Monday, November 29, 2010


*For all the people who actually get on here and read these: Wow, it's been a while since I've been on here. Sorry for my being away I know how boring it can be waiting for someone to update lol.*

I've recently...well, I guess the word changed could be used here. I've lived most of my life thinking and feeling certain ways about certain things and even though others told me I'd change my mind, but I just assumed that I wouldn't. I don't feel at liberty to say just what things have changed, but I hopefully soon will be able to say what they are. The point is I'm finding myself completely amazed at how things can change in an instant and how each stage or chapter of your life brings you something new. Some of the things you may have wanted and some you may have not, but all it takes is just an instant and suddenly you find yourself in a place you've never known before, a place where you want things you never wanted before or don't want things that you thought you did. A time however short it may be that you for once feel in control of what happens. I don't mean to say that God isn't in control of everything, but for once it isn't in the hands of grandparents, parents, other family members, friends,.. so on. You have your own plans and you can choose to tell others or to not tell them and it's completely up to you (and your spouse, if you have one)
*and here I start going slightly off subject, but hey it's my blog lol ---> It seems that to often in life other people rather they be family, friends, acquaintances, or people you don't even know can somehow take control of your life and they make it seem like you aren't in control. They are always saying do this or that and giving their opinion and pushing you through a door that you more than likely didn't want to go to. Some people can get by without others doing this to them, but some of us can't. Don't get me wrong I'm grateful for help, but there are some things that just shouldn't be up for discussion with the people outside of your home be it family, friends, acquaintances, someone you don't know, or an enemy.
Yes, I know you may be thinking, "Wait, so you're telling me you aren't where you want to be in life? You don't like your home? Or anything else?" No, that's not what I'm saying. I love my home, this is the house that I chose and I love my husband I chose him too. lol. As for where I am in life I'm not satisfied... that has nothing to do with my family or friends. I would like to have a job, but not just ANY job. I want to do something I love! Interior design, fashion, psychology,.. something better than the "everyday" jobs. They all require schooling, I don't understand why. I mean sure psychology I could understand. But interior design or fashion, anyone with a brain and some fashion sense can do that. And I know not everyone acquired fashion sense or good taste. I happen to be related to a lot of people who should really find their inner diva. It's a nightmare it really is!

Well, anyways. Mind and thoughts changed. I'm feeling pretty bored here recently. Blah so anyways That's what I've got to say for now.

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