Thursday, October 3, 2013

Another One of These Nights

Nights like these are so hard. You know those nights where someone (or something) is keeping you awake and you know you have to get up "early" in the morning? I say "early" because in my case it's about the normal time, but it's the idea of knowing that I can't sleep in, in the morning that makes it seem early. We'll I'm having one of those... I've had many of those recently. 

Seth does not want to go to sleep at an acceptable hour. I don't know why. And I have to let him sit in his crib and fall asleep on his own or he ends up in my bed around 12 or 1, which is maybe an hour or two after he falls asleep. I get until around 4 or 5 If he falls asleep on his own. 

Hopefully he'll sleep soon or I'm not going to want to get up or do anything tomorrow. And I have plans tomorrow :/

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

4 Year Anniversary

10/3/09 I married Miles. Tomorrow, which starts in about 10 minutes we'll have been married 4 years! 

I know compared to some that number seems SO small, but in all reality compared to most marriages today that's a huge milestone. 

I'd be lying if I said that these 4 years had been easy. We've fought and disagreed, been mad and wanted to kill each other just like any other married couple. I wish I could say we fought all our battles on our own, but to be honest my parents and God himself have had to step in "a few" times to help us out. (Thank you!)

People always say how hard marriage is, but it's just one of those things that you really don't understand just how hard it is until you're there.. In a big pile of dept, in a fight with your spouse, at home alone depressed, or whatever other thing comes along. And just wait until you add a little one into the mix! 

I'm happy and proud to say that I've been married for 4 years. I've done what some people couldn't. I fought the fights, cried the tears, been depressed, felt alone, and still stuck to it (with help). I think a lot of marriages are failing because they refuse to let someone help. Trust me it's not fun asking for help, but it's needed and you need the type of people around who are going to help you even when you frankly just want to give up. I've always been upset because so many people have went on and got degrees or they have something awesome that they've accomplished and here I feel like I've done nothing, but I've done something that some of them "can't" do. Do I still want my thing that I look and say "wow that was an awesome accomplishment!"? Yes, of course I do. I want that degree. I want that job. But for now I've accomplished being married for 4 years and being a mommy for 1 year, both of which are a pretty big deal. 

Happy or sad, good or bad, "rich" or poor, we made it to 4! 

Shift Change.................

My husband signed up for a shift change at work, awesome! But this has been around a month or two ago.Well they finally found people to hire to take his place and so these people were being trained. First one left and never came back and then they got the second guy, awesome! Well now my husband informs me that they are postponing all shift changes! UGH! I believe he said its something to do with the drastic number of people coming in and people changing shifts. Don't  get me wrong I'm sure it's hard to keep track and train and get everyone where they're supposed to be, but I'm getting punished for it. 

Yeah, yeah "Way to make it about yourself" I know. But I am being punished because my son and I feel like we never see him (Seth can't talk but you can tell by the way he acts) Quite frankly it's depressing. Then you add all the other issues on top of it and yeah, I'm pretty glum. I know that he's going to go to second shift and that it's going to help, I know with time money won't feel so tight, I know that God will help us through all of this just like He always has, but as all humans, I want it NOW! 

Anybody have a Xanax? Lol.