You're finally here. Please be kind to me and my family
Monday, December 31, 2012
This year has had trials, new adventures, and a lot of learning experiences. There have been things that could make or break a relationship happen, learning experiences in my marriage, learning about myself, being pregnant, becoming a mommy, etc.
2012 was not my favorite year of my life, except for the fact that we had Seth. There have been many things about this year that I wish I wouldn't have had to go through, but each thing was a learning experience so no matter what heartache I went through I guess it was worth it for whatever I was able to take out of it.
Today my family will be spending the day with my Mom and Mike. We'll play games like Phase 10 (or only Phase 10), eat, talk, maybe watch something on TV, and just be together. I'm so glad that my Mom and Mike aren't just my parents, but they're my best friends as well. A lot of parents just can't accomplish that.
Anyways, I'm looking forward to 2013 and all that it has to bring. I pray that our family, church, and relationships will be blessed. That 2013 will be a happy year with many things to look forward to. That my family will become stronger spiritually, physically, and emotionally. That my family will be healthy and happy. I pray we can take each day one at a time and no matter what comes our way stay strong and pray through it.
Have a great day and a Happy New Year! Celebrate safely and watch out for all the idiots who refuse to celebrate safely.
Sunday, December 30, 2012
I love my son and I'm glad we have him.
But when he wakes up at "unscheduled" hours for a bottle and I haven't had enough sleep I must admit it tests every fiber of my patience and takes away some sanity.
I'm not a very nice person when I'm tired and so I get pretty mad when this happens. I know he's hungry and it's not his fault and that's what I have to keep reminding myself until I can once again curl back into a ball under my warm blankets and go back to sleep.
He rarely wakes up more than once during the night luckily. God sure knew what he was doing when he made Seth for this family!
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Burgerking for a limited time only at participating locations had their Cheesy tots back!
I'm so excited and hopeful th that they'll keep them around this time...or should I say again?
I was so mad when they got rid of them. Every single time we went there we got them. We stopped going to burger king for a year or two because of it. We even sent in comments saying they needed to get them back...and now they have!
Be wise and keep the cheesy tots!
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
It's amazing how being a parent changes your life.
I used to pretty much live on Facebook rather on my phone or laptop. Now I'm hardly ever on Facebook, I don't even have a desire to be on there and when I do get on it's on my phone and all I do is scroll through my news feed. I don't check my notifications or messages hardly ever. Even now I'm blogging from my phone.
I don't really have a reason to be on Facebook anymore... I'm actually tempted to just get rid of my facebook. Take all my pictures make sure they're on my laptop, delete everything off facebook, then cancel it. I'll continue to think about it, discuss it with my husband, and then decide what to do.
As for right now I believe I'm done blogging. Hope you have a great day!
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Broken relationships are unfortunately a part of life. We all must have a relationship that gets broken for whatever reason. It hurts, some more than others. It's hard when the people that are supposed to love you the most don't love you as much as they should or just don't love you at all.
Why am I blogging about a broken relationship? Good question! The answer: Because I have a broken relationship in my life. A relationship that should be strong. No, I'm not talking about the relationship with my husband; he and I are fine. But there's another important relationship in my life (ok more than one, but one that bothers me more than the rest), a relationship that is broken in far to many homes in the world.
I'm semi-sorry to say that I will not be telling you what relationship I am talking about. I will tell you it has to do with family (most of my broken relationships have to do with family) and that it's not my mom; we also are doing fine. Lol.
I don't blame this family member (or the others) in full for the way things are. I know I've played my part. Although since all these family members were born before me it was their responsibility to build a strong bond between us from the very beginning, which they all failed to do; that didn't help us at all.
I don't think any of these certain people will read my blog, but that's not why I'm blogging about this. I'm blogging about this for me.
I need it to be know that these broken relationships hurt. They hurt me in more ways than I care to admit. They hurt all other relationships, how I feel about people, how I bond with others, etc.
I also need it to be known that I don't contact these people because every time I feel like things are getting better I end up getting hurt.
I will not put effort into a relationship that is going to continually hurt me. I will not live like that. I will not be tossed aside, disrespected, and forgotten until it is convenient for you.
I know that these people love me, but they love me in their own selfish way. Maybe that's the only way they know how to love.. after all I learned it from them. I can be very selfish I may love someone, but cannot or do not know how to show it because that was how I saw love from these people. Now I constantly have to remind myself not to be like them.
I don't know what else to say about it; I am hurt.
I love poems. I couldn't find one that quite fit what I was trying to say. But I came across this poem and thought maybe it would help someone.
Cure For a Broken Heart
by Wilma Watson
And your days seem O so blue?
Only to see it torn apart?
As if you were never there?
And left in continual pain?
All alone, with so much sorrow?
Stop and listen, don’t walk away
It’s not a lie, you’ll see as such
You can talk to God night or day
He said, I’ll never leave you there
And help you find a brand new start
Friday, December 14, 2012
Sorry I love The Lord Of The Rings. Especially when Gimli, Master Dwarf says that haha!
That is all!
Thursday, December 13, 2012
I'd seen these on, I believe Pinterest and decided to make some of my own.
All you need is glue (I use a hot glue stick), the cardboard from a toilet paper roll or from paper towels, and scissors.
Cut the cardboard in whatever size you want and try to make them all the same size. Glue them together.
Mine are maybe 1/2 an inch thick. I glued 5 of them together to form the middle and worked out from there.
It's super simple and cute. You can paint them or just leave them as they are.
Mine are being left as they are.
I haven't gotten super creative with this yet, but I'm sure you could come up with some really cool, cheap designs for in your home (outside of the one I'm showing you)
Ok I love my son. And I'm actually happy I had a boy, but there's one downfall....
Almost every time I go to change his diaper he pees!
Now luckily he doesn't pee on me, but he does pee all over himself, which isn't good either.
Sometimes he gives me a fair warning that I need to hurry...
But then there's the other times with no warning and suddenly there's a stream flowing free! And this kid pees heavy and hard! Lol.
I'm sure it's a funny site when I'm trying to find something to cover him up with...
Oh well, I love him, messes and all!
Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Every time I give my son Tummy Time he falls asleep. He'll be awake and will just lay there staring at something until he falls asleep. No pushing himself up or kicking his legs, just lay there.
Tummy time is important. It's good for spinal development, it helps them build strength in there arms, neck, and legs.
How is my son supposed to get any of the strengthening benefits if all he does is fall asleep?! Lol.
I'm sure as he gets older he'll stay awake more and then move around more during Tummy Time. I just wish he would start doing it now. Oh well, I know he's smart and a great baby, that's what matters.
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
I wanted a simple and fast recipe and this was it. Sure maybe there are more simple recipes, but this is the one I found and I like this one.
It was a recipe for Chocolate Chips Cookies. I'd been wanting to make some cookies from scratch and figured I'd start with in my opinion the most loved cookies ever. I didn't have just regular Chocolate Chip Morsels so I used a bag of Peanut Butter and Milk Chocolate Morsels.
I think they turned out pretty good, but I did make a mistake when reading the recipe and put a little more of the Baking Soda and Salt, but it still turned out good. Next time I'll just have to pay a little more attention.
Even my husband said they were good! And trust me he won't lie about food to save your feelings. If you ask his opinion he'll give it.
Okay so here's the recipe, which I originally didn't intend on giving out just so I would have a recipe "of my own" when it comes to family members and friends, but since most of them don't read this I'll go ahead and post it.
You'll need two mixing bowls according to the recipe I got, but you could use one. But since I'm giving you the recipe the way I got it, two bowls. Cookie/Baking Sheet(s), Blender, etc.
Preheat your oven to 325
In one bowl sift 2 cups flour, 1/2 tsp salt, and 1/2 tsp baking soda. Put this bowl aside.
In the second bowl mix 3/4 cup unsalted butter (I used Original Country Crock butter), 1 cup brown sugar, and 1/2 cup fine white sugar (I used regular sugar). Beat on high speed until creamy texture.
To the same bowl add 1tbsp Vanilla Extract, 1 egg, and 1 egg yolk (I just used 2 eggs). Mix until finely mixed.
Mix in 2 cups of Chocolate Chip Morsels
Mix the two bowls together until it looks like cookie dough (Duh)
Take a tbsp of the mixture and place it on the Baking sheet being sure to leave room for the cookies to expand (They get a pretty good size)
Bake in oven for 15 minutes or until the edges are lightly brown/golden
Monkeys! Well, it's going to have more than just monkeys, but monkeys will be the main animal. It seems to be fitting for Seth. He has a ton of clothing with monkeys on them and monkeys are kind of the in thing it seem. Now I'm not big on doing the in thing. I like to be unique! But it should be easy to find things for his room. And to make it unique to us there's another "main" animal.
|See! A monkey! Lol.|
Ready to hear this one?!
The other main animal will be elephants. Why elephants? Good question. The first stuffed animal that I let Seth sleep with and "carry around" was/is an elephant. He loves his elephant. So it's only fitting that it should be in his room.
|Seth's Stuffed Elephant :)|
Sunday, December 9, 2012
He has to get the exact same shots at his 4 month appointment. I'm sure he'll still cry, but hopefully they won't cause him to be as fussy as he was after the first ones.
He was fussy the day of the shots and the next day, luckily on that 3rd day he woke up a happy baby! Those 2 days felt like a week! The fussing was driving me nuts! I understood why he was unhappy, but you can only take so much crying.
At least I know he won't remember any of this when he's older...
Ok, now to what I really want to say.
Around this time last year my husband and I decided to try to have a baby. And about a week from now is when I supposedly became pregnant. I'm still not sure how the whole mathematics of pregnancy goes, I just got pregnant and had the baby, the Doc got to do the math.
Now I look and there's no trying to get pregnant, no big pregnant belly, just a precious baby boy that God blessed my husband and I with.
I learned a lot this year. About myself, about my husband, about being a pregnant woman, about feeling sick all the time!, how it feels to not be able to do something for myself, and about how to be a mommy. I still have a lot to learn in each of these, but I'm glad that I can say that I actually learned a lot this year. It wasn't a year wasted.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Now don't get me wrong I don't want to go back through everything I dealt with while being pregnant and giving birth anytime in the near future. But I sure will miss not dealing with that particular problem.
If you're pregnant enjoy that blessing for as long as you can!
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Today my husband and I are going to play a video game together like we always used to do, but haven't been able to do since Seth was born. Hopefully Seth will be content or fall asleep so Hubby and I can spend some time "together"
Here goes... Wish us luck!
Thursday, November 22, 2012
I figured today being Thanksgiving and all that I would name a few of the things I'm thankful for and why I'm thankful for them. Feel free to leave a comment so that I can know some things that you're thankful for.
I'll start with my husband. I'm very thankful to have him in my life! Why? He's a wonderful, loving man who takes great care of our son and me. He's hard working both at work and when he comes home from work. No matter how hard times have gotten he's never given up on us. Sure he may drive me crazy at times with his sports and his strange obsession with popping my zits (Which I have unfortunately had a ton of since giving birth to our son *rolls eyes*, so I'm constantly "fighting" to keep his hands away from my face), but in the end there's no guy I'd rather be married to.
Second is my precious son, Seth. Why? He's been such a blessing in my life. He makes me want to be a better person, daughter, wife, mom, housekeeper, cook, etc. He's truly a joy to have around! His adorable smile and cute coos make my day! Even when he's been fussy and crying and put me to the point where I'm about to pull my hair out he'll give me a smile or he'll "talk" to me and it makes everything okay. *Heart melts*
And the last one I'll mention, but most certainly not the least is God. Why? Because no matter what I've done He loves me and forgives me. Every day His mercies are new to me. He's always provided my every need and many of my wants. Through every trial He's been there guiding my feet and holding my hand. When I'm scared or sad He is my Peace. When I'm in danger He is my Protector. When I need someone and no one is there for me He is my Friend. He is always everything that I need!
Monday, November 12, 2012
Now I'm not saying I'm going to start using cloth diapers because guess what they have a few downfalls. 1. you have to spray the poop out of them 2. you have to wash them 3. because you have to wash them your utility bills will go up (water and heat) Disposable diapers are just much easier. I can't say which one would really be cheaper since 1. I'm not going to try it and 2. even if I did I wouldn't be figuring out the math from my utility bills.
I applaud those of you who have the stomach and the patience to use cloth diapers. Thank you for trying to make a difference and make a better world for our children. But the most I'll use cloth diapers for is as a burp rag. If it wasn't for the poop I'd probably use cloth diapers.. but I just couldn't deal with that.
Thursday, November 8, 2012
First off my stomach hurts and I've been well, I'll just say sick since last night.
Two I'll have to be in a car for 30 minutes with my stomach being upset, I get car sick enough without already feeling ill.
Three the Dr. will probably do the normal 1 year exam, which I cannot stand. It hurts :/
And there are some other reasons, but still.
My mom is going with me so she can take care of Seth. You know, just in case he starts throwing a fit or something. At least I won't have to drive there while feeling this way since mom is taking me.
Hopefully this appointment won't be to uncomfortable. You think after having a baby none of this would hurt or even phase you, but it still does. Bummer. Lol.
Well, not to much longer and my ride will be here. I'll give an update later on how things go, what the Dr. says about how I'm healing, what she does while I'm there, etc.
Hope you all have a great day!
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
I wake up when Seth wants to wake up. Which is once or twice during the night for a bottle then we wake up for the day anywhere from 6 a.m. to 8 a.m.
I have to feed, bathe, burp, and change diapers. Not really a big fan of all that (I actually occasionally enjoy some of these things), but it isn't that bad and I know he'll be feeding himself before I know it so I may as well enjoy it while it lasts. I'm sure one day I'll be crying wishing for the days when I could hold and feed my baby boy.
I'm now Mommy. Sure he can't say it yet, but I'm still a mommy... wow! I still can't believe I had a baby!
Let me start off by saying, yes, I know that God is still God and that He knows the beginning from the ending and that He allows people to be placed in positions for a reason and that in the back of the Book we win. Got it!
But Obama being president again scares me. I'm human. And even though I know that God is in control since I'm human I get scared. I'm scared for myself, for my friends, family, for this country, but most of all I'm scared for my son's future and what kind of world he will live in. God knows how He created us, He knows we get scared, it doesn't mean we don't trust Him. He says not to worry, so I'm trying to not worry about it. But once again, I'm human.
It would have been nice getting America back to the real America with you, but unfortunately people just don't care about the same things anymore. Our schools, families, friends, and even some churches have failed us. Our schools took away God, prayer, and making sure that we are all well educated. Our families no longer go to church, pray, support their children, raise them in the way that they should go, etc. Our friends are no longer people we can look up to, but are bad influences. Some of our churches rather than teaching and preaching the truth and the Bible they tell us what we want to hear so they can have a big congregation and lots of tithes and offerings due to their greed. They no longer want to step on our feet and ensure that our souls are saved because they don't want to offend anyone so instead they tell them what they want to hear. Personally I want to hear the truth! Hurt my feelings if you must, but make sure I know what I need to know for my soul to be saved! This is truly a sad world that we live in!
I'm so disappointed in you...
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
He's been to basically every major event in life before even turning 6 weeks! Can't wait to see what all he's done before 2 months! Lol.
Also he must not understand how much a good babysitter costs because he thinks that my job would pay enough to help out with bills and cover a babysitter. That's just not the case. My job would barely cover a babysitter, it may not even cover a babysitter depending on what babysitters are asking for now. My mom estimates a babysitter to be around $75-$100 or more a week. I'm pretty sure all the babysitters I've heard of cost more than that. So yeah, going by what I made at Walmart when I worked full-time it wouldn't be worth it. I'd make the same amount of money that I'm making with the two jobs I have now. So might as well just keep doing what I'm doing.
Doing what I'm doing will help Seth out in the long run. I'll be able to teach him things! There's no reason that I won't be able to teach him things early that he would be learning in preschool and kindergarten so that when it's time to go to school he'll already know these things and will be able to make some really good grades. I want him to like school and learning and be good in school, I wasn't and I don't want him to be like me. I want him to be successful in everything he does (as long as it is legal and godly)
Anyways, I just had to get this off my chest. Hopefully one day my dear hubby will understand. I love him so much, but sometimes he thinks he's right and to him he's right and there's no changing his mind, which isn't really a good quality. But he has many fine qualities and we all have some flaw. Oh well.
Off I go. Have a good day!
Monday, November 5, 2012
So if you would ask one downfall of being pregnant zits would be my answer. I know not every woman gets them, but for those of us that do OMW! I don't think my face was this bad even when I was a teenager, and that's saying something because my face was bad back then.
Well, here's hoping my face clears up soon. If you feel like praying for my face I sure would appreciate it. If you're pregnant I hope this doesn't happen to you!
Have a great day!
Saturday, November 3, 2012
He's "talking" more and more.
I'm becoming more and more attached to him. I absolutely cannot stand when he's away from me. Today I went to a Baby Shower and he went with his daddy to go see my in-laws. Of course all the ladies at the Shower were shocked to not see him with me and even a little disappointed since it's not like we get out and all spend a lot of time together so this would have been one of the only times that they could have really seen or held him.
He's still sleeping well at night. Thank God! 2 bottle feedings during sleep time is nothing compared to some of the horror stories I've heard. Sometimes he only needs one feeding during the night and then of course one immediately when he wakes up.
He loves swinging in his swing, talking to people, being held, eating, sucking on his pacifier, smiling, eating, looking around and just taking everything in, did I mention eating?, etc.
I know he's going to be such a smart, talented person! Period. No room for questioning it.
He's slowly eating more and more and slowly sleeping less and less during the day.
He's such a well behaved baby. He's been to a Viewing (for a funeral), and a Wedding, Church, and goes to work with me on Fridays and he does so well! He's either sleeping or just lays there looking around. As long as he isn't hungry or fighting sleep he's very calm.
He doesn't like "bright" lights, burping, diaper changes, getting dressed or undressed, when people don't pay attention to him, etc.
He is iffy on: Baths and getting lotioned.
I can't seem to upload photos on here anymore without putting them on my computer first.. not the easy way of doing it. I'll see what I can do. So there may or may not be a picture on here. If there isn't I'm sorry blame my phone or blogger (whichever one is acting up)
You're welcome :)
It was held at our Pastor & his family's home.
It was decorated in Sock Monkeys (So cute!)
They had lots of good "finger food" (Sandwiches: Ham, Chicken Salad, and ... was it turkey? Idk I had the Chicken Salad Sandwich/Triangle Spinach Things (They were yummy)/Circle little things that had sauce, meat, spices, and such (Also yummy)/Pop, Some sort of lemon/lime water, and tea. I had the tea! It was so sweet and wonderful!/Cupcakes. Never did get myself one of those./Pies. Never got any of that either. I have had weirdness going on with my appetite since having Seth) Anyways, plenty of good food and drinks.
It was a nice comfortable environment since it was held in a home.. wish we would have been able to hold mine in either my house or my mom's I think I would have been so much more comfortable.
They had some good games. One had some questions and you had to either fill in the blank or pick from multiples. It had questions like CL's favorite part of being pregnant, name of the baby, due date, etc. The they did a game where you had so many minutes to think of as many songs (baby, christian, worldly, whatever) that had Baby in the title. I could only think of 3, though I know that there are a ton of them.
CL opened her gifts and had lots of nice gifts. Crib, clothes, diapers, wipes, lotion, baby wash, baskets, blankets, etc.
While she was opening the gifts one of the ladies who actually hosted, I guess would be the word, the party took down some of the words that she used commenting on the gifts. After CL was done opening the gifts this Sis. stood up and said, "It's been said that the words you use to comment on your gifts are the things that were said during conception." (Not her exact wording, but close enough) So she read some of the comments which were, "Seriously", "That's cute" "Thank you" "It's a giraffe", It's so pretty", etc. Which of course had us all cracking up and turning red! I did not expect that at all, but it sure was funny!
After the gifts were opened and we all had a good laugh we all sat around and talked. Unfortunately I, my mom, and my s-sister were some of the firsts to leave. I'm sure there were plenty more laughs to be had and I hated missing out on them, but I really enjoyed the time that I had while I was there and that's what matters.
So to those who hosted, you did a fabulous job with everything and thank you for inviting me!
By the way, I love my husband. He's a great husband and father, but as with every marriage there are just some things that he does that bugs me. Just like I do some things that bug him.
I just needed to get this off my chest. Whew! Thanks for listening!
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Seth is finding his voice. Before we know it he'll be laughing and talking :) I can't wait! I can't wait to hear what his laugh sounds like! I also can't wait until he can tell me what's wrong, what he wants, etc.
I want to teach him the way to properly say words and to talk with intelligence. I don't want him sounding country, hick, or like some punk.
That's all the new news I have for now....
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
I'm so glad I'm not pregnant anymore. And I love this new and improved person being a mommy has made me.
So you may ask,"what does a one month old do?" Well, not much more than a newborn! He eats more, sleeps better through the night, sleeps less during the day, and has a much fuller diaper when he goes but other than that he's just like a newborn...ok ok so there are other things, some cool things like he smiles more and tries to talk to us. He doesn't laugh yet but I'm sure he will soon and I can't wait!
He's still just the sweetest thing and the cutest one too!
Saturday, October 20, 2012
I hate that Seth isn't here with me. I don't like that he's away. The only comfort I have is knowing that he's with my husband so he's around someone that he's used to be around all the time.
I'm all for Seth seeing his grandparents sometimes, but I'm not up for him going off without Miles or I with him, we had him and he's our responsibility, that's just how I feel. I don't understand people that ship their kids off to grandparents, unless they have to because of work that can't be helped. By the way, I'm not calling the occasional staying the night at a grandparents house being shipped off. If you need a break every once in a while then I understand.
Anyways, back to the point. I miss my son! And I hope my husband brings him home soon!
Speaking of my Hubby, he's been absolutely wonderful! He's a great dad and helps out with Seth, I don't feel like I'm parenting alone. If I'm having problems with Seth such as getting him to burp, then he'll come and take Seth from me and burp (or at least try to burp) him. He takes good care of me, not letting me do things that I shouldn't be doing and being very understanding with my limitations. He deserves a few good surprises for how awesome he's been.
Now if only it would all hurry up and get here!
He's still a good sleeper, he wakes up a couple times during the night, which isn't bad. Every once in a while he'll wake up more during the night, but it's typically just because he wants his pacifier.
He's waking up more and more during the day, which is nice. I love seeing his beautiful eyes and watch him as he looks around at everything.
I absolutely love cuddling with him! He's so sweet and warm :) I love knowing that he's more comfortable when he's near me, that bond :)
I love being a mommy to my precious baby boy!
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Sure there are things that I would do for my son that I wouldn't do for my husband. I think being a mommy means a lot of sacrifice for your child and their needs, but marriage involves some sacrifice too, just once again a different kind.
Being a mommy you feed your child before yourself no matter how hungry you are, you sacrifice time that you would spend with your husband, friends, and family, you sacrifice sleep and sanity (at times), etc.
Being a wife you put your husband above your family and friends, you may sacrifice getting something you want to get something he wants (same as with a child), it's no longer what you want to do or where you want to go, it's no longer I it's we, etc.
I don't think that the people that feel more love for their children are wrong for feeling that way, but I know I'm not wrong either. I just think it's a difference in personalities. Either way I love being a mommy just like all of you and honestly that's what matters :)
Monday, October 15, 2012
We, of course, miss Daddy being home with us, but work is a must. Unfortunately we can't live on love. And all to soon I'll have to go back to work myself, but unlike Daddy I'll only be away from Seth for around 30 minutes to possibly an hour, not 10 or more hours. And Seth even gets to come with me to one of my jobs! I'm excited about that. I know I'll still have to do my work, but I won't have to worry about him being with someone else and if he's okay or if they're taking proper care of him or not.
Well, I've been doing housework and I need to get back to that. I love being a mommy!
Sunday, October 14, 2012
Today the weather has been so great that we decided to take our first stroller ride. Mommy and Daddy needed the exercise and we all need some fresh air. We walked for maybe 15 minutes, which I thought was pretty good since I'm still healing. Seth slept the whole time.. Well, he may have been awake for 1 minute, but you might as well say he was asleep the whole time. Lol.
Seth seems to love the outside, but he's just at that age still where sleeping is all he wants to do. Besides eating and going "potty" (Have I ever mentioned how much I hate the word "potty"? Or "tinkle"? Or "Ucky"? Lol. Sorry in my book you "go to the bathroom", "poop", and "pee" You may as well just call it what it is...)
I still love being a mommy! <3 p="p">3>
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Tonight is Seth's first night sleeping in his crib.
He seems to really love his crib and all the room that he has to spread out in it. We had noticed he sleeps better if he's on a very open space like a couch or bed so we decided to see how he'd sleep in his crib.
He fell asleep without a pacifier. And has been sleeping very well so far.
One problem... Me being mommy I don't like that he's down the hall. For the first 2 weeks of his life he slept right next to my side of the bed in his bassinet. And for 9 months I carried him everywhere (like either of us had a choice lol) So I'm sad that he's already growing up on me. And I'm worried that if I fall asleep he'll wake up and I won't be there and he'll be scared.
.... Point is baby may sleep well, but mommy is going to have a hard night :(
Friday, October 12, 2012
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
I love babies, especially mine, but the Umbilical Cord Stumps are just SOOOOO gross! So I'm super excited that it's gone and I no longer have to worry about it!
I know some people keep the stump, but in my opinion that's just nasty. (Sorry if that offends any of you, but that's just my opinion.) I don't want to look back and remember the stump, just the cute, amazing, sweet, perfect little one that I gave birth too.
So celebrate with me the falling off of the ugly!
Monday, October 8, 2012
Sunday, October 7, 2012
We would have went tonight as well, but I am still sore from giving birth. I can only seem to handle being out and sitting up for a couple hours a day then I'm sore until I wake up the next morning. Soon we'll be back to both services.
Hopefully Seth will take those services just as well as he did the service today.
Saturday, October 6, 2012
I love that he's making me want to be a better me! Having him was such a good idea and such a blessing! I'd be enjoying my blessing right now, but the in-laws are enjoying him at the moment. Yes, I'm sharing him :P Big shocker I know!
Friday, October 5, 2012
I noticed I was able to move around with a bit more ease.
My amazing husband
My precious son
We're all healthy and happy.
We have a wonderful house.
2 good, running vehicles.
We both have jobs.
3 adorable cats.
Food on the table.
Money in the bank.
Family that loves us.
I could go on and on about the things I'm thankful for, but there's a few. I am so blessed and often times I forget just how truly blessed I am. Having my son has made me realize just how blessed I am and how often I forget that I'm blessed.
I know I'm not the only one who forgets. We all do. It's so much easier to see all the bad things that are happening in life and dwell on those. But think about it, that makes for a pretty miserable life, doesn't it?
So take a moment think of at least 10 things that you're thankful for. And don't forget to thank God for these things because without him it wouldn't be possible.
Because the highlight of everyday is that child.
Because the love you feel for that child is so great.
Because of all the cute things they do.
Because the life that you had before and thought you'd miss is gone and you honestly don't care that it is...
I love my little boy and I couldn't imagine life without him in it. It seems so strange to me that he wasn't around before last week. It feels like he's always been around, guess that's because he's a part of me.
I will cherish every day that I am given with him. I am truly blessed!
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Name: Seth Paul
Date of birth: 9/27/12
Time of birth: 9:37 p.m.
Weight: 8 lbs. 12 oz.
Height: 20 3/4 in.
9/27 my Dr. had scheduled me to get induced since I would be 41 weeks. So Miles and I went to the hospital at 7 a.m.
They checked my cervix and I was 1 1/2 cm. dilated so they inserted a pill to help me dilate. After about 2 hours they checked again and I was, I believe, 3 or 3 1/2 cm. dilated.
My Dr. asked if I would like my water broken or my epidural first. Knowing that after my water would break the contractions would only get worse I chose to get the epidural first so it would kick in before she broke my water.
So I got the epidural and really it was no more painful than getting the iv's in. The epidural is wonderful btw! The contractions were very painful at only 3 or 3 1/2 cm. so I'm so glad that the epidural exists and that it actually worked for me. Yes, you can feel pressure, but really no pain.
The Dr. had to be in surgery for a couple of hours and said she would break my water when she got out. So I waited. During my waiting one of the nurses checked my cervix and my water sack was bulging and it broke during the check.
Eventually I was dilated enough to start pushing and that's when the fun began. I was already exhausted and I kept falling asleep for a minute or two (or at least it felt like a minute or two). I pushed for 3 hours with the help of my husband and my mom coaching me and giving me support. Mom helped hold my left leg and Miles my right. The method of pushing was 3 10 second pushes per contraction (a few times there were 4) I could feel pressure, but no real pain besides my heartburn and upper back pain. Yeah, it was real fun to push with heartburn and upper back pain. I'm sure I would have had lower back pain too, but I couldn't feel it. Lol.
Seth's head wasn't positioned right, it was angled just a little bit off so they used the suction to help him out.
As said above at 9:37 p.m. my perfect, precious, gift from God was finally here.
They placed him on me and cleaned him off. Took him over to get checked, weighed, measured, etc.
While the nurses did that the Dr. and another nurse stitched me up. Since he was such a big baby I had a 3rd degree tear and it took them a little while to get me stitched up. Luckily I was still numb from the epidural so I could feel that they were doing something and I knew what they were doing, but it didn't hurt.
I was in and out during the whole day so I'm sorry that I can't really give you times and whole lot of detail, but I'm giving you what I know. I'm sure my husband and my mother could tell the story better, but I'm the blogger so it's my version of the story that you get.
So it's a week later and I'm still sore, but it gets better and better each day. I know soon I'll be back to normal and that the stitches will dissolve soon. I can't wait!
I'm having a hard time believing that a week has passed already and that I'm a mommy! I'm sure it will eventually fully hit me that I'm a mommy, but I'm not sure when that's going to happen.
Seth is a great baby! I could not have asked for a better baby. He sleeps almost the whole night, he doesn't fuss unless he's hungry or gassy, he burps pretty easily (most of the time), smiles and makes faces a lot, etc. I absolutely love him!
I love being a mommy! And my husband loves being a daddy! He's on FMLA for 2 weeks, which he only has 1 week left now :( I've so enjoyed having him at home! I'm glad he was able to take off 2 weeks, but since it isn't paid I'll feel a bit better (financially) when he goes back to work. I will miss having him here!
It will be different taking care of Seth with absolutely no help.. like for someone to watch him when I need to go to the bathroom and such things. I'm sure we'll be fine though. I'll get used to that just like I've gotten used to (as much as possible) getting up to take care of Seth in the middle of the night.
Btw as much as I may hurt from my 3rd degree tear I'd still do it again, it was worth it!
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
My pregnancy has been a very good pregnancy compared to many of the horror stories I've heard. And I am VERY thankful for that. I, of course, am becoming irritated at the fact that I am still pregnant and at all the pregnancy questions.. "When are you due?" (Now answering you mean how many days past due am I), "How much longer?" (Only God knows), "You're still pregnant?" (Do you see a baby in my arms? No, well yes, then I am obviously still pregnant), "How do you feel" (How do you think I feel I'm huge, overdue, and have no signs of labor. Lol No actually though those things are true I'm doing quite well.), etc. I know these are normal questions and they're a way of showing the mom-to-be that you care, but lets be honest it gets annoying. And I know after I have him they'll stop, but unfortunately I'll have a new set of questions to answer. Example: "How old is he?" Will the questions ever end?! LOL
So I used to give updates on my symptoms so I guess I'll do that now.
Swelling, which has gone down since the weather has changed to slightly cooler temperatures
Carpel Tunnel, which I already had a slight case of before pregnancy
At my last Dr. appt., which was almost 1 week ago, I went ahead and had the Nurse Practitioner check my cervix and it hadn't changed since the Dr. had checked it the week before so I was still 1 cm. dilated BOO! (again) My next Dr. appt. is tomorrow and I'm hoping that I'll have Seth before then, but if not the Dr. and I will be setting up a date for me to be induced. At least if I don't have him before then I'll then know the absolute latest that he'll be in there.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
So in these pics it kind of looks like 2 different cribs, but it's not, just the lighting was different so the color looks different.
Btw, ignore the dresser that's practically sitting on top of the crib, it won't be there later and it won't be that color. We are going to buy some paint that hopefully will be a very close color to the color of the crib to paint the dresser and I'll be buying some spray paint to take care of the old and, in my opinion, ugly knobs.
You can also see the nice gray walls in these pics. I'd say that it looks more like the color from the first pic.
I'll try to get more pics of the nursery soon, but things just seem to be going slow when it comes to the nursery, which is fine since we won't be using it immediately.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
I keep waking up every morning more sore than the previous morning, but still no baby! My pelvic bones have been sore, popping, and just moving around. My stomach feels different. I've had signs of labor coming soon, but no still no baby!
All I want to do is have my baby so I can meet him, start getting back to me again, and learn what my new routine will be like! Is this really to much to ask for?
And yes, I know my Dr. said that if I'm still pregnant by my 40 week Dr.'s visit than we'll set up a day to induce, but 41 weeks is way to long to carry a baby, in my opinion. Personally if it was me I'd say, "If you're still pregnant at your 39 week Dr.'s visit then we'll set up a date."
I know she's the Dr., she's done all the schooling, deals with multiple pregnant women daily, and has delivered many babies so she knows WAY more than me, but I'm just so ready to not be me+1 anymore. I want to be just me, me carrying a baby, in my arms and not my stomach!
We've tried talking to Seth hoping that maybe our pleas would make him want to come out and meet us, but he's decided to be stubborn and stay put. I've been praying and praying that God would make him come out already and so far the answer has been no, obviously since there's still no baby.
I know people say, "Oh, the baby will come when it's ready" But lets face it people I'm ready!, I'm sure by now he's "baked", and if he doesn't come out soon I'm going to start falling apart, mentally and physically.
My body is so sore at points in the day that I just want to cry! I've never had such bad neck and back pains in my life + the pelvic pain, OMW! I can't bend over without feeling like I'm about to break, as if bending over wasn't hard enough as is with this huge stomach! And Seth has decided that it'd be fun to take basically all of mommy's calcium! My wrists hurt so bad! One of them is so bad that if I don't sleep with a brace on it I'll wake up feeling like there's a bone out of place. Talk about uncomfortable! I've been getting headaches, swelling again, heartburn (not as bad as the horror stories I've heard though), and these weird discomfort spots on my stomach.
It's only 12:39p.m. and I feel like I need to go take a nap. I've only been up since 8:30a.m. I should not need a nap already. And yes, I know, pregnancy is exhausting, you're growing another person, etc.
Oh, and the thing I hear the most and that I'm the most sick of hearing, "Get plenty of sleep (rest), you're going to need it!" As if I didn't know this already. 1.) I'm going to be popping a baby out of me, that's pretty hard work epidural or no epidural. 2.) After popping out this baby I'm going to be dealing with a ton of people coming to see me.. ok, so they'll really be there for the baby, but that's kind of depressing so I'll say they're there to see us both. Dealing with a lot of people, coming in and out is tiring. 3.) Even when I finally get to come home I'll then be taking care of a newborn. 4.) Breastfeeding at all hours of the day and night 5.) Diaper changing at all hours 6.) Trying to get baby back to sleep. Yeah, this list could go on forever, so I'll just stop there.
I'm SOOOOO glad that my hubby is going to be taking off 2 weeks from work to help me out. I'm very thankful that God has provided him with a job where he can do that and that He's provided us with enough financial security that we'll be able to go without him getting paid for the 2 weeks. It'll be a tight squeeze financially especially since I'm not getting paid either, but I know that God will provide.
Well, away I go.. off to do some more squats, drink more water, and pray that a.) my water breaks or b.) I start getting some heavy contractions (or hidden answer C.) all the above) And if the answer to my prayer is still no, then I'll probably be taking a nap.
Have a great day! Sorry for the venting!
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Friday, September 7, 2012
But women lets be honest, we all want the man that will stare at us, especially when we have absolutely no clue that he is. And that when he looks at you he has that look that just says, "you're my everything", "there's no one, but you for me", "everything you do is perfect in my eyes", etc.
If you have no clue what that look looks like you should go to www.youtube.com and watch Halo by Beyonce. Here I'll even give you the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnVUHWCynig.
By the way, I'm not saying that your husband, fiance, or boyfriend doesn't love you if he doesn't look at you like that, but seriously if you watched the video don't you just wish that someone would look at you like that and make you all weak in the knees? I know I do! I love the way he looks at her... it's like she's the only other person on the planet, like he doesn't need to look at any other woman for the rest of his life because he's found exactly who he wants.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
I'm really, really hoping that God will allow me to be one of the women who's water breaks so I'll know for sure that it's time to go to the hospital. I'm a little freaked out since we chose a hospital that is 30 min away and since my hubby is at work I would have to call my mom or just drive over to their house and have her take me to the hospital. I'm afraid that if my water doesn't break that I'll miscalculate my contractions and not make it to the hospital in time. Guess this is where I just have to trust God.. He knows what He's doing...
I can basically no longer sleep at night. I have to try to sleep, keep forcing myself back to sleep, then around 2 or 3 I can't do it anymore so I stay up for a few hours and when my hubby goes to work I go downstairs and fall asleep on our sectional until around 10 or 10:30.
Tossing and turning hurts, but staying on my right side hurts my hip.
I'm so tired of not being able to sleep somewhat normally that I could cry.
I just sit here and watch my husband sleep. I'm glad he seems to be sleeping well even when I'm not because he has work and needs the sleep, but I so wish I could join him in dreamland.
I can't really cuddle hubby because my belly gets on the way and it hurts when pressure is applied, mainly because I accidentally bruised my stomach when I went to sit down in front of a table and hit the table. And I'm not comfy in one sleeping position for very long anyways so I'd probably just mess up his good sleep. This child really needs to make his way here already because I'm about to lose it....
Friday, August 31, 2012
Well, last week I found out that I'm dilated 1cm and I got checked for GBS. This doctors appointment I was seen by the Nurse Practitioner and she informed me that the test for GBS came back negative so I won't need any antibiotics in an iv for that during delivery. I also had a position check, which is basically a 2 min U/S to see how baby is positioned and you'll be glad to know that Seth is head down! Can't wait to find out more at my 38 week appointment.
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
I'll let you know when I know. Also I will officially know tomorrow if I have to have a c-section or not, due to him being breech. So I'll let you know about that as well.
As for right now I'm off to work and to buy some milk :) Hopefully my dizziness will hold off.. yes, the dizziness has gotten worse and if I don't have this baby soon I'm going to ask my doctor to put me on maternity leave. My swelling has also gotten much worse. Bring on the baby!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Our preacher for the evening was Gentry, one of our youth and the Pastor's son. He did a fabulous job and I'm so proud of him for letting God use him! And amazingly he said he only found out he was preaching right after Sunday morning service. Talk about some fast preparing! I would have guessed that he'd spent much more time preparing.
Some of the youth did a drama, a very powerful drama. If I knew the name of it I would tell you to look it up on Youtube (lots of people have done this drama) It wasn't a sign language drama or a skit it was one of those dramas with a song and they kind of act it out. Well, it had me in tears.. and I'd seen it done before. Lol.
The youth joined our normal choir for the singing. They had a Praise Team. Etc. Once again wonderful.
I was so very blessed to have the opportunity to be in that service. I hope the service blessed others as much (or more even) than it blessed me. Hopefully we all took parts from it that we will use throughout the rest of our lives.
One of my favorite things of the service, of the preaching at least, was when Gentry talked about Moses and how he told Pharaoh to let his people go and he said God doesn't have to say let my people go God says, "Satan, they're already free!" That was just so powerful. He actually said many things that I'd heard before, but the way he said it just was so much more powerful than what I'd heard before. I was definitely taking notes. I would share some of those, but I'm sitting in the dark and my notes are in my purse, which is across the room. Lazy, yes, I know. (But that's a perk of being pregnant LOL)
I hope that our youth will continue to reach out to the lost souls in their schools, towns, and families even when the adults aren't being the best of role models. Not that I'm giving us adults a right to not be good role models, but I want the youth to know that even when we aren't doing our part that they should. Just remember you're not only the role models for the people your age, but you're going to be the role models of my child and of all the other children. Please be a good role model for my child and your peers. People may make fun of you, but let me tell you a secret.... Deep down inside they respect you and possibly even envy you. Unfortunately it's not until you fall that they tell you how much your standing up for your beliefs really meant to them.
I can't wait to see what God has in store for my family and CLC. I expect great things, after all we serve a great God.
He was able to get his shots so he's now all up to date. And Garfield has been acting fine so he thinks this could be just a one time thing.
I hope it's just a one time thing! I was so scared! I never want to have to deal with that again. But unfortunately in order to love someone you have to be willing to deal with the pain of losing them. Why must there be a negative to every positive?
I since I'm pregnant find it easier and more comfortable to sleep on the sectional downstairs. So I was asleep and I woke up to hearing a cat hacking. Which it sounded like a normal cat trying to get rid of a hairball, but after what happened to our beautiful Safari *sad face* I always check to make sure that a hairball is all it is. Well I look around and I see Tootsie and Scooter so I knew it was Garfield and then I finally found him behind the sectional standing over his vomit. I as usual said something like, "Hey buddy. Are you ok?" And he just sat there. Next thing I knew he just slumped over from a sitting position to a laying position. I of course leaning over the sectional with my huge belly was trying to keep my balance with my left hand and I was trying to lean down far enough to pick him up with my right hand, but I couldn't reach down that far. I was able to get a hold of him, but he was completely limp so I couldn't bring him up to me. At some point before, after, or during, I don't remember, I tried massaging from his tail up to his shoulders in case there was something lodged that needed to come up, but that did nothing. So I continued to try to pick him up, while shaking out of fear and praying, "Dear God, not again!" After what seemed like forever, but was probably only about a minute or less he came to. Now I had/have no clue if he passed out or if he was dying. I couldn't really check for a heartbeat all I knew was he was limp. Well anyways, he comes to and just sits there for a second and then he gets up and walks out from behind the sectional and goes to his comfy spot in front of our front door. I, of course, got up and was saying, "Garfield. Garfield. Garfield, are you ok?" and it didn't even seem to register that I was saying anything to him. So I went over and picked him up and normally he would start purring right away, but there was no purring he just laid his head on my shoulder. Well, he completely terrified me so I really needed to go to the bathroom so I carried him into the bathroom with me and when I turned on the light he started purring, which made me feel better. So I sat him down so I could go to the bathroom and he sat on the rug for a minute then he started rubbing against my legs as he normally would, which calmed me down even more. And even though he was acting more normal again I took him upstairs with me into the bathroom so I could take a bath and keep an eye on him.
So there's the story. Yes, he's doing fine. There hasn't been anything unusual about him since. But we have an appointment with the Vet. today to get him checked out and get him some shots. Hopefully he's healthy and maybe he just passed out from heaving. I'd hate for it to be something more than that.
I'll let you know what they say...