Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Enjoy Life

Psalm 118:24
This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.
Romans 8:28 (King James Version)

28And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Numbers 23:19 (King James Version)

19God is not a man, that he should lie; neither the son of man, that he should repent: hath he said, and shall he not do it? or hath he spoken, and shall he not make it good?
Enjoy life no matter what! Things won't always go your way! Your friends may stab you in the back, the weather may be horrible, you may argue with you spouse (fiancé,boy/girlfriend), you may look horrible, feel fat,feel lonely, have to work, be broke, be sick,... the list goes on and on, but you know what, it IS the day the Lord made (Psalm 118:24) and He made you, and He made you exactly how He wanted you, so no one is really prettier than you because God made you that way and that's beautiful! No, I'm not saying to not take care of yourself because He also put you in charge of taking care of your body, but don't feel bad about the way you are. EVERYTHING happens for a reason and it will all work out for good Romans 8:28 says it and I believe it because God had it put in there and God doesn't lie! He has no need to lie! (Numbers 23:19) So don't try to tell me that you're better than me or anyone else because God made you and God made me and he made everyone else just as beautiful in His own eyes! So if you would like to call God a liar, feel free to say you're prettier or better than everyone else :) And on a final note Yes, Jesus love ME, THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO! :)

Friends Definition

The definition of the word friend according to :

friend (frɛnd)

— n
1. a person known well to another and regarded with liking, affection, and loyalty; an intimate
2. an acquaintance or associate
3. an ally in a fight or cause; supporter
4. a fellow member of a party, society, etc
5. a patron or supporter: a friend of the opera
6. be friends to be friendly (with)
7. make friends to become friendly (with)

Now, I know that having friends, making friends, and being someone's friend isn't always easy. But so many "friends" now days can't even compare to the definition.(#1 a person known well to another) We have all these people we call friends, but how much do we really know about them.(#3 an ally in a fight or cause, supporter) I've never seen a true ally lie to the person they're supporting (#6 be friends to be friendly (with)) To be friends or to be friendly isn't to go behind there back and say bad things about them, but tell them something nice when you're talking to them. I'm not saying I'm perfect or that I've never done any of that because guess what I have, but as we say in church "I'm preaching to the choir" I have a lot of people to say sorry too, but it may be just to hard to say it, but one day you'll all know. So if I've been a bad friend then I'm sorry and one day I'll tell you myself. Maybe on facebook, maybe in person, an e-mail, a letter,... whatever method I use. And some of you may not even be worth apologizing to, but I'll do it because I need to, because I have to forgive you and you have to forgive me, that is if you want forgiveness from God.
Luke 6:37 (King James Version)

37Judge not, and ye shall not be judged: condemn not, and ye shall not be condemned: forgive, and ye shall be forgiven:

Tuesday, September 28, 2010


Unless you can read minds you'll never know what a person is truly like. You may see things that aren't there or you may see what you want to see. Not that I'm saying there is no way of knowing certain things, there are ways of knowing some of them, but not all. It is clear when someone is a holier-than-thou, an optimist, negative,... Easy things you can see or hear. But let's be honest you can't always tell if someone is lying, cheating, full of the devil, full of God,... Unless you're them and sometimes we think more highly of ourselves than we should, you know we see what we want to see, hear what we want to hear, so on.
I'm imperfect. I'm negative, lazy, self-centered, hard headed, needy,... Well, you get the point it's not good stuff. I'm not proud, but I'm not blind I see my faults. I won't tell you that I'm better than what I am. I can sing, but I'm only an average singer. I can cook, but only a few dishes and I'm still not the best at that. I'm a Christian, but I'm not the best Christian, I'm often to busy with normal life to listen to what's around me, it's better if things are shown to me in a dream. I've seen people in my dream that I'd never met before and I've dreamed out a whole day before it happened, but I can't tell you the future. I'll give you my advice, but it may not be the best. I can touch God through my prayer, but I'm sure others have had more powerful experiences than me. Does any of this make anyone better than me? No! And am I better than them? No! You may be better at things than I am and I may be better at things than you, but neither is a better person. I may study things besides the bible, but that doesn't mean that they're demonic or that I am, people are curious about the unknown that's normal human nature. How does mind control work or what would have happened if things would have worked out differently. Not to say that we'll try to use mind control on others or that we want things to change to the other way, just that it's unknown and we're curious. Sometimes things look like one thing and aren't that way, maybe you know someone who studies mind control and so you happen to read something about mind control and that has happened, so you think that they used it, it could be a coincidence. Point is stop reading into things. God knows their heart and He will take care of it. Don't say you know something that you have no clue about. Let God deal with it. It will all work out for good.

Thursday, September 23, 2010


My thoughts, that's what this is all about right? Let's be honest I didn't exactly create this for people to read it though it would be nice if people did. So my thoughts currently are overlapping each other and rudely butting into other thoughts, which is keeping me from sleeping. So to try to get them off my chest I'll type them here in my trusty blog. (Blog is such a weird word) <-- Note I may be objecting weird things in like this a lot. And the rant begins:
Why do people say they want one thing, then freak out when they get what they want? You're just getting what you asked for!
And how come when you offend a friend they can't just calmly say "you said _______ and that offended me" where I would then reply with a "I'm sorry I didn't mean to offend you" (unless I did mean to then I'd just blow it off, sorry just being honest)
And why when you've possibly said something that could be offensive do people suddenly not text you back even after you've said "Did I say something wrong" and "I'm sorry if I said something wrong".. Could you at least give us the peace of mind of knowing that you are or aren't mad!
Why do people always second guess everything? You want something for so long then when you get it you wonder if something else would have been better. Guess what God's in control and if the other way is better God will make a way for you to get back to that place!
Why is I'm sorry so hard to say? Well, I know the answer to that technically, it's a humbling of ones self to another, which we don't like to do, but trust me you'll feel better after you say it!
Why couldn't I have blue eyes? It's my favorite color of eyes and I couldn't stinking have it? Why?! Yes, I know that no ones can really answer that besides God, but it still bugs me!
I feel pretty one day, fat another, ugly, skinny, happy, sad, hyper, no energy, .... what's up with that. I mean I realize people say I'm a pretty woman, but there's so many things that I see that keep me from thinking that. I don't know, maybe God had to give me zits and a big nose and other things because I would some stuck up person without them... but I still want the problems to go away. Yes, yes, beautiful in the Creators eyes, made you just the way He wants you to be.
Why on earth do people not want to hire me, I'm a good worker. Yes, like everyone else I would rather not work. I'll admit it, I'm lazy, I don't deny it. What would be the point in that?! But serious I fill out an app at a company I've worked for before and they know that I worked well, got along with others, did as I was asked, asked questions if I didn't understand,... yada, yada! So what's the problem? I had a break down and couldn't handle the work from in a different store with different people, more people, more customers, in a new town,working bad hours, just got married,... what.. do you you people think I'm Super Woman?! No, I am not and guess what I'm pretty unhappy with myself so I don't need you to look badly at me too! I'm a good worker and I loved my job, now I just want it back...
Why do people tend to enjoy the middle of the bed more than any other spot on the bed? or they like to sleep angled on the bed? Someone needs to create an angled bed.. not sure how that would work, but hop to!
Healthy foods are way to expensive. I know it takes a lot to create healthy food, but everyone says they want us to be more healthy! LOWER THE COST BUDDY I'M NOT TRUMP!
It's so easy to gain weight, but WAY to hard to lose it! Need an intervention!
Why is it so hard to find friends? Why do people want to be friends with the people that you have to be up there butt for them to pay attention to you, but someone like me who just wants a real friend gets dumped for people who think they're better than everyone else. NEWS FALASH!! (yes, I purposely spelled it that way) you're no better than me! And I'm no better than you! Get over yourselves!
Which brings me to another problem. How come people think they're better than other people? I've seen people that are average looking people, that think they're so much better than someone way more beautiful than their whole clan put together. And people who have an average voice that you could find in any church thinking that they're better than people from IBC! So they just sit down on God because it's not them and theirs singing! WHO CARES it's NOT ABOUT YOU! It's about GOD! Shoot that high horse you rode in on and join those of us who see things for what they are.
While I'm on my rant. For anyone who thinks I'm stuck up I'm not! I'm just tired of people who have done me wrong! (not saying that I'm perfect because I'M NOT!) And yes, I'm shy, that makes having friends hard. I'm not creative about things to do and places to go or gifts to give, but you know what I'm not stuck up, I don't lie to you, I'll be there when you need someone to talk to, or a shoulder to cry on, and you don't have to be up my rear to be my friend. If you don't talk to me for a week, month, year,... whatever that's fine, but don't talk behind my back, think you're better than me, ditch me, dump me, and then when all you're other friends leave you come crawling back nuh uh no way, not happening. I've spent to many days and nights crying! To many miserable months! I don't want to go back to that place. So don't try it!
Stupid decisions, choices I should have waited to make, chances I'll never get back,... yeah, it's all in the past, but it'll haunt you for the rest of your life!
I've ranted, and yes, I feel much, much better! But I'm still not feeling tired enough to sleep. Guess I'll just lay down and see what happens

Wisdom Teeth

Have you been through the stages of wisdom teeth yet? If you haven't trust me you don't want to! It's painful. I currently have an infected wisdom tooth with swollen gums (which is normal with wisdom teeth, no matter how much/how well you brush)You'll go through a lot of discomfort. So far I have not got the tooth pulled, but I will update when I do. Can't wait to update!
Update #1: My appointment is scheduled to get 2 teeth pulled (one wisdom, one not) on Monday at 2:30pm! Wish me luck!

UPDATE!: So I got only one tooth taken out (they think they can save the other) So the wisdom tooth is out. And it didn't hurt when they took it out (the tooth looks cool lol) and I'm still not hurting (and no I haven't taken any pain medicine) It's a little awkward and you don't want to open your mouth very wide, but other than that no pain. And I'm getting the stitches taken out on the 7th :D The bleeding and the gauze that you have to put in you mouth is annoying and made me gag a lot, but since that's been over I've been great! So yes, you'll be nervous. Yes, you'll feel a little bit of movement that they call a pinch (didn't hurt though) Yes, you'll be numb for a while, which feels weird. Yes, you can't open your mouth very wide. Yes, you HAVE to relax for the first couple of days. Yes, you have to watch what you eat. But no, it's not unbearable. No, you don't have to starve (just sip soup or applesauce.. something soft) And most importantly yes, you'll be fine. They don't expect you to be brave my own dentist told me that lol It will take a while for it to look normal and you'll have to rinse with this salt mixture (I like it, but that's because I love salt lol) It's 1/2 tsp salt with a warm cup of water, this mixture helps it to heal, but it doesn't burn it. So happy teeth pulling!

Saturday, September 18, 2010

not sure what to call this, just read it.

There are many things I'll never be able to say, do, show,... or even feel. Some people I will never be able to say sorry too. My Uncle Rick died on my birthday. The Sunday before it I felt this great need to just hug him and tell him I loved him, but I left church that day and never got the chance to tell and show how I felt and I will always regret that. So many time I could have been there for my friends or family and I chose to be somewhere else. So many wrongs that I can never make right. So for the times that I abandoned any of you or ignored you or whatever I may have done I am truly sorry.
But currently I'm regretting most of the incredible opportunities I've had that I let slip past me. The opportunities to live life to it's fullest. Yes, I am Apostolic Pentecostal, but that doesn't mean that life has to be boring! You just have to know your limits.
Live, Laugh, Love! It's SO true. LIVE life to it's fullest, LAUGH at any opportunity given, LOVE with all your heart. Sure if you love with all your heart you'll get hurt, but if you don't love with everything in you you'll regret it later. Is it easy, no, but don't look back when you're older and regret life. You can only live life once!
Make sure you have the things you needm but din't forget to (every once in a while) get things you want.
Don't just walk through life, but look around see life's beauty, enjoy every scent (that's worth enjoying), feel the breeze and let it take you somewhere far away to more happiness (even if you're already happy, you can be happier) Don't take for granted all the wonderful things around you, let them become a God-given drug.
Which brings me to a very big point. Don't leave God out! He alone makes life worth living. Think about it, what makes you happy? What are the thing that you would say make life worth living? Your spouse (fiance or boy/girlfriend), family, friends, pets, food,... even the weather? God made that! He created it, He knew we would need comfort in a physical form from others. Yes, we are created to worship Him and lead people to Him, but I also believe we were created for each other to give comfort, love, happiness, courage,... and to all together worship the creator of all things. Don't forget Him, He's important!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Christmas Tip

Ok, so here it is. Shop early, start shopping in like July. You'll have a lot less stress on time and money.

Also, you can do something crafty example: a jar of sweets with a cute ribbon and a name tag

Thursday, September 9, 2010


Did you know you can worry yourself to death? Yeah, it's true. And just think about how many people you worry about! It's not just you. It's your spouse, kids, parents, grandparents, guardians, siblings, friends, neighbors,... the list goes on and on. Then there's all the different kinds of worry! sickness, money trouble, bills, salvation, cleaning, working,... it really never ends. And guess what! There're all kinds of people out there putting more and more worry on you! Bigger taxes, higher costs, less insurance, more bills,.... Then you have all the people you don't even know that you worry about and that you hope the things that have happened to them never happen to you! Rape, murder, theft, cancer, diseases, marriage issues.... It's insane! People say they're trying to help and all they do is make it worse. I know you care and I know you worry, but in all honesty let me worry about me and you worry about you. People always try to butt in on people with marriage problems, you're NOT helping! Or they butt in on money problems, once again NOT helping. Every single person is different, we all deal with things our own way, don't try to make someone like you it won't work that person will be miserable because you are the only you and no one else can be exactly like you. They even say that with the family genes that if the parent felt strongly about something and it was passed down to the kid, the kid won't care as much as the parent. It's the same with skin (tanning)and even unfortunately religion. I'm not saying that the kid can't care as much, but normally they don't, they have to find what makes them care more for it on their own. Being pushy won't help, so stop worrying yourselves to death over someone else. Sure if the person lives in your house worry about them, but not to much, once they're out it's not your responsibility anymore, unless you're asked for help. Humans are humans, we will fall, but eventually we'll get back up. And we'll make mistakes, tons of them, but we'll keep going, while continually making more mistakes. Just think of God, he NEVER forces Himself on His people, but waits patiently. Just wait patiently, please.