Wednesday, September 19, 2012
My pregnancy has been a very good pregnancy compared to many of the horror stories I've heard. And I am VERY thankful for that. I, of course, am becoming irritated at the fact that I am still pregnant and at all the pregnancy questions.. "When are you due?" (Now answering you mean how many days past due am I), "How much longer?" (Only God knows), "You're still pregnant?" (Do you see a baby in my arms? No, well yes, then I am obviously still pregnant), "How do you feel" (How do you think I feel I'm huge, overdue, and have no signs of labor. Lol No actually though those things are true I'm doing quite well.), etc. I know these are normal questions and they're a way of showing the mom-to-be that you care, but lets be honest it gets annoying. And I know after I have him they'll stop, but unfortunately I'll have a new set of questions to answer. Example: "How old is he?" Will the questions ever end?! LOL
So I used to give updates on my symptoms so I guess I'll do that now.
Swelling, which has gone down since the weather has changed to slightly cooler temperatures
Carpel Tunnel, which I already had a slight case of before pregnancy
At my last Dr. appt., which was almost 1 week ago, I went ahead and had the Nurse Practitioner check my cervix and it hadn't changed since the Dr. had checked it the week before so I was still 1 cm. dilated BOO! (again) My next Dr. appt. is tomorrow and I'm hoping that I'll have Seth before then, but if not the Dr. and I will be setting up a date for me to be induced. At least if I don't have him before then I'll then know the absolute latest that he'll be in there.
Wednesday, September 12, 2012
So in these pics it kind of looks like 2 different cribs, but it's not, just the lighting was different so the color looks different.
Btw, ignore the dresser that's practically sitting on top of the crib, it won't be there later and it won't be that color. We are going to buy some paint that hopefully will be a very close color to the color of the crib to paint the dresser and I'll be buying some spray paint to take care of the old and, in my opinion, ugly knobs.
You can also see the nice gray walls in these pics. I'd say that it looks more like the color from the first pic.
I'll try to get more pics of the nursery soon, but things just seem to be going slow when it comes to the nursery, which is fine since we won't be using it immediately.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
I keep waking up every morning more sore than the previous morning, but still no baby! My pelvic bones have been sore, popping, and just moving around. My stomach feels different. I've had signs of labor coming soon, but no still no baby!
All I want to do is have my baby so I can meet him, start getting back to me again, and learn what my new routine will be like! Is this really to much to ask for?
And yes, I know my Dr. said that if I'm still pregnant by my 40 week Dr.'s visit than we'll set up a day to induce, but 41 weeks is way to long to carry a baby, in my opinion. Personally if it was me I'd say, "If you're still pregnant at your 39 week Dr.'s visit then we'll set up a date."
I know she's the Dr., she's done all the schooling, deals with multiple pregnant women daily, and has delivered many babies so she knows WAY more than me, but I'm just so ready to not be me+1 anymore. I want to be just me, me carrying a baby, in my arms and not my stomach!
We've tried talking to Seth hoping that maybe our pleas would make him want to come out and meet us, but he's decided to be stubborn and stay put. I've been praying and praying that God would make him come out already and so far the answer has been no, obviously since there's still no baby.
I know people say, "Oh, the baby will come when it's ready" But lets face it people I'm ready!, I'm sure by now he's "baked", and if he doesn't come out soon I'm going to start falling apart, mentally and physically.
My body is so sore at points in the day that I just want to cry! I've never had such bad neck and back pains in my life + the pelvic pain, OMW! I can't bend over without feeling like I'm about to break, as if bending over wasn't hard enough as is with this huge stomach! And Seth has decided that it'd be fun to take basically all of mommy's calcium! My wrists hurt so bad! One of them is so bad that if I don't sleep with a brace on it I'll wake up feeling like there's a bone out of place. Talk about uncomfortable! I've been getting headaches, swelling again, heartburn (not as bad as the horror stories I've heard though), and these weird discomfort spots on my stomach.
It's only 12:39p.m. and I feel like I need to go take a nap. I've only been up since 8:30a.m. I should not need a nap already. And yes, I know, pregnancy is exhausting, you're growing another person, etc.
Oh, and the thing I hear the most and that I'm the most sick of hearing, "Get plenty of sleep (rest), you're going to need it!" As if I didn't know this already. 1.) I'm going to be popping a baby out of me, that's pretty hard work epidural or no epidural. 2.) After popping out this baby I'm going to be dealing with a ton of people coming to see me.. ok, so they'll really be there for the baby, but that's kind of depressing so I'll say they're there to see us both. Dealing with a lot of people, coming in and out is tiring. 3.) Even when I finally get to come home I'll then be taking care of a newborn. 4.) Breastfeeding at all hours of the day and night 5.) Diaper changing at all hours 6.) Trying to get baby back to sleep. Yeah, this list could go on forever, so I'll just stop there.
I'm SOOOOO glad that my hubby is going to be taking off 2 weeks from work to help me out. I'm very thankful that God has provided him with a job where he can do that and that He's provided us with enough financial security that we'll be able to go without him getting paid for the 2 weeks. It'll be a tight squeeze financially especially since I'm not getting paid either, but I know that God will provide.
Well, away I go.. off to do some more squats, drink more water, and pray that a.) my water breaks or b.) I start getting some heavy contractions (or hidden answer C.) all the above) And if the answer to my prayer is still no, then I'll probably be taking a nap.
Have a great day! Sorry for the venting!
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Friday, September 7, 2012
But women lets be honest, we all want the man that will stare at us, especially when we have absolutely no clue that he is. And that when he looks at you he has that look that just says, "you're my everything", "there's no one, but you for me", "everything you do is perfect in my eyes", etc.
If you have no clue what that look looks like you should go to www.youtube.com and watch Halo by Beyonce. Here I'll even give you the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnVUHWCynig.
By the way, I'm not saying that your husband, fiance, or boyfriend doesn't love you if he doesn't look at you like that, but seriously if you watched the video don't you just wish that someone would look at you like that and make you all weak in the knees? I know I do! I love the way he looks at her... it's like she's the only other person on the planet, like he doesn't need to look at any other woman for the rest of his life because he's found exactly who he wants.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
I'm really, really hoping that God will allow me to be one of the women who's water breaks so I'll know for sure that it's time to go to the hospital. I'm a little freaked out since we chose a hospital that is 30 min away and since my hubby is at work I would have to call my mom or just drive over to their house and have her take me to the hospital. I'm afraid that if my water doesn't break that I'll miscalculate my contractions and not make it to the hospital in time. Guess this is where I just have to trust God.. He knows what He's doing...
I can basically no longer sleep at night. I have to try to sleep, keep forcing myself back to sleep, then around 2 or 3 I can't do it anymore so I stay up for a few hours and when my hubby goes to work I go downstairs and fall asleep on our sectional until around 10 or 10:30.
Tossing and turning hurts, but staying on my right side hurts my hip.
I'm so tired of not being able to sleep somewhat normally that I could cry.
I just sit here and watch my husband sleep. I'm glad he seems to be sleeping well even when I'm not because he has work and needs the sleep, but I so wish I could join him in dreamland.
I can't really cuddle hubby because my belly gets on the way and it hurts when pressure is applied, mainly because I accidentally bruised my stomach when I went to sit down in front of a table and hit the table. And I'm not comfy in one sleeping position for very long anyways so I'd probably just mess up his good sleep. This child really needs to make his way here already because I'm about to lose it....