Saturday, December 31, 2011

New Years (2011)

2012 is almost here. I can say I am excited for a New Year! Not a whole lot I can say about 2011 except that I learned a lot about myself. I can also say that this year went by so quickly, hopefully 2012 will go at least a little bit slower.

I'm looking forward to a New Year and I'm hopeful that 2012 will be a year full of happiness, love, accomplishment, and as always great health. I also want 2012 to be full of God and full of Godly things.

If I was one to make New Year Resolutions I would list them now, but because I know I will never go through with it I don't make them. I see a resolution as a promise to do something and I don't want to lie to myself. I will however list some things that I would like for 2012.
1. I would like to grow closer to God, always growing closer
2. I would like to lose weight
3. I would like to have a baby (or at least be pregnant before the end of the year, even if it's the very last day)
4. I would like to be as fashionable as I was when I was known as Diva
5. I would like to read my Bible more
6. I would like to clean more (be more organized and such)
7. I would like to cook more
8. I would like to wear my high heals more (Oh, yes. And gain that muscle I had in my legs back)
9. I would like to do my nails more (Yes, it makes me feel better about me)
10. I would like to exercise more (Yoga and the Norm)
11. I would like to make more things (I love my creativity and I would like to expand it to new things)
12. I would like to get at LEAST 3 rooms in my house completely painted
13. I would like to be at least a little more outgoing
... etc.
BTW, these were not in any particular order.

I hope you all have a fabulous, safe, and happy New Year and that you may keep to all your New Years Resolutions! God Bless!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

To Early To Clean...

My husband doesn't seem to understand that I'm not the type of person who just wakes just in the morning and starts cleaning and whatnot. He thinks that everyone is made like him and that if they aren't that they should start being like him, which clearly won't happen we're all made differently. See I have to wake up before I do things or I get a horrible headache for the rest of the day. Now this morning I'm not even the one doing the moving, but I'm already getting a headache from all of my husband's moving around. I so do love him, but it's just to early for all this cleaning.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Santa Claus?

Yeah, so I know parents think its cute to teach their kids about Santa, but that won't happen with my kids. It's lying to your kids and I don't believe in lying. I'll explain what other kids think he is to my children, but I will not let them believe in Santa Claus....
I want them to believe in something real!

Friday, December 23, 2011

For The Guys!

In this world there are guys who think they are men and there are guys who are men. Men realize that how old you are isn't what defines if you are a man or not, but that hard work, devotion, kindness, loving your wife, and taking care of your children and other such things really is how you tell if a guy is a man.
Guys, be a man not a wanna-be-man!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Anger Overload

So I've been awake for just about 2 hours now. Let's start off by saying that I didn't want to be awake until about now, but I couldn't fall back asleep. Well, I laid in bed hoping to drift off, nope. I laid there and looked at Myxer for some ring tones for my phone so it won't be so boring and found a few that I like.

 Last night I set up the tree, by myself, as usual. I'm not in the Christmas spirit so that was pretty boring.  While I set up the tree my husband played a video game, a stupid sports video game. And try to get his attention for anything while he's playing it, forget it. He either won't hear you, ignore you, or yell at you for messing up his game. Same with watching sports on tv. Personally I think all sports should be cancelled, forever!

It's snowing. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate snow? Yeah, well if not, I HATE SNOW! I would much rather never see another speck of snow for the rest of my life. It's cold, wet, slick, slimy, and far to bright.

Winter yeah, along with the snow I just can't stand winter. Because of the snow, because it's cold, because I have to stay inside,.... Sum it up to Winter is VERY depressing!

I've been working on getting the laundry all clean, but then I have to fold it and put it away... What's the point of putting it away when you'll just be wearing it in a few days anyways? And my back and neck hurt, I was cursed from both sides of the family, so carrying the laundry up and down the stairs and into the laundry room hurts a lot. And that's enough to tick me off right there.

Our house though it's almost Christmas looks as boring and unChristmasy as ever. I want new things to decorate the house lights to hang outside, lights to hang around the house inside, garland to have everywhere, candles galore, ornaments to hang from random yet beautiful places,... I just want the house to decorate itself.

I still don't have the Dining room painted, the Guest Bedroom, the Hallway, the Reading room, the Kitchen, the Laundry room, the Office,...oh and the Bathroom and 1/2 Bath. My brother is still super busy so he hasn't been able to come move the Bathroom door from the Kitchen to the Dining room so that we can install our dishwasher. SO I have a dishwasher and plenty of dishes, but I still can't use it. I want a backdrop in the Kitchen, plus to remove this stupid brick part of the wall that is there because there used to be a chimney thing. We really need to go through our stuff and decide what is worth keeping and what needs thrown away. There's a bookshelf out in the garage that needs fixed so we can have more 'storage' space. I want to hang pictures up our Stairway and a hand rail. Also a hand rail down to the basement. ... There's a lot to be done that I still want to do, all this stuff only starts the list. What I could really use right now it a fast, good quality painter that would work for cheap and paint about 8 rooms maybe 9. I need to see color on the rest of my rooms.  Bare walls are depressing. I want to show how great my house really is, but with the white walls it's just boring.

I think I just have so much stuff that needs done and so many things pilling up, so much on my mind,... it's just depressing me.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Let's Talk About Appreciation

Appreciation. I think people are getting a little confused on what actions are meant for appreciating  what things.

A husband and wife show appreciation towards on another:
   To appreciate  your spouse some people would say that you cook and clean (for a woman) and that you work hard and provide for a man. Now I guess to a degree that could be right, but the way I see it, it's wrong. To fully appreciate ones spouse is to love that person and that person alone with all your heart, mind, body, and soul. You appreciate them by telling them you love them, by never cheating on them, by back scratches, surprise gifts,... It may sound like little things, but haven't we always said that the best things in life are the little things, the little moments?

   You don't really clean a house to appreciate your spouse you clean your house because you appreciate cleanliness. Yes, it's nice to clean and your spouse will enjoy it, but that's not really why we do it. It's because it has to be done.

   Once again you don't really do it for a spouse. You cook because you appreciate eating and having a full stomach, not starving.

   Work is a necessity not an act of appreciation. You do work for you family and yourself out of necessity. Honestly how many of us would work if it wasn't necessary? Case and point.

Appreciation often can't be shown, it's felt. Because no matter how many times you do something nice for someone does it ever really show your full appreciation? No, it doesn't.    I rest my case.

Money, Ours Not Mine

Money, it's an annoying thing that I so wish was not necessary.

Husbands and wives often have arguments that have to due with money. Spouses often buy things without telling their spouse that they bought it, and that is wrong. Money decisions should be discussed and spouses should come to an agreement. Now the spouse that makes more money would say, "I make more money so I have that right", but they don't. Because when you get married the mine becomes an ours, so no matter who makes more money it is both spouse's money. In, I would hope most cases, the spouse that works less hours and brings in less money would  realize that the money is shared and that they would appreciate the effort put in by their spouse to provide for the family.

I'd like to note that sometimes appreciation isn't shown through something done. People can appreciate something and not really 'show' it, it's an appreciation that is deep down. Some people don't really know how to show their appreciation. ... Yeah, I think that's about all I have to say about that.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

He kept me, God kept me!

I just read a heart breaking post on Facebook. One of my friends posted about how much she misses her mom and how she hopes that her mom cares enough about her and her sisters to get over her addiction. This post broke my heart. Most of all this post made me think. It made me think of how happy I am that I never had to wonder if my mother loved me because there was no doubt ever in life, my mother loved me, and she still does.

It just once again reminded me that God kept me from that. And then it makes me remember all of the other things he's kept me from. Not to say I've never had any heartaches because I have, but there have been many things that I've never had to face. I am so thankful that God knows exactly how much we can handle and that he'll never put more on us than we can bear.

Monday, December 12, 2011

Disappointed, frustrated.. In Need Of Prayer!

So I said I wouldn't do this whole disappointed thing because I know a lot of things take time in life and I happen to have a lot of those things that are taking their sweet time in my life. I really did think I'd be able to go through these things and not get disappointed, but I guess there are just to many things that are weighing me down, taking to long to get a result. I know that God has it all under control and that none of this stuff is really that important, but I guess I have problems with the laying it at Jesus feet part.

 I like to be in control, which I guess is illogical since I can't see what's going to happen later today, tomorrow, or whenever. There's just something about not being in control that is.. well, flat out frightening! Honestly knowing that God is control, though once again I know he's looking out for me and will take care of me, is a scary thing to me. I mean what if you make the wrong decision? People who 'run their own life' wouldn't fret to much because in their eyes they can fix it themselves. But those of us who know that God is the one who really fixes it.. I don't know. I mean you have to wait on God and sometimes it feels like He isn't coming to your rescue, which is just about the time He does, but that last minute stuff terrifies me. I know it's all in trust and faith, I've been in church almost all of my life I've heard just about every sermon there is (of course some people preach it differently, but the ending result is normally the same) so I know what the preachers have to say about it all and I really do believe it. I know what they're saying is right. That's why it's so frustrating to me that it's so hard. If you believe in something and you know that beyond a shadow of a doubt that it's correct can it be so difficult?!

 I mean it's like housework I know that a house should be clean (and mine is normally not to bad) and  I know that I should clean the house, but for some reason doing it is so annoying, frustrating, difficult, hard, a flat out war! It's flesh, it's laziness, it's a battle.

Oh, please pray for me! Just so there isn't some huge panic. I'm not a backslider, I'm not going to backslide because I do believe. I guess I just need some strength and peace and whatever else God can throw at me to help me out take me through. I know that I need to be brought through the situation, not taken out of it because it will make me stronger.

What A Week This Will Be.

This week is going to be a hard week. Miles' job has decided to make more doors, which means more hours, which yes, is great, but he's going to be gone over half of the day. It's going to get lonely. It will be hard on us since he'll be sleeping most of the time when he actually gets to be home. But he'll be on his '2 week' shut down soon so everything will be fine. 

We still have to buy Christmas presents. We haven't even started. So that unfortunately means that I'll be the one shopping for them. Not even sure what people want. UGH!  Have I ever mentioned how much I hate to shop?.. that is unless it is clothes for me. Holidays just don't hold the same joy for me anymore. 

Well, I've been super hungry here recently, like all the time. Nothing fills me up. So I'm off to get some food in hopes that it will fill me up. Have a great day! 

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Am I Who I Think I Am?

I hope I am the type of person I think I am. I always try to be real and sincere. But I know that most of the time people aren't who they think they are.

I try not to ever intentionally tell a lie.
I know I'm lazy, shy, impatient, moody, and at times a big chicken. I know I'm not the best friend due to my lack of social skills which may make me appear to be a snob. My social skills lack because I'm a chicken, shy, and lazy. I realize this. I hope this doesn't offend anyone because I've never told anyone that I'm anything different than what I am.

I love to give advice if I feel strongly that my opinion is worth being heard. My opinion may not be due to my own life experiences. It could be from my parents, siblings, in-laws, friends, etc. I try to take lessons from the failures and successes of those around me. In my personal opinion that's smart.

I get paranoid when my friends say something negative but don't list a name because I'm afraid that it might be about me and I don't want to be these negative things.

I hope you realize just how real I am...

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

A New Diary

So I've started a new diary. I absolutely love to write so having a diary fits me.

Now a diary for everyday purposes doesn't always suit me because really my life is pretty boring. I guess I can write down my thoughts from the day, concerns, etc. But I always tend to forget to write.

But this diary is for something else. Now the purpose of this diary, for the time being, is going to be anonymous, but honestly I will tell you it's purpose eventually. Maybe in a few weeks. Just look for a Title that says Diary in it, besides this one, of course. Lol.

Monday, December 5, 2011

I Miss The Old Ways (Church)

I dream of a time when doing the right thing was easy. And not only was it easy, but it was expected and appreciated. A time when the world looked and sounded different. A time when we were free and we had fun, but we were guided by God and our lives were lead by His Word. A time when going to church was easy and 'popular' (Not to say that I like to 'follow the crowd' because I don't). A time when the church services were so full of God! People laying on the floor in the Spirit, dancing in the aisles, speaking in tongues, running around the pews, having many church services that are so full of God that the preacher doesn't even preach (Although the preaching is important too), people backing up the preacher, people gathering at the altar at any point in the service, prayer rooms and sanctuaries that you walk into and you can feel God as soon as you get your foot in the door,... I miss the old ways.

It seems that in order to have 'good church' you have to drain yourself of all energy in a fight. You have to worship when you don't feel God and when you're to tired to even want to lift your hand, pray and feel like it's hitting the ceiling,....

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Flat Tire

As I'm sure you know yesterday was Friday. Well, there was 30 minutes left of work and someone noticed I had a flat tire. So my mom brought an air compressor to fill it up, since my husband and I have just been filling the tire about once a week.

Today we are finally going to fix it! No more stupid flat tires! Yay! I cannot wait!

Of course that will be after work, but before I go with Miles to get his haircut.

Yeah, we've been married 2 years and I've never even seen the building where he gets his haircut. Lol. Of course we were trying to get his haircut for free by having me or my mom do it, but every time he sees our wedding pictures or video he goes on and on about how great his hair looked on our wedding day. Which of course leads to how much he wants his hair to look like that again.

Well, I've got things to do. Hope you all have a great day! And no flat tires LOL

Thursday, December 1, 2011

This Is Safari

She's one of the most beautiful kittens we've ever seen. It's hard to tell by her pictures, but she has both striped and circle markings. And her fur isn't like a gray tiger cat because her gray is a lighter gray mixed with an orange in some places. She's incredibly friendly, loves to be pet, play, and sit in our laps (or at least lay beside us). She was roaming around outside with her family on our front porch so we took her in. We couldn't catch any of the others, but even if we could have we couldn't have kept them. We would have to take them to the pound or quickly found them a different home.  Anyways that's our Safari. Oh, about the picture she thinks she's a baby. We did not put her in the kick and play she did that herself. It has been moved so that she and our other cats cannot get in it. After all its for a baby not a kitten... No matter how cute she looked in it.