It's EVERYWHERE!

I'm so sick and tired of not being able to take one step without seeing or hearing unnecessary things! Am I alone? I mean really you walk in the grocery store, mall, or even out your own front door and there are men and women who might as well be running around naked! Or you're at the same places and someone is cursing or well, I'll just say talking dirty, which I'm sure any adult (and even most children now days) can figure out what I mean. It's ridiculous and completely unnecessary!

When someone walks around wearing practically nothing or even some of the clothes that people now think are modest I feel sorry for them and disgusted, obviously they weren't taught to have any self respect. Wearing that means you have no respect for yourself and no respect for anyone else. Seriously please respect that my eyeballs and most other people's don't want to see all that skin.

And the cursing and dirty talk. Do you know how stupid you sound? Seriously if you can't talk without adding a curse word into nearly every sentence you're just making yourself sound stupid. I can get the point across that I'm mad, upset, serious, happy, etc. without using a single curse word. It's in the tone of voice, the look on your face,.. a lot of times words aren't even necessary to show how you feel. And talking about this person and that person and what you did last night or what you wanted to do.. please! Have some respect. That is private business between you and that person. You shouldn't be talking to your "homeboys" or anyone else about that.

What I'm trying to say:
DRESS MODEST (The real form of modesty!), STOP CURSING, and STOP TALKING ABOUT THINGS THAT SHOULDN'T BE DISCUSSED!
You'll be a much better person for it and people will appreciate you for it...

Excited, it's soon!

I was one of those women who didn't want to make my whole blog about my pregnancy, but then I realized after getting pregnant that my pregnancy is pretty much my whole life right now. And hey aren't you supposed to blog about what you know and about your life?

It's kind of hard to believe that in around 5 weeks my baby will be considered a full term baby. So I can literally have a baby in anywhere from 5-10 weeks! Which is exciting and a relief! I'm so excited to be able to "see" the end of this pregnancy near.

I'm grateful that God has blessed me with the chance to be pregnant and have a child of my own, but I sure haven't enjoyed being pregnant like a lot of ladies have. I've been ready to have this baby pretty much from day 1.

I'm very excited to start the next chapter of motherhood. I can't wait to get his "routine" down and dress him in all the cute little baby clothes. I can't wait to go shopping with him and show him off... hopefully people won't be to touchy. Germs yuck! I can't wait to rock him to sleep, see him smile, hear him laugh. I can't wait to watch him grow, which is something I don't hear many people say. But I realize that I am blessed with around 18 years to teach him as much as I can about God, life, etc. and then it will be up to him to live his life. I can't wait to see who he has his first crush on. I want him to grow and mature so that when the time comes I'll know he's ready.. so begin the growing up because I can't wait to see what God has in store. I'm sure I'll be sad when he can't fit into his NB clothes, when he graduates preschool, when he graduates middle school, first date, first girlfriend, graduates high school, etc., but I take comfort in knowing that, that's the way it's supposed to be.

My husband is excited as well. I know he's ready for me to not be pregnant anymore so I won't be so sore and complaining about being sore, etc. But he also can't wait to meet Seth and just be a dad. I know he'll make a great dad, he loves kids and kids love him. I also know he'll be a loving father. And by that I mean he won't be afraid to discipline him when it's necessary, even if it hurts him to do it (Like God does with his children). There are to many guys becoming fathers that don't know how to be a father, they want to be the fun guy that has no real attachments and doesn't have to enforce the rules, but that's just not the way it works. I'm thankful to be married to such a wonderful man!

Not to much longer!

32 Weeks

A little less than 2 months left to go! It's so close!

This week:
-I've experienced more hip pain
-My heartburn hasn't been to bad
-My backpain is about the same, which is well, painful.
-My swelling is the same (bad when hot out)
-Seth's kicks/movement is happening less since he has less room, but he's got some power in his movement!


At my Dr. Appointment:
They took my blood pressure, which was a little low, but nothing to be concerned about
Seth's heart rate was in the 130's
Dr. told me she thinks that Seth was actually in birthing position (We'll make sure he is around 36 weeks)

The nursery would have been finished, paint wise, but Walmart didn't have enough of one of the mixing colors and that color is on back order so God only knows when they'll get it in. Luckily all that is left is the second coat on 2 small walls. Then I can finally get things set up! At least I know where I want almost everything to be so the actual set up shouldn't be that difficult plus he won't be sleeping in the nursery for a couple months after birth at least so we've got time.


I've been trying to get my hospital bag packed. The diaper bag is basically set. I've washed most of Seth's clothes (the ones that we currently have. I'm sure there will be plenty more from the Baby Shower.) and put them in the dresser. Hubby still needs to get the carseat base in the vehicle. Most everything else that needs to be done can be done before or after Seth arrives.



Baby Center says:

How your baby's growing:

By now, your baby weighs 3.75 pounds (pick up a large jicama) and is about 16.7 inches long, taking up a lot of space in your uterus. You're gaining about a pound a week and roughly half of that goes right to your baby. In fact, she'll gain a third to half of her birth weight during the next 7 weeks as she fattens up for survival outside the womb. She now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair (or at least respectable peach fuzz). Her skin is becoming soft and smooth as she plumps up in preparation for birth.

Sorting out a misunderstanding...

I've been informed that there's been a misunderstanding (I don't know by who) But to clear things up...
Family and close friends are welcome to be at the hospital while I'm in labor, while delivering, and of course after to see Seth and I.

As for my comment about not wanting people over at the house for 2 weeks I don't mean to offend anyone I just want that time to relax, heal, and attempt to form some sort of routine without any "distractions"
If you'd like to come over feel free to call us and we will tell you if that is ok or not.

Stroller

So I forgot to blog about getting a stroller..How dare I! We now have a Stroller. It is a new Eddie Bauer Stroller/carseat! I love it! It rolls so smoothly! And the price (compared to other Stroller/carseats from other stores) was good.
We found this beauty while picking out our actual carseat, which is a gift to us and the baby, at Once Upon A Child.
I love that store! Gently used/new things that are in style (not meaning I like everything they carry, but I don't have to worry about finding stuff from when I was a baby LOL) And for the most part everything is priced very cheap. We've bought tons of baby clothes from there so we already have a great start on clothes for Seth. I even bought a couple of maternity shirts from there.
Anyways our Stroller! I love it!

The Mighty Have Fallen

I hate it when someone I know who, in my eyes, is a strong person falls. And by falls I mean falls into temptation. I'm not trying to say that the mighty never fall, but it's such a big disappointment when they do.

Someone I know who was a leader fell, he was a man that I looked up too and when he fell it really hurt. It hurt me and it hurt a lot of other people.

Someone else that I'm close to fell and I didn't think it was possible for this person to fall, at least not in the way that they fell. I realize that people fall in "small" ways every day. But this fall was bigger than a little white lie or calling someone something you shouldn't.

I know all sins are equal in the eyes of God, but to us mere humans there are some things much worse than others, some things more personal than others. We see murder, rape, cheating on someone, porn, big lies, etc. as the bigger sins and we see little white lies, cheating on a test, calling someone a name, etc. as the smaller lies. But to God it's all the same.

I guess I just don't know how to take being let down by people who are, in my eyes, mighty people. How to deal with the hurt, how to help the mighty back to their feet, etc.    

31 Weeks

As of today I'm 31 weeks pregnant! If I was to tell you that I'm not slightly scared in the least little bit I would be lying. So many women are going into early labor and having their babies at 34 weeks (or sooner). Now I don't think that will happen to me, but that's still a little disturbing. If I do well, I'll just be trusting God for a healthy baby. After all that's all I would be able to do. But anyways I'm basically more scared of labor. Scared I won't know I'm in labor or scared that it will be way to painful right from the beginning.

My mom did tell me that it's nothing like the movies where they suddenly grab their stomach and are in intense pain. So that helped some. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (OOOOOOOO...continue with this forever) glad that I have such a great mom who I can go to with my worries about pregnancy and everything else! I couldn't imagine being pregnant or having a baby and not having her around to lean on for help. I'm not saying that I don't have any other people in my life I can go to, but I mean really if you can go to your own mom why go to someone else? Lol.

-Seth has been kicking less, now it's just mainly movement, stretching, etc.
-Heartburn came back last week, it was brutal! But luckily I've not had to deal with that for the past couple of days. Thank you, God!
-I haven't been swelling a lot
- I have been getting little cramps. I was unsure what they were and so I asked my mom who told me that it's just the things in my body stretching out preparing for birth. How exciting *I'm almost there, I'm almost there...* LOL
-My legs have been attempting to cramp up on me, but luckily haven't. Thank God again! They typically try to cramp up at night when I've randomly woken up.
-Headaches. Yep, I've got them, but that's nothing abnormal for me.


The nursery is almost completely painted. All mom has to do is roll a couple spots. I call them spots because she's trimmed already and the walls left really aren't that big so it's, in my eyes, just a spot. Lol.

I can't wait to get things set up where they're going to be! I'll love just having the nursery done and ready for when I need it.
I still need quite a few things for the nursery and hopefully people will pay attention to the registry instead of just going out and buying clothes. Because I already have some clothes. Yes, I could use some more, which have been added to the registry also. I'm also very picky about colors and styles of clothes so I'm hoping people will notice that and not buy the icky little things that I can't stand.
But anyways most of the stuff I need right now is the stuff for the nursery... and a couple of bigger things which I would only ever ask a family member to buy. So if you see a bigger item on the registry and think how rude.. it's only there for my relatives! Lol.

63 days left until my due date. And I'm hoping to have Seth early.. like 2 weeks early! Lol. But we'll see.



Baby Center says:

How your baby's growing:

This week, your baby measures over 16 inches long. He weighs about 3.3 pounds (try carrying four navel oranges) and is heading into a growth spurt. He can turn his head from side to side, and his arms, legs, and body are beginning to plump out as needed fat accumulates underneath his skin. He's probably moving a lot, too, so you may have trouble sleeping because your baby's kicks and somersaults keep you up. Take comfort: All this moving is a sign that your baby is active and healthy.

A Lesson In A Situation

I recently posted something on Facebook and it was about a certain thing that I believe in and stand for. Well, instead of just posting it I commented on this shared post. My opinion came off very harsh and I received some words for it.
This made me remember that every situation in life can be a learning experience if you'll only take the time to find the lesson in each situation.
My lesson: I realized that I would have reworded it. And I even thought about rewording it, but then I remembered that I can't take back what I've said and no matter if I change it or not people have already seen it. I ended up leaving it how it was first posted and hopefully it will be a reminder to me in the future to carefully and considerately stand for my beliefs. Yes, I may be passionate about something, but I should still attempt to word it with as much kindness as I can. I don't want to offend anyone, but I do want them to know what I stand for.  


I hope that my mistake and my realization can cause someone else to learn from their mistakes and to hopefully really think before they post or say something, carefully considering if they're saying it the best way possible, but while still getting there thought (opinion) heard.

Now I'm exhausted and it's late so I'm going to sleep! Hope you all have a fabulous night, filled with lots of good rest! God Bless!

30 Weeks

I can explain this week in one word: Exhausted (-ing)

I literally woke up on Saturday, which was the first day of week 30, exhausted! I'd had plenty hours of sleep, but felt like I could have easily slept the rest of the day away. And it's been this way since.

With only 10 weeks left I can understand why I'm so tired. Plus being slightly anemic doesn't help anything. I'm figuring I'll be exhausted like this the rest of the pregnancy. As long as I get Seth's clothes all washed and put away, my hospital bag packed, his diaper bag packed, etc. then I'll be fine with being exhausted.

My mom has half of the nursery painted and should be finishing the rest of it this week, if all goes as planned. Then I can get everything set up! Yay!!
 Hopefully I will have everything I need for the nursery by the time the Baby Shower is over with! So it can all be set up before he's born.. not that he'll be using any of it at first, it would just be one less thing to worry about later. If I don't have everything I won't freak out I'll have months before he'll need most of it.

Kicking is up, heartburn is down, swelling is about the same. His kicks are of course harder and therefore more painful, he still loves my ribs, but even with that love of my ribs I've been feeling much more movement toward the middle of my belly than I was before.

As I've said before my doctor appointments are every 2 weeks for now. Last doctor's appointment I found out that I am slightly anemic, but not enough that she needs to treat it. I'm done with blood work! YAY! At 36 weeks she'll do a couple of tests (A swab and cervix check. Fun, fun) And I believe that's around the time when I'll start going every week for my appointments.

I'm super excited and super ready to have this baby, but even though I would love to get L&D over with already I want him to "bake" until at least 37 1/2 weeks! I want a full term baby! No tubes and such.. I don't think I could handle that.

Whelp, around 10 weeks left to go! Hopefully it'll go by quickly!



What Baby Center has to say:

How your baby's growing:

Your baby's about 15.7 inches long now, and she weighs almost 3 pounds (like a head of cabbage). A pint and a half of amniotic fluid surrounds her, but that volume will decrease as she gets bigger and takes up more room in your uterus. Her eyesight continues to develop, though it's not very keen; even after she's born, she'll keep her eyes closed for a good part of the day. When she does open them, she'll respond to changes in light but will have 20/400 vision — which means she can only make out objects a few inches from her face. (Normal adult vision is 20/20.)

How your life's changing:

You may be feeling a little tired these days, especially if you're having trouble sleeping. You might also feel clumsier than normal, which is perfectly understandable. Not only are you heavier, but the concentration of weight in your pregnant belly causes a shift in your center of gravity. Plus, thanks to hormonal changes, your ligaments are more lax, so your joints are looser, which may also contribute to your balance being a bit off. Also, this relaxation of your ligaments can actually cause your feet to spread permanently, so you may have to invest in some new shoes in a bigger size. Remember those mood swings you had earlier in pregnancy? The combination of uncomfortable symptoms and hormonal changes can result in a return of those emotional ups and downs. It's normal to worry about what your labor will be like or whether you'll be a good parent. But if you can't shake the blues or feel increasingly irritable or agitated, talk to your doctor or midwife. You may be among the 1 in 10 expectant women who battle depression during pregnancy. Also let your caregiver know if you're frequently nervous or anxious.

29 Weeks

11 weeks left until my due date and I cannot wait! I'm SOOO close to becoming just me again!.. Me with a newborn baby :) No more sharing my ribs, getting kicked from the inside, not being able to sleep on my back (at least not for a long period of time), no more super swelling (at least not due to pregnancy), I'll be able to bend down with more ease, etc.
Anytime I start to take feeling normal for granted I hope I can remind myself of how miserable I was being pregnant!
I have a doctor's appointment on Wednesday. Which is going to make my Wednesday a little busy, but that's ok. I never received a call from the Dr. so I passed my 1 hour test! I can't wait to hear what all the Dr. has to say. This will be my first every 2 week visit so I'm sure she'll start giving me more info on what I should do in case of such and such. And hubby will be able to go with me since he's on his 2 week shutdown  :)
I've been swelling up quite a bit recently, which I'm sure is mainly to do with this horribly hot weather we've been having. Heartburn hasn't been showing up much. Kicks are getting harder, movement is feeling weirder and weirder (he's stronger so it's stretching me out further when he moves against my stomach), harder to breathe at times, belly feels heavy (go figure), etc. Oh, and the back pain is horrible!
I'm so happy about something though! I've had quite a few people that have told me that for being pregnant and being so far along I look great :D That makes my day! I was so afraid I would get all puffy and gross looking, but for the most part I've lost weight and typically only look swollen because I'm swollen from heat..my nose may be a little bigger, but so far it's not bad at all! I'm so thankful that I'm taking pregnancy so well!
I'm still hoping to go into labor either early (2 weeks early) or right on time or of course somewhere between the two. I don't want to go late I'd like to be "normal" again soon.

I think our cats know that things are about to change... I don't think that they know why or what though. One of our cats, Scooter, who is most definitely my husband's cat has been following me around and laying with me, which is VERY different from his normal behavior so I think at least he feels the change coming.

My Dr. thinks that, given the growth rate Seth is on now, that he'll be around 7 or 8 lbs so no huge baby for me. Thank God! I'm hoping for 7 lbs, not necessarily 7 on the dot just in the 7's.

And just in case you're wondering there have been no signs of contractions. Thank God! If I have contractions any time before 37 weeks I'm sure I'll freak out. I want this baby to be full term when it comes out and that starts at 37 weeks. So as long as he bakes until then I'll be happy.

Baby Center says:

How your baby's growing:

Your baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel. His muscles and lungs are continuing to mature, and his head is growing bigger to make room for his developing brain. To meet his increasing nutritional demands, you'll need plenty of protein, vitamins C, folic acid, and iron. And because his bones are soaking up lots of calcium, be sure to drink your milk (or find another good source of calcium, such as cheese, yogurt, or enriched orange juice). This trimester, about 250 milligrams of calcium are deposited in your baby's hardening skeleton each day.

How your life's changing:

Your baby's very active now. Your healthcare provider may ask you to spend some time each day counting kicks and will give you specific instructions on how to do this. Let your provider know if you ever notice that your baby is becoming less active. You may need anonstress test or biophysical profile to check on your baby's condition.

Goodwill I Miss You!

I cannot wait to have my LO and start clothes shopping again! We went to Goodwill today (for the 50% off) .. actually we went to 3 Goodwill's and since I'm still pregnant and have no clue what size I'll be wearing after pregnancy so I didn't want to buy any clothes. Talk about feeling like you're missing a great deal!
11 more weeks or so and I'll be able to go shopping again! (For baby and I) I CANNOT WAIT! I'll be able to take my LO into the store with me :)
Yes, I know having a baby and going to the store won't always be easy, but I can't wait. I'm sure I'll get sick of it soon though because of dealing with strollers, carseats, etc., but it'll be great at first :P

Events

I know that some events are necessary. BUT there are WAY to many events! Holidays, birthdays, baby showers, bridal showers, going away, welcome back, etc. There's just to much!
I have no problem spending my birthday at home or going out to eat with my husband (of course I like to see my mom and Mike on my birthday, but honestly that's all I need)
The only reason I'm having a Baby Shower is for my baby.
The only reason I had a Bridal Shower is because well, to be perfectly honest we needed things.
Holidays all feel like just an ordinary day to me so I would prefer to just stay at home or maybe go out to eat then go back home.

You getting the picture? I like to stay home. I'm a homebody. It's really nothing personal. I have very few people that I absolutely NEED to see, not that I don't like anyone outside of that list I just don't feel the need to see them all the time (or hardly at all) Except maybe friends.. friends I like to go hang out with.

My way of looking at it is I got married so I could have my own little family, which currently consists of Hubby and myself.  And soon (11 weeks give or take) a newborn baby!
This may sound wrong, but some of us get married well, one because we are in love and two to escape certain things, such as events, but all getting married has done (in the case of events) is doubled the events that I so desperately wanted to get away from. I see no need to see family every holiday, birthday, etc. That doesn't mean I don't love my family, I just don't see the point in it.
Plus when your family is as big as mine it's a little much to take. I go to 2 dinners just for my side of the family so I can see all of my family and then have to go to my husband's side of the family. I'm glad my dad and Mari weren't real big on throwing things and having everyone over before they moved because 3 Christmas' and 3 Thanksgivings is already more than I can take! To many kids running around, it's big enough with just the adults. I don't like crowds or crowded places and going to holiday dinner is like going to Walmart when the parking lot is full.. some of the not so well behaved kids screaming, crying, telling on each other, bullying each other, etc. The more well behaved ones aren't bad you know the ones where you tell them to stop and they listen, you say calm down and they do, etc. Of the well behaved kids in the family you typically don't even have to tell them to stop doing anything because they're just that great. It's all in the parenting (period).

I'm hoping that this doesn't come across like I'm some witch (with a B lol), but just that I'm telling the truth about how I feel. If being pregnant has done anything it has made me very opinionated and not all that scared to say how I feel about something. Now I may not always say how I feel just to keep the peace between me and certain family members, but trust me it hasn't been easy.

Felt the need to kind of vent on the subject of events and now I have. Hope I haven't offended anyone, but if I have well this is just the way I feel and I'm not going to be sorry about how I feel. But I am sorry if you take offense to how I feel and to be perfectly honest I guess you'll just have to get over it :P

It's Coming Up Quick...

I realized early this morning when I couldn't sleep that there are 11 more weeks or 79 days (give or take) until I meet Seth. It definitely made me nervous to think that it's so close and it feels like there's still SO much that needs to be done.
Some of the stuff that needs to be done doesn't need to be done until after he gets here in all reality, but it would be so nice for it to just be done already, like the nursery. Yep, still not done, but Seth will be in the bassinet in our room for at least a few months so the nursery doesn't need to be done yet.
Of course we still have to do the Baby Shower. It'll be nice to have a bunch more baby stuff in the nursery.. even if the nursery isn't finished. Lol. Most of the big stuff is already taken care of, but to have more clothes, toys, etc.
I feel like there's a bunch more stuff that needs to be bought. For me, for the nursery, just general baby needs, etc. I'm sure all FTM's (First Time Moms) feel this way. I'm sure I'll be freaking out when I have him thinking that I've forgotten something, which given my record I may forget something LOL Good thing Walmart is open 24/7! And that my hubby will be off work for 2 weeks to help me while I heal and hopefully catch up on some sleep and of course get somewhat used to our new family :)
After that 2 weeks we MAY invite people over, but I'm pretty sure I won't want anyone over during that 2 weeks.
Baby and I probably won't leave the house for at least a week, as Dr.'s suggest. That way I can be somewhat rested up and somewhat used to a new schedule.

How It's Going..

I'm having a harder and harder time getting up and doing things.
My upper back pain is horrible, my stomach feels heavy, Seth seems to be getting hiccups a lot.. or at least I think it's hiccups I'm experiencing. They aren't painful they're just annoying... like quick kicks.. not necessarily rhythmic.. well, sometimes they are, but not always.
It's hard to sit up (like sitting in a chair/sectional or trying to sit up from a laying position) because Seth has decided to be "glued" to my ribs.
My eyes have occasionally been getting super dry and they burn like someone put hot sauce in them, which the Dr said to use some eye drops.. kinda knew that one myself so that wasn't much help. Lol.
There are of course some other changes, but that would be T.M.I. and WAY to inappropriate for me to post about. Lol. All the women who have been pregnant I'm sure know what kinds of things I'm talking about.
It's been so hot and I don't take heat well anyways, add baby weight and I'm just miserable and covered in sweat!
All of these things have made doing my jobs harder. I cannot wait to get a break from my jobs for a while and go back to them when I feel more myself.

Then on top of pregnancy issues my hubby's car has been giving us some issues. Works fine sometimes and other times we have to play mechanics to get it to start. The A.C. doesn't work nor can you get cold air from the fan so driving his car to and from work is miserable. I'm surprised I don't look like I've peed myself once I get to work from all the sweat.

Speaking of peeing I've basically had the constant feeling of needing to pee for about a week. Lol. Probably T.M.I. sorry.

I've become fascinated with Pretty Little Liars. I really want to know who A is, who killed Alison, etc. This is bugging me! I have to watch the episodes as fast as I can, which is stupid since I know I probably won't be finding out anytime soon. After all once we know who A is all that's left is to take A down and then there'd be no more Pretty Little Liars.

Ok, well I need to get ready to go to work. Hope you're all having a great day.