He's 2!!!

My son is 2! Honestly I wondered if he'd make it to 2! I was never one to like kids and thought I'd probably turn out to be one of those women who accidentally shook their child out of frustration and cause it's death, but I didn't (Thank God!) I know that makes me sound awful but honestly there's only so much a person can take and that becomes way more obvious once you have a kid. If you haven't been there yet, just wait you'll see what I mean. Baby crying, your exhausted, can't calm the baby, can't even figure out what's wrong, ... It's a blast. 

Anyways he's 2, we made it! And before I know it he'll be in school :/ that just doesn't seem right!  But first let's get past potty training! 

Focus, Focus

I like many have a hard time staying focused. Doesn't matter what it is. Exercise, church, dieting, prayer, schoolwork,  etc. Even with friends. 

I want to diet. Why? because I want to lose weight. But I, like everyone else, get so focused on the what I want now... For me the Hunan Chicken & Pork Fried Rice or maybe that Big Mac w/ a LG fry. So what happens? Open mouth insert.. Food, bad food. 

I want to go to church. Why? To draw closer to God. But I, like everyone else, have 50 billion things that are non church related running through my head. Sometimes it's "I'm hungry. What to eat" or maybe it's "Wow, I'm in a room full of people, but I feel so alone" So what happens? I spend the service thinking about the 50 billion things and not getting what I came for. 

Exercise, prayer, schoolwork (when I had it), friendships, etc. it all works the same way. So I lose focus of the goal, of the plan, of the reason and I end up stuck right where I am, like so many others. We are alone, fat, sad, depressed, in a bad place, longing for more, or whatever the thing may be.

 Why must it be so hard to keep focus? How can we keep focus? Esp those of us a bit more... Shall we be honest? Lazy people.

 I'm not into waiting, planning things out, see how it goes, see what happens type of person. 

Did I post this to get answers? No. Did I post it to give answers? No. Did I post it for sympathy? Haha no, no, no! I simply posted it to say you aren't alone. 

Weary Breaders You're Not Alone

So like me I'm sure plenty of people are behind on their bread (bible reading) 

Currently I'm on May 19th. I've taken every spare minute that I get, well the ones I could read and know I'm not going to fall asleep lol, and I've read my bread. I'd say on average I read 2 days bread every day. Obviously some days are better than others. 

This is the second year that I've really tried reading the bible all the way through. Last year I gave up in sometime probably around May when I was still reading for back in February or March. This year I've decided I'm going to read it all the way through. I may not have it done at the end of the year like everyone else but I will officially read my bible all the way through this time. 

I have to admit it isn't my favorite read. I'd take a good mystery book or some teen romance novel (like twilight) personally. The Bible is kind of hard to focus on; weird words, words with meanings different than today's meanings, 50 billion names you can't pronounce, keeping up with which of those 50 billion names is affiliated with the others, places you can't pronounce, the weird bloody sacrifices, the "riddles", etc. In my book reading the Bible is definitely a sacrifice. I know people say it has mystery, romance, and all other book forms in it, but it's just hard to see that through all the, well don't take this wrong but, stuff. It's important stuff, but it's stuff. 

Anyways point being if you're behind, never read you Bible all the way through, have a hard time reading your Bible, etc. you aren't alone. 

Read it when you can, for as long as you can, eventually we'll have read it at least once all the way through before our lives end! I'm sure like most things it gets more interesting the more times you read it, you catch things you didn't see before, or understand something better than you did before,.... We'll get there! Lol 

New Addition!

No we aren't building on to our house!

And no I'm not pregnant! 

We got a new fur baby! 

This is Charlie! He's a sweetie! Loves to lay with us, isn't afraid of Seth, likes to play and give love bites, purrs when you enter the room, he's great! 

He's a little sore right now because he got fixed and fully declawed, but he's doing well and hopefully he'll be all healed up soon! 

Charlie is 6 months, so he's still technically a kitten :) I'm so glad we got him, he seems to be a great fit for, at least our human, family. 

What cat?! There's no cat here! lol 

I'm sure they'll all learn to get along, given enough time. Charlie's fine with them, they on the other hand are not so sure about this addition to the family.

Isn't he a cutie?! 

Christmas Shopping Already!?!?!

      I can't believe it's August already! It feels like the year just started and now it's  already almost over!

      I've started looking for Christmas gifts because I know it will be here before I know it and I won't be ready.. this year I'd really love to be ready!! It's so hard to sop for this many people 15 nephews and nieces, parents, spouse, in-laws, our son, and a few close friends! Thank the Lord we as a family chose that it was best if the siblings didn't buy for each other! Around Christmas time and for a while after we are broke! I bet you all know how that feels too, eh? Hopefully Seth will only have 1 or 2 kids, keep it easy on our checkbook LOL

     I'm not the greatest at buying gifts so hopefully everyone will like their gifts! Sad enough I can say, for the most part, that my husband is better at giving gifts than I am. Isn't that a little backwards?

30 DPC: Day 2

Today's challenge photo is my hands. I could have done a boring picture of my hands flat, but the whole purpose is to show your creativity, right?

If you're like me and thinking wow these pics sound lame so far, yes, I agree, but they will get better I promise. 

30 Day Photo Challenge: Day 1

I decided to start this July 1st, but I didn't get it posted. Yesterday's was a picture of my handwriting 

There's my handwriting. It's actually the 30 D.P.C. (Day Photo Challenge) list. 

I've never been one to take these 30 day challenges but I figure this is pretty easy and I love taking pictures. I hope you enjoy the photos I take :) 

I'm so lonely, I'm Mrs. Lonely...

Today... Well there's not much good I can say about today besides I was still alive. 

To say I felt lonely today would be an understatement.... I have a friend I could have talked to, but I know part of life is learning to be alone so as much as I wanted to contact my friend to talk I decided to just accept that I was lonely and that's apart of life. Plus I talk to this friend quite a bit and don't want them to get sick of me LOL

So today I dealt with being lonely even while not being alone. It's strange that you can feel more alone with someone with you than when you're quite literally alone. 

Personalized Xbox 360 Controller

Anyone that knows me well knows that I love to play video games, esp. on the xbox. I have 2 controllers and we just got the new stuff to personalize one of them! Now it's not how I plan it to be forever, but I still think it looks pretty cool. 

I can't wait to see it when we get everything done to it! 

Seth's new word

Along with the many words Seth says he's now added Firetruck! 

For a "reward" for saying Firetruck we bought him just that, a Firetruck. 

It lights up and makes noises. He loves it! 

That is all :) 

Manicure

Ok first off why do they call it a MANicure when women are the main ones to get them? Lol. 

Anyways I got my nails done :)

 I get the acrylic nails because the French tip never stays on my nails for very long.

 

I love how they look! I got them done in my own town at a VIP Nails, they did a great job and it was priced well! The people were very nice :) 

This time I hope to keep them for a while!  Ah beautiful! :D

All That And A Bag Of Chips

         I don't know about the rest if you, but I'm tired of seeig men (and women, but since I am a woman I'll be talking about men) who think they're all that and a bag of chips.

          If you're one of those men please go shop the "men's department" and take a good look around because I know I can find at least 20 men that are better looking than you, probably 50-100 depending on how average you are.. Let's face it most of you are just average. 

         And for those of you who may very well be all that and a bag of chips, that doesn't mean you have to act like it. 

Rant over. 

Weight Loss….

        Can we say UGH!? Over the past 5 years I’ve gained “a lot” (It’s a lot for my body) of weight, an extra 40-45 lbs. to be exact. It’s safe to say I don’t feel healthy at 160 lbs. So I’ve started trying to lose weight.

 

          I’ve started exercising. Sit ups, push ups, walking more, etc. The above mentioned are the most common, but when I get a chance I add in stretching and jumping jacks. I know it doesn’t sound like much, but I’ve been doing the sit ups and push ups every day for a month and I feel stronger.

        I still haven’t noticed much change in my weight, but it takes time to lose weight. And it doesn’t help that since I’ve started exercising I’ve been constantly hungry and eating a lot. I’m hoping that “side effect” will go away soon.

 

        The slight changes I’ve seen in weight is that I’ll lose a couple lbs., but then I gain them right back within a day or two. Sometimes I gain back more than I lost                       :’(                It’s so frustrating! Lol.

 

      I’ll try to keep you posted on my weight loss efforts.

It's, almost, my birthday!

     I cannot believe that I'm going to be 24! That's 6 years from 30!

     Unlike a lot if people I will be thrilled to turn 30. There's WAY to many people not making it to 30 so I will gladly accept each year The Lord chooses to bless me with!

     My main wants are for stuff for my home. I got my Blue Owl from Earthbound. And a new picture for the house. I don't think they were bought for my birthday though. What I would really love to get is my bookcases that I'm wanting so I can get my "built in" wall look. Although in going to need to paint that wall before putting those up. So I guess I want my 2 bookcases and my gallon of paint. Lol. 

      Now I will still need another cubby shelf thing to complete my "built in" look, plus I'll need Dish to come and change our satellite from one wall to the other... On the complete opposite side of the room. Leave it to me to arrange the furniture in a way where they'd have to come do this. LOL. 

    I've also thought up some new ideas for the side of the room that the tv is currently on. Oh I love my ideas! <3 Now if only I could make them happen :(  I just keep telling myself one step at a time! It WILL happen! 

Happy, almost, birthday to me! 

I hope you're all having a great day! Celebrate my birthday! It's the 10th! Celebrate it with or without me because my birthday is awesome! :P LOL

Plans Done!

I have some awesome plans for my house! The plans are for the living room and the dining room. They consist of a new sofa, bookshelves, rearranging, wainscot, changing out some fabric, painting the walls, throw pillows, painting some existing furniture, some cute decor, owls, tealish/aqua color, and some paintings! Oh and the hardest part... Me making a seat!! I've never made anything like this and I cannot wait to try. 

For now I'm stuck. To many bills and not enough money for extra things like home improvements. But the designs are wrote down, fabrics picked out, colors picked out, just need to buy everything! 

I should start a fund! 

  Christine's Home Improvement Fund! 

Think anyone would donate? Yeah, me neither. Everyone is pretty broke :/

Guess while I wait I can start on kitchen plans...

Well I can't wait to do some before pictures and, of course, after pictures! 

Have a great night! 

Boys! No wonder women live longer...

Today has been one of THOSE days. 

Seth has fell and hurt himself so much today. Most days I can tell him to sit down and he will, but not today. 

This last one was bad... Well I mean it sounded and looked bad. He's fine, but he's tired and he's no longer allowed to play tonight. He has to go to bed and stay safe!

 This kid is going to give me another two or three grey hairs before I'm even 25. Speaking of which my 24th birthday is just around the corner! Seems so unreal. I still think I'm 19 and here I am 6 years from 30! Lol. I'm not going to freak out about turning 30, I'll be thankful that I got to reach that age, to many people don't get too. Anyways, about Seth. 

Some of you may be thinking why isn't he asleep already after all it's 10:30pm. My answer is simple. If he sleeps earlier he wakes up super early. 10:30-11:00 gets me sleeping until only 8:30 or 9:00am. I know to some people that's nothing but to me that's early. I require a lot of sleep to function properly not easy with a kid. 

Ok well I have to go to fight my sleep fighting child! Have a great night! 

Using My Stuck Time

With all this time being stuck inside, I finally decided to do some online searching for home upgrades. I found a few things. Like a sofa, a ceiling fan, and I can't decide between 3 chandeliers I like.   

The sofa: 

I wouldn't have the striped pillows of course, which is fine because I don't really like them, but it does come with the white throw pillows :) I would also throw on some teal patterned pillows to go along with my color theme :) 

The ceiling fan:

I was looking for a white one, but I LOVE the look of this one. Plus I could always paint the blades white. 

Now for my chandeliers :

It's pretty, but not to much

It's gorgeous in all it's blinginess, but I'm not sure it will go with what I'm going for. 

And last, but most definitely not least....

It has my bling and my white, it's gorgeous and will definitely say this is a dining room. Pretty sure this would be the one I'd choose. 

More Home Decor Wants!!

This  is a great Owl Bank in the beautiful bluish/teal colors that I'm doing in the house. I love it! 

The Owl Bookends would be so great to get my owl theme in on my bookshelf. 

There's a few Owl Mirrors that I'm interested in that could be put throughout the house. 

Beautiful Butterfly! Petrarch color to go with my color theme! In love! 

I love the black candle holder. It adds a bit of bling! 

This picture, to me, says warm and welcoming while adding a bit of color to the wall :) 

I wouldn't say that I LOVE this piece, but I do think it's cute and it has my colors :) 

Teal Based Small Globe. I used to hate globes, but I think it would add a bit of a manly look to my girliness. Obviously to me globes are more of a manly thing. 

Amazingly I found all these items at one store!

 I'm hoping to get some money so I can go in and start buying things to decorate the house more. Oh the money I need to get this place exactly where I want. But thank God I'm closer to getting this place where I want it than I was at our old house! 

Valentine's Day

Happ Valentine's Day! I hope you've all had a great day that you got to share with someone you love. 

I'm mainly doing this post because of an incident I heard of today. 

A 13 yr old boy spent his own money to buy flowers for a girl at school. Well when the girls mom came to pick up her up she made her daughter give the flowers back (rumor has it the girl was bawling, I wasn't there I don't know) she was forced to give the flowers back to the boy in front of half of their class. Which duh would be embarrassing for both the boy and the girl. So there's the incident...

And here's what I want to say... Let me give you some advice. If a boy gives your little girl flowers be flattered that there's someone who likes her. Flowers are not a proposal, he's just a boy with a crush on not just any girl, but your girl. Is it scary to you the parent, yes. No one wants their kids to grow up, especially not when they're getting close to dating ages. But what that boy did was sweet. If you don't want your daughter dating yet let your daughter keep the flowers but talk to the boys parents and just let them know that.  Tell them that the flowers were sweet, your daughter was excited to get them, but the kids can only be friends for right now. Don't embarrass not only someone else's child but your own too! 

This whole thing made me very mad and it wasn't even my son. I would have had a very hard time not punching the woman, my kid or not. Her reaction was inappropriate and unacceptable. Rant over. LOL 

Shimy Shimy Shake

I took Shim to the shelter today. Signed all my rights away, signed that I understand that it's a not a no kill shelter. She's a very beautiful, great personality cat so I'm sure someone will take her quickly. 

I've prayed over it and prayed she'll get a great family that will keep her until she passes or until they do and she'll be an inside cat and healthy with a nice long life. 

I hope that whoever adopts her will post picks on Facebook so I can see her through the shelters page. 

I cried while I was driving away from the shelter because I really do love her and I wish we could have kept her, but there are enough bodies (human and pet) in this house for now. Maybe when Seth is older and can help with chores and such we might have the option of another pet or at least be able to foster animals through the shelter until they get a forever home. 

Miss my Shimy Shimy Shake

No Water!?!?!

So here's my morning...

My house had NO water... Fabulous right? I thought that we had frozen pipes. 

Nope, come to find out a piece of whatever makes the water work was fried. Got that fixed. Still no water. 

Found out they think a part of my well is broke. So Mike (my awesome stepdad) called some people to come look at it/fix it. .... They'll be here tomorrow. 

So for tonight we have no running water in our house. Luckily we bottle up drinking water since well water isn't that tasty. And we'd aleady got water together in case power went out for days due to the bad weather and we needed to be able to flush the toilet. So we should be set until it gets fixed tomorrow, as long as it's a small problem, which I'm praying it's a small problem!  

Hey well issues and all I'd still rather live out here than in the city! Love me some country LOL 

Hope you're all having a great day, you and your running water! Lol. 

Boredom

So my Think Tank had been completely dried up on ideas of things to Blog about.

Life's been pretty boring. 

This winter has been dreadful! 

In case you weren't aware propane is super expensive and super hard to come by since they're having a shortage. Well our heat is through propane and rather than pay the outrageous propane cost we've been using electric heaters, which will sadly be cheaper than propane. Haha, oh my. I'd ask if there's any other ways the world would like to take and rip us off, but I'm sure I'd get an answer that I wouldn't like, like another bill to pay. 

Miles took Seth and I to Lafayette. We had some places we had to go and then we went to the Mall! :) I hadn't been to the Mall in a very long time! And I hadn't been out of the house for a while either. We NEEDED this trip. We got some new things that we needed, luckily the whole mall was having sales! It was such a great day! I wish we could do that more often. Seth did really well just sitting in his stroller looking around at places and people. He got to have Lucas Pizza for the first time, he liked it :) That day was the most active, happy, non-boring day I've had in a while. 

If this winter doesn't end soon I think I may have to move South or get put in an asylum. I'm going to lose it. I hate the cold, I hate being stuck inside, ... Poor Seth I can't imagine being a little kid with a ton of energy and being stuck in the house. 

Whelp back to the boredom! 

Have a great night everyone! 

Depression, stir crazy, and fohawk issues

Since Miles has been on 2nd shift the things with my depression have gotten better... 

Well besides the depression from this stupid, never ending weather! Seriously get warm already!!!!!!!

 I'm going stir crazy. I'm stuck in the house all day besides when I go to work, shop for groceries, or going to my Mom's. But Mom's is only a 1 minute drive so it's not much of an outing. 

I cannot wait to go outside and take walks, just sit outside, grilling, bike rides, taking pics of the lovely outdoors, etc. sad to say I would even like to now at this point! 

I know poor Seth is not happy being inside all the time, but I'm not going to let him go outside and get sick or worse. It's been way to cold for a toddler to be outside. Lucky for him he has a lot of family that loves him and has gotten him lots if toys. There's no shortage I things for him to play with. 

Speaking of Seth he'll be getting his first haircut here soon! His hair is getting far to long. We can't even get his fohawk to stick up right because the length of his hair! 

I hope you all have a great night!   

Please Let Me Win!

Once again I've entered myself into a contest to win a free package. How many of you gave done this? Do you sit back like me and think, "yeah, I'm not going to win. I never win."? But then you still fill it out. 

I've won something once. I'd guessed the closest about how many jelly beans or something were in a bowl at a baby shower :) I was delighted when I found out that for once I won! 

I'm really hoping to win this package. Money is involved and since we've had Seth there's just no such thing as enough money! It's not that we're out wasting our money we just have a ton of bills and debts. We've gotten rid of a lot of things that weren't necessary to try to free up some money, but somedays it feels like that didn't help at all. 

Now I know that God will supply all my needs and that one day these debts will be paid off, I'm just praying that it's sooner rather than later. 

In case you're curious we gave up: 

Satellite

Internet/wifi

Netflix

I went to a cheaper cell plan

Stopped driving my Explorer (doesn't work anyways)

Canceled the insurance on my explorer

Go out to eat less

Go out/drive less (in other words we're almost always home)

I even eat less most days (I'm not starving by any means just eating less than normal which is actually healthier) 

Adjusted our house temperature to a less comfortable setting (by a couple of degrees nothing huge, have to keep our son warm) 

Etc. 

Also we're in WIC to help get food for Seth.   

So we're trying. It's just we don't make enough to pay all the bills (at least not the amount they want.) I know everyone goes through this at sometime, which is a reason why I don't mind just being honest about what we're going through.  

Maybe our list of things we got rid of will help someone else find ways to cut money and pay off more debt. Hope it did! 

 

 

2nd Shift

Miles is working second shift now and it is amazing! I love finally having him home at night. He gets up in the morning with Seth and I, it feels more like a family :) 

I'm so thankful that God has blessed us so much! 

Family First

Are you aware that adults are just bigger, taller kids? We all technically know that, but are you completely aware of it? All we want is your time, your attention, and your love. 

To many people are putting things above what's really important, like family time. Family time is set aside and things like work, gyms, games, and even cleaning have been put as the top priorities. Now there's nothing wrong with any of those things, but when you barely get family time and you suddenly have the chance for it and those things are put first it's not right. 

Families that don't spend time together fall apart. It's that simple. So, so what you've got some dirty dishes, unfolded laundry, and signs that you live in your house! At the end of your life the only thing you'll remember is the shared and treasured moments with the ones you love most. 

Now I'm not saying to have a filthy house with moldy dishes, clothes all over the rooms, toys out from here to there, and only a path to walk in, please do clean your home, but remember that a completely clean, never dirty house is an impossible thing to accomplish. So stop driving yourself crazy over the impossible!  No ones house always looks like a magazine cover not even the house that's previewed on it! 

Remember your family they're important! 

Mental Update

Hi there, everyone! It's been awhile I know. 

Everything has been busy and to be perfectly honest, even on the antidepressant I feel the old, depressed me coming out again. I'm not sure if it's just the business of the Holidays and bills after spending money on gifts, mixed with about 50 other things or if maybe i just need a higher dose. 

Miles is going to 2nd shift!! :) so I'm going to wait and see if this upcoming change helps my mood at all.

 If after maybe a month of his new schedule I don't feel better then I'll get ahold of my doctor and see what he wants to do. 

That's, I guess, the best update I can give you on my mental state. 

I hope you're all having a great start to your new year! 

Ode To My Postpartum Body- by We Seek Joy

http://weseekjoy.blogspot.com/2013/12/babies-ruin-bodies.html?m=1

Click on the link above to read another bloggers perfect blog on the Ode To My Postpartum Body. Every Mother I know will probably agree with this. 

   I've looked at all the marks and fat left on my body from having my son and I've felt like everyone else that it was ugly and gross, but We Seek Joy helped me to look at it differently. So I hear by rename my stretch marks "love marks" 

   Please take a few minutes to head over to her blog and read what she's said. Enjoy! 

New Year 2014

I hope you all had an awesome New Years. I wish I could say I did, but unfortunately I've been sick and exhausted. I slept through the celebration time and woke up feeling worse than I did the day before :(

    I'm so thankful for a New Year, but I'm also thankful that God doesn't just grant us new mercies on New Year, he gives us a new slate every day. 

    I know a lot of people set New Years resolutions, but I typically don't do that. One of my friends on Facebook said it best when she said "I don't plan on making a huge list of the things that I plan to change this new year. I'm going to continue to do me and maybe fix a few things on the way. The new year shouldn't be the only incentive for people to change." Most of the time we don't stick to our resolutions anyways and new year shouldn't be the only incentive to make a better you. When you notice something that needs fixed fix it don't wait until new year because you won't do it then either. 

     If I was to set a list of resolutions I'm sure I would bore you (or possibly entertain you?!) for hours with page after page of the flaws that I need to fix, but there's no point because I probably won't get then all fixed by the end of this year not without an army of angels and a whole lot of God ( for the emptional and spiritual flaws). I have some hurts that I can't seem to get past no matter how hard I try, it's not one or 2 little things it's multiple things from probably just about every year of my life so it's going to take God. I'll also need an army, drill sergeant, and more God for the physical flaws. "Feel the burn!" Lol. 

     Which brings me to my next amazing post! I hope you all read it and love it just as much as I do! It's another bloggers post and I think it's perfect. Enjoy! 

Christmas was awesome

I hope you all had a Merry Christmas! I had one of the best Christmases I've had with my family and with my in-laws that I've ever had (2 seperate events) it wasn't that we got all the presents we wanted or that our food was 5 star restaurant worthy, but it was about having fun together with family. It didn't matter if we were talking or whatever else we were together and everything just clicked! I hope all the Christmases will be like this one, but I know that's probably asking to much. Even if next Christmas is awful I'm thankful for the ones I had this (well now last) year!