out is for Sodomy. So obviously God thought sodomy was wicked and therefore he destroyed Sodom (and Gomorrah). 

Now please tell me.. how am I to ignore what the Bible so plainly explains in black and white just because it might offend someone? 

Hebrews 13:8 says, "Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever." So if He's the same (never changing) as the Scripture says and He thought sodomy was wrong back then, once again He never changes, then He must think that sodomy is still wrong today. 

Please don't take me wrong I don't hate gays and I don't think they're evil people, but I have people who have unfriended me because of my beliefs (some aren't even gay). And I wasn't even bashing the gays. I have gay friends and family members, I'm not going to treat them badly. I hope they have a happy life, but I am worried for their souls and I think they're missing out on something much greater than they'd ever imagine possible.

 I didn't post this for an argument or a debate or to make anyone upset or angry so I would ask that you not leave any bashing comments/remarks. This is how I feel and what I believe and you have the right to disagree. If you feel like leaving a rude comment I do ask you to think back and remember when you've posted something supporting gays and ask yourself  "Has she ever bashed my post on being gay?" No, I haven't (at least not to my knowledge). Please do the same kindness for me. Thank you.